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Saturday, May 24, 2008
6:14 PM
for memory's sake. kopped from ysabel's blog cos i was too lazy to upload from my hp... bowling sabbats rocked! and everyone, even estee!, did well! yeah and i reached my goal for the last day to have at least one strike =) and my trusty 9 pound ball!
From left: Mr James Tan (a thinner and nicer and younger version xD) amanda he, sylvia, estee, yilin, me, lanxin, chenying and ysabel.
why did they scrap term 3 sabbats?! you actually learn stuff! or, you actually WANT to learn stuff.
shiyun.
5:56 PM
明日です。私の気持ちは、うれしいか、怖いか、わからない。三週間は長い時間ですよ。日本人の家に住んでることは、どうでしょうか。いい日本語が話せますか。答え探してるなら、今日早い寝て、明日頑張って行こう!i am...happyscaredexcitedworriedanticipatingnervous...3 weeks. homework will pile up all the way to the time i come back. nevermind. let's go and come back with fantastic memories. じゃ、さようならね、シンガポール。行って来ます!shiyun.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
5:52 PM
the things happening around me are like slow, yet we have to work fast. eww... i think i'm becoming more and more passive. i need to go high. homework.deadlines.packing.shopping.school.ANYWAY my wkend has been pretty okay, managed to get SOME work done, esp AMES which i'm quite proud of =) love my organized hw schedule. just hope i actually follow it. xPplayed in church service today. i think i'm pretty crazy, in the sense that most ppl start off with children's ministry or youth, but i kind of plunged into the adult service. so besides a few wrong notes and wrong chords and the score kind of falling off, it was okay i guess. grand piano sounds nice as always. and uh, i kind of became like the dark horse which came into the limelight. everyone was like "GOOD JOB! you played so well!" frankly speaking, it wasn't that gd, but i suppose ppl don't pay alot of attention to the accompaniment. so this is how i started serving in church. for a super non-proactive person like me, its others that encouraged me into it. and i realized no matter how much you try to avoid, God will still bring you back to his plan. and after this, though i still believe i don't play very well, it's made me appreciate piano more. and thanks to my piano tcher for the "you have alot of potential IF you work hard" encouragement and pep talks. she asked me about my plans regarding piano, like where i want to head and stuff like that. seriously, i've nvr considered that. piano is a skill, and yes i do like playing the piano and i can sort of "feel" the music, but i'm not sure if its gna go out as a career or smth. but i don't believe you can only work hard if you have something big in mind, even if its just for leisure, i still will focus and probably work hard for dip. okay, you can't ask a indecisive person about her future plans. i'm becoming a really dull person. NOOOO.i'm halfway done for shopping for japan trip, i'm still missing 3G hp, souvenirs and shoes. ooh ok. and i want nice knee-length shorts or above knee skirts. RARH no time! i haven't packed yet, i haven't even dragged the luggage out of wherever it is. japan trip is scaring me. i'm thinking how i would live in a japanese person's house for 3 weeks and not feel awkward. still, think of harajuku, disneyland, shopping and food! i'm using up 3 wks of my precious jun hols so i better make this trip even more priceless. i need exercise, more specifically, fresh air.shiyun.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
12:13 AM
one more week has ended. rarh... as expected, there was the last minute PILE of hw that sealed our fate for the june hols. its kind of gotten numb already. SABBATS! okay my electives this year are not TOO bad. and as usual, the morning sabbats are boring, followed by a more fun afternoon sabbats. i actually expected more from forum theatre, cos its... theatre right? but we spent the session discussing on racial stuff in s'pore and abit of warm-up. AND they split us up into groups where you don't really know everyone. okay.... for bowling its was better, cos first there were more 312 people around! and we got to go outside school. and our instructors were fun ppl. we had fun laughing over the instructor's name (JAMES TAN! o.0) and we learnt the sliding position which makes my foot really pain... but all in all i think my ball kept going into the gutter, and that i am always luckier in the first rounds. but nvm, i'm gna come out of this sabbats a better bowler. mwahaha. at least can flaunt the stylo finishing pose. xDHAMAMATSU breifing. it's making me excited =)) and scared and everything. rarh. first i gotta buy and pack stuff amidst the crazy hw and everything. wk 10 will be crazy. and its pretty scary staying in someone's house for 3wks, with limited communication. haha, but it's gna be a real nice experience! i've just decided not to brin my laptop there sicne they said there should not have wireless connection... blah. but i'm still gna bring schoolwork there. too bad. we're sad people. and lastly i hope i have a very nice host family who will take me out to FUN places and are really friendly! oh yes, i'm amazed at the ofuro etiquette. communal bath! haha. omigosh, i AM EXCITED! open house tmr! sadly there's duty so i can't chiong as much hw. i'm sry i'm becoming muggerish these few wks cos there's really too much hw to clear before the trip. anw, there's also arena finals, church choir playing, lingo's b'day celebration, NYAA cip + necessary shopping for japan trip and packing + homework and SIAs. i'm amazed at how sardine-packed my life is. i think all our lives are. but there's this saying that human beings start from the basics of life, start to advance and then reach a peak in advancement, then things get chaotic and the downfall will start, and finally it will go back to the basics again. blah. i'm thinking of changing skin.shiyun.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
12:19 AM
jialun and lejing san has said my blog is becoming too depressing... okay then i shall start off by counting my blessings today.thankyou mum and dad for the ipod nano! =)) so finally shiyun has moved on to better technology since... centuries ago. YAY! the irony, how they always tell me not to watch too many videos and they are actually giving me something that allows me to do just that. HAHA. and its 4GB, its not some shitty number like 512MB which really cannot fit all of my songs. so tytyty! i'm eagerly looking at my ipod which is still charging like a snail... tomorrow=last day of school officially! the sad thing is the deadlines aren't. boo. but sabbats are coming! =D it is, considering that it is now past midnight, TEN days to japan trip! too many what ifs to ask... so just see how. i'm sry i still have to rant that hw is still piling and its nearing the hols already! somehow there's a bad feeling that there will be the last minute holiday hw pile tmr. OKAYY! sabbats coming up, ny open hse, flag day, arena finals all before my japan trip! which reminds me, i have to do extra NYAA cip hours to cover for my three weeks. o.0and i haven't packed my stuff, or went shopping to get stuff that i need. WAHAHA. i hope its not tatamis for the next three weeks. =)shiyun.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
7:56 PM
絆 亀梨和也先のことどれほどに 考えていても 本当のことなんて 誰にも見えない空白?心に何かかつまってあやまちばかり くり返してた一歩づつでいいさ この手を離さずにともに歩んだ日々が 生き続けてるからボロボロになるまで 引きさかれていてもあの時のあの場所 消えないこの絆流れゆく時間の中 失わぬようにすれ違いぶつかった本当の気持ち心に染みてく あいつの想いに出逢えた事が 求めた奇跡立ち止まることさえ 出来ない苦しさの中に見えた光 つながっているからうそついたっていいさ 涙流していいからあの時のあの場所 消えないこの絆一歩づつでいいさ この手を離さずに共に歩んだ日々が 生きつづけてるからボロボロになるまで 引きさかれていてもあの時のあの場所 消えないこの絆Translation: kizuna -kamenashi kazuyaNo matter how much you think about the futureNo one can see the truthA void? Something’s stuck in my heartI kept repeating my mistakesJust one step at a time; don’t let go of my handThe days we spent together still liveEven if we’re torn apart til we’re raggedThat time, that place, this bond won’t disappearMaking sure we don’t lose it in the flow of timeOur true feelings pass and bump against each otherMy heart is steeped in love for herThat we met is the miracle I longed forThe pain of not even being able to stand stillWe’re connected by the light we saw insideIt’s okay if you lied; it’s okay if you cryThat time, that place, this bond won’t disappearJust one step at a time; don’t let go of my handThe days we spent together still liveEven if we’re torn apart til we’re raggedThat time, that place, this bond won’t disappear~absolutely beautiful.
7:36 PM
weekend. the time for chionging stuff.
my june hols is... if you don't count wkends, i have only FOUR wkdays when i actually SLEEP IN MY HOUSE. and there's council camp 2 days after my 3 week japan trip! so, i'm going to be physically and mentally drained like CRAZY. i can't even go for CCA! but i'll make my japan trip so worth it i'll be happy and jappy! and i dunno what to do with the pile of hw. currently, i'm trying to make it lesser. well, trying hard. i even have to bring my hw and laptop to japan. SIGH.
anyway, first time volunteering at AMK library! the IMH thing didn't really work out, so we decided to do NYAA at AMKlib. it was efficient so we could start work right away. spent like 2h handing out some forms at the entrance, registering ppl, blah... public face! haha. and i did it with this indonesian girl who was really nice. cheryl and estee were shelving books! ahaha, which is quite sad.
CLEP is crazy. everything is an essay. even the compre is almost an essay. a question is like.. 50 marks! o.0 and so there's this automatic pressure to write more right?
school is getting hard. am i getting stupid or is the syllabus just crazy?
頑張れ、シーユン!絶対あきらめない!
勉強勉強!笑って、きれいな空を見上げて!
let's face it with a smile.
shiyun.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
11:23 PM
a day of school, a day more burdens, a day cleared, a day to face tomorrow. school is just depressing i don't wanna continue.anyway, we watched dead poets society during a-lit today! and it was nicenicenice, esp the end! so sad neil shot himself because his parents were totally against him acting in theatre and helped him pave his road to become a doctor. poor him, he should have just left his parents off to somewhere else. i mean, his parents are just a bunch of square idiots. and it was so heartwarming to see the whole class kind of went against the headmaster to support Mr. Keating. seriously the school was some shitty system which only focused on tradition and parents. the last part was sad, it was the kind that you cried but smiled in the end. when the movie ended and the lights were on, people were tearing. the rest of the day was a one note drone. even third lang was quite boring today.RAFT: i don't understand why they are making us write some weird comicstrip/advert/chart about math?! firstly, i am 1000000% sure that quadratic functions do NOT talk. it's so stupid, like why do we have to even pose as a quadratic function and write to some other mathematical being? it's not creativity, its trying too hard.(there are two times of the day when i really don't like to be disturbed, or talked to. that is, early morning when i just wake up. and late at night, like after 1130. super irritated.)LA lecture today there was a talk on body image and tchers started saying we should be kind to ourselves. but is the school kind to us? no, and if they did not realize, maybe students are too busy to even eat? its so ironic its amusing sometimes.i miss 203! i miss the 4 of us together! i miss zzc's chinese lessons! i miss the fact that the times we had together were, somewhat, innocent fun. maybe its sec3, i'm beginning to see the darker side of things. blah. what can we do but move on. choir concert! jiayou nyc! i'm broke.shiyun.
Monday, May 05, 2008
11:44 PM
shiyun feels stupid, suddenly... blah. i don't think my grades are dropping alot, but i think i've slackened quite alot, and my expectations are lowering, even if i don't realize it. perhaps i'm taking things too lightly? i don't feel i've studied alot this year... and i could have done better. well, don't give me some crap abt how you are worse off, cos each to her own right? i mean if you know yourself, then you should guage your potential and work towards it right? anyway, yiping was PRO today. chongmin too, but i can't really appreciate guzheng so i can't comment much abt it. hehh. but for someone to learn a very fast piano piece in one month is amazing, and for me, its miraculous. like one month will be the time i take to figure out all the notes. okay, i will strive to master my piano if time actually permits, cos its irritating knowing that you are diploma level but still worse off than someone who is, probably grade 7. -.- no, i just think i take very very long to learn my notes. okay, i'm like super bored learning chinese poems. i don't want to memorize poems!!! and they are all the same, talk about spring summer autumn winter, its as if its the only thing they can ever get inspiration from. more deadlines... i want to finish my AMES and CLEP story BEFORE japan trip. which is 3 weeks from now. which is bad. holidays are equivalent to home schooling. pls correct this misunderstanding that students have alot of time during the hols. "you have the whole june hols to complete your homework!" YEAH, as in jun hols, if you minus off overseas trip and camps, that's like one week? right, i have one WHOLE week to clear like hw from 7-8 subjects. one subject one day. i bet 30 years ago, ppl were still like, maybe flying kites on the grass at my age... i foresee a busy, unpredictable year ahead. jiayoujiayou. shiyun.
Saturday, May 03, 2008
4:00 PM
yesterday was just BAD. firstly, i woke up late for school and even though i managed to take 162 to the macritchie bus stop on time, we couldn't even get on the next bus. we saw three 74s and one 852 pass us!!! we stood at the bus stop for half an hour, and every bus that we could take was FULL. =( by the time we could squeeze up the bus, it was already 720 and we were already LATE for school. but ohwell, everybody was late that day so they let us off =) school was boring. and more deadlines came up. what, should i laugh or cry regarding CCA? the only thing i felt sorry was that i was late. i admit that, cos i wanted to go but had to wait for ppl and pass my edusave form to mrs ng. BUT, just kicking us out of CCA for not doing refelctions is like !@#*&^%. we walked out anyway. you can't expect a child to be good if the parent does not set a good example.i miss the times when i was really jumping around and really eager to help out in any way during CCA, how i waited behind the curtain to clean up the feathers and moved the property man box, or how we did yoga in m4, how we cleaned every inch of the audi, tang's bitching, the REALLY GOOD FOOD before production, the banning of SUGARED WATER, cabbage soup, the highing and tension before production and having a wonderful, perfect show. and i miss how bonded we were. and how we moved as a club. and how professional in terms of acting and backstage we were. it's quite sad to see the club like that. and if we turn sec4 next year, i really wonder how the club will be like, since we are the last batch to have tang, and not everyone in our batch knows him and his way of working.i just don't want to see expectations drop.SIGH. enough of CCA, i should feel accomplished since i finished some work. =) i don't like teaching my bro. today has been boring.shiyun.
herbasics
shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH
DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE
ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music
PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure
WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time
wishes
striving for these
- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!