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Wednesday, October 31, 2007
6:37 PM
the start of the hols. CCA CIP at bugis. quite crap, free labour, stoned, talked, quite nice bonding time.went out. spent money. food. earrings. random stuff.baked brownies and cookies. watched tv.watched jap dramas on comp. slacked.oh well dun feel like blogging at the moment. but still, choral night is coming and i hope we put up a good show. i mean with such a crappy plot, it better be good. and class chalet is coming too i am EXCITED! yayness. play in the beach, barbecue, slack, crap. escape! class bonding. i gotta say this week and next week will be quite fun. then after choral night performance it will be really really sad. somehow i dun want the day to come. ='( i like hols because... there's class chalet!there's choral night!there's hokkaido trip!there's camps here camps there!can go out more!can watch more jap shows!can sleep in late!i dislike hols because...there's homework.there's cca.there's boredom.203's gna separate.school's gna start in 2 months time.it marks the end of sec2 and the start of another stressful year.oh WELL. i shall just forget, have fun, savour the last memories and gambatte!random. [[ i am little miss fickle. i wear little striped mp3 socks and a maroon bandana and i love sudoku. am currently looking for fish earrings. i spent most of my money on food or snacks. still haven't paid my debt for my friend's present. ]]this is like a sum up of what i have been doing, OR buying for the last week. the result: i am currently going broke.shiyun.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
11:28 AM
school's like officially over and frankly speaking it isn't a great thing at all. last day of school started off pretty dead in the beginning, playing rounds and rounds of speed which lingo got really good at and then stoning off. level closure was ok... i mean our montage isn't that fantastic but it really did show the 203 spirit. feel quite sad that some classes dun get to show their whole montage. well... and we didn't win any prizes either. but that's quite normal cos 203 doesn't really win alot of prizes. but i gotta say we r still one of the most enthu classes. 203's a very simple class actually. i mean we are just very simply "lame" in our jokes... we can play very very childish games and still bring out the fun of it. so simply stating, we are really very simple. i love the time when we got back from level closure, the whole class was starting to get really high and then the 4 of us started sitting at the back of the class and singing. the whole class started to join us! like the whole back table was filled and then everyone was crowding around singing class songs and all the songs related to 203, doing "i've got peace like a river" and singing "where's the peanut". it really brought me back to like the essence of 203. like how we're quite different in certain ways but we really can enjoy something like this together. it's really cool cos everyone's joining in, you can see lydia smiling and ppl are taking photos and video taping. the atmosphere got really really high, and i was laughing until my stomach hurt. and then the most like emotional part (for me) was when yanquan suddenly burst out and screamed really loudly THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS FOR 203! it was really such an outburst i was totally touched by it ok. i mean i knew she was very happy and touched when the whole class was singing but that outburst really brought tears to my eyes cos you could see how passionate she was and how 203 really really is very very unique. it's not everyday you see yanquan screaming at the top of her lungs ok. 203 will be something really memorable for me cos it's a class where everyone can connect and there's just this bond we share. i mean last year was quite turbulent for us with all stealing and cheating cases but this year, i think 203 really has grown stronger. and you see ppl who dun usually care about this class starting to open up. it's seriously touching. it's down to the last few days with one another and it's gonna be another time of parting. just that this time, it's more hurting to the heart.203 may not mean much to some, but for the 33 of us, it meant 2 years of our lives. as the first line of the chorus of love so sweet by arashi puts it, 思いで ずっとずっと忘れない 空二人が離れていってもin my memory i'll never ever forget this sky, even if we're aparti wish all 203-ers all the best for the coming year.and GO FOR CLASS CHALET! shiyun.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
1:36 PM
currently pissed at the moment.
dun worry... i'll get over it quite fast.
but i really hate it when i am alone in the room and then ppl suddenly barge in and scream at me.
and i dun even know what's happening.
urgh
1:10 PM
haven't really been updating nowadays... post exam is like simply boring, everyone's just huddling together and playing cards. haha. just put up mercury again ( and i do hope its the very very last time) on thurs. ok la no big screw ups. it's time to look forward to another new production. been missing learning journeys and choral night rehearsals cos of cca! so sad cos its supposed to be class bonding time. and i wanted to go to the art museum. not that i'm very artistically equipped but then i've nvr been there before so... but then there's also this cca cip thing which will take up 4 nights next wk. ok at least there's smth to keep me busy... i've been like hanging around at serene centre for many many days... haha. it's post exam, it's after school and too early to go home and you can't do anything at home either. but it's quite nice just talking cos you really get some inside info from ppl. hehe... next wk should be more exciting... i think. there's family day, volleyball competitions, sandwich making competition (-.-), level closure, class closure... and i hope the montage will be good and i'm all ready to cry then. it's the last wk of school and it's gonna be really really sad. considering how far 203 has come from the turbulent times during sec1 to a much more united class... oh sheesh i will miss 203, all my friends, all my tchers, all the memories. i'm thankful to have a great class, with a really nice FT. i did ok this year in terms of marks... i mean stupid eoys pulled down my LA and humans... but overall i guess its not too bad la... about the same as sec1. i was improving! but then oh well i shall just chong for sec3 and everything... and i'm contemplating going for the creative arts prog. see how la. i dun have a portfolio at all... holiday hw spoils the holidays... like 2 compos, algebra ws.this is a boring post.looking forward to class chalet! yays. hope more ppl come.shiyun.
Friday, October 12, 2007
8:53 PM
In Christ alone will I gloryThough I could pride myself in battles wonFor I’ve been blessed beyond measureAnd by His strength alone I’ll overcomeOh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my handsBut those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I standIn Christ aloneI place my trustAnd find my glory in the power of the crossIn every victoryLet it be said of meMy source of strengthMy source of hopeIs Christ aloneIn Christ alone do I gloryFor only by His grace I am redeemedFor only His tender mercyCould reach beyond my weakness to my needAnd now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him moreAnd to count my gains but losses to the glory of my LordIn Christ aloneI place my trustAnd find my glory in the power of the crossIn every victoryLet it be said of meMy source of strengthMy source of hopeIs Christ alonethank you LORD for the fairly well piano grade, even though i thought i would fail, thank you LORD for the chinese grade, even though my compo wasn't as good but my paper improved overall. thank you that i didn't break my promise and i really studied for it. thank you LORD for the maths grade, that despite being discouraged throughout the year, u pulled me through and made me strong, thank you LORD for guiding me through the exam period, that at least i still had that smile, that strength. i pray for tuesday, that whatever grade i have is yours. that no matter good or bad, it will be your will. i pray for cca, that it will be smooth and you'll provide me with that joy and enthu to do my very best. i pray for choral night, that the whole class can put up a great performance, that we'll feel the bond together, i pray for my friends who have walked with me throughout these 2 years. i pray for the year, that everything will be in your hands, that everything will be for your glory.who am i without u? for i came here with nothing, and i shall leave here with only a heart to worship you. shiyun.
8:17 PM
things just start sloping downwards after the exams. i mean, u get yr papers back, u slack in the classroom, u TRY to prac for choral night, u HAVE to buck up for cca (memorising lines), u sit in front of the comp and rot, u decompose in front of the tv. fine, its not like that's a really bad life, i mean, i would like this more than exams... but, considering the fact that it is I, who naturally is not that sporty, that outgoing, that sociable, NEED some fun at this point. in a world where people are alive, fun and always on the go, i seem to be lagging behind, i seem to be stopping, without saying a word. yet in a second world where i live, it seems i'm the one wanting to jump, wanting to go out, yet the world just falls dead on me. it's really not my natural thing, to socialize with everyone on the planet, or to just go out with anyone i see. seriously, count 8-10 years back and u won't see me like this. well, i grew changing gradually. i preferred sitting back and listening to the whispers of the earth. but, call it being pushed, i was pushed to the front, to the face of the earth. it is a change. people at the face of the earth do not see the other side. they look on forward, they are charged with enthusiasm, they want to advance. being there is great, cos u move forward, and more ppl are there. most of us want to be there. it is where, it's great and its fun. did i ever try looking back? yeah ok, deep inside i'm not a very face front person. sometimes its nice to be at the back. its nice to just look back at everything. it's really where u tear down all the fronts, all the masks and see the individual in you. i mean, reflecting on who u really are. i really like, and i really appreciate heart to heart talks, chats that just are a simple reflective time. it really beats going down to a wacking party and go back feeling all high and... these are stuff we all love, we all love the front of the earth, we feel that sense of exhiliration. but when we question the soul its really all about the truthfulness and the depth of this life. i like feelings. i like to feel with the heart. its not really called emo-ing, but, its a certain connection that i would like to make. the heart is really what we're supposed to listen to. that's why i prefer the depth and beauty of language as compared to cold hard facts. it feels. it's something that links to your heart and you can really feel and express. call it drama.emo.whatever. but if u ask me whats my real personality, i really can't answer that question. i can only tell you now, i am HIS. God's the one i can trust forever. shiyun.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
10:52 AM
WHO AM IWho am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
10:18 AM
liberation has finally come! exams weren't really that long actually... and i dun really feel that FREE actually. ok partly bcos during exam time i was also slacking as usual... but then well now i'm really free i can just do whatever i want... heheh. science ended with a kind of bad note... haha cos i didn't know how to do some of the questions. thats really really bad. i wouldn't say the paper was hard la, but it was not easy too. ok fine mebbi i didn't study as well or smth. but anw after exam we went out to eat at west mall, which kind of had practically not much stuff. but then thank u thank u linghan, lingo and amelia for the cd! and i was quite lucky it came with a complimentary cd as well! hahah. and then later we went to see mrs chitra at mgs. and bcos we stopped at the bus stop opp kap right and it was raining heavily and it was quite a long walk to mgs, amelia had this really crazy idea to just run in the rain... so we ran, hongzi and all. haha it was so weird la cos we were totally drenched and then the little mgs girls were like carrying umbrellas. think we were quite weird. but haha i was quite amazed the guard actually let us into the school since we were so wet. but i actually like the after-rain feeling. its quite nice and refreshing. then we saw mrs chitra which was like really really nice! she was so happy to see us lor... so she bought us drinks and then we went to like talk. and it was really nice cos it didn't feel like a tcher-student relationship, but more of friends. she's still cool and funky. its really great to see her again. our class missed her to bits! and it was quite funny cos we were like gossiping in this quiet canteen of mgs. i think we were quite loud and there were like ppl looking. but, nevertheless, loved the time spent with her. then later me, lingo and amelia went to AMK hub to buy linghan her present. and linghan better like it cos we spent a whole lot of time choosing and walking inside as well as outside the mall. and we like walked the whole mall at least twice ok. and the sport shop where we bought the present, we went in there like more than 3 times. at the end of it we were like so embarassed to go in there to buy the present cos the person already knew who we were. haha. so if linghan doesn't like it, i dun care she MUST like it. took great pains to get it... sigh linghan's taste ah... very hard to get presents leh!i wanted to go out today lor... even planned it with ppl. and then cca had to spoil it all. like 12-3 is such a bad timing to have cca cos its in the middle of the day... so what can i do, i just like spent my morning on the comp, on videos, listening to my cd. ok i think its really bad to repeat the production again cos it will not be a one-time only thing. then u won't really miss it. sigh... tmr as well... and third lang some more. i have a feeling everyone's gna pon it la but then it's not very nice. dunno la... i have 1/2h more. after exam must play as much but somehow i'm not really doing it. hah. i am waiting for class chalet. shiyun.
Friday, October 05, 2007
3:02 PM
3 days to liberation and one more paper left! ok its not very estatic at this point of time. and too bad i'm still gna analyze papers. haha... i think exams now are starting to get abit harder... after LA paper which was like OK only cos the passage was quite hard. and i didn't know how to do some questions. plus, summary was so short i added alot of extra stuff to make up for the words. my compre has always been bad so sigh. but i guess its still ok... i guess i could pass. geog today was so-so... i mean considering the fact that i tried to study all the stupid topics which are really boring but couldn't memorize them properly, i guess it was not too bad. they tested agriculture! which was the one i really hated. and then i didn't know some questions for both questions so i didn't know which to choose. but ok i chose global warming that one but then i started to regret after i did like half of it. but then i didn't care already so i just continued. some questions i really didn't know ok and the graph was hard... so i just crapped out alot of stuff and erm crossed fingers. aiya but then geog... i'm so glad i'm washing my hands off it next year. well, ok there's IH but then....science last paper. and i haven't really studied. well, i studied bio today, mebbi except ecology which looks really like geog to me. physics is gna take me some time to understand and chemistry i just need to be really familiar with equations. but science is not that bad to study. not like geog, which i think i subconsciously chose not to rmb the facts. maybe its a mindset. but then i'm gna do my best for science cos i wanna score for this. ok...i finally got to try island cremery's apple pie ice-cream! which was really really nice! they had crusts and chunks of apple in it and it really tasted like apple pie! been there so many times but nvr seen the ice cream and then today we came when they just opened and there it was! their apple pie is really nice and the ice cream as well. haha i'm coming back for more apple pie ice cream and i think i should go when they just open bcos it was finishing when i bought it. well... it will happen when we liberate. haha. i dun like the wkend... it's boring except that can sleep late but then i mean lazing at home besides piano and tennis... must study science tmr. i'm getting really sick of studying. and come to think of it i wonder how i ever got thru 8 years of school cos i dun really study a lot... i mean i dun really MUG like crazy i just sit at the table and stare at notes... last minute. and then i realise next time when i go JC i'm probably gonna die cos i'm really last minute. oh well... my aim for this year is all A1s if i can and score well for LA so i can be fully persuaded that lit will be fine for me... closed door, table, fan, comp, radio, wind, table lamp... dull dull dull. i need jap shows, escape theme park, chalet, movies, food, hokkaido.shiyun study science starting saturday.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
2:53 PM
this is what happens when i slack. haha. but anw since im bored...THREE WEIRD THINGS ABOUT YOUi talk to myself. yeah steph's gna agree totally.i laugh when i'm not supposed to. or when there's like dead silencei sing in the bathroom. haha! THREE NAMES THAT PEOPLE CALL YOUshiyuntungcrescentTHREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE30/09 - isn't that such a lovely date?holiday dates! the day when he comes again.THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE PAST 33 MINS watch tvblogged, and i'm doing it againate smthTHREE WAYS TO BE HAPPYbe positive! (haha so inspirational)rely on himdun think so much. its sometimes better to be simple.THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AS OF NOW secretyi lu xiang beiqi li xiangjiang nani'm relieving old songs... THREE PEOPLE YOU MISSmy previous LA tchers. they were so awesome...6A batchi WILL miss 203...3 GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE cold hard cash will do... something really personal and sweet to me.multi-linguistic powers. hahaha.THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES scribbling/sketchingsingingmusicTHREE PLACES YOU WANNA GO FOR HOLIDAY japan!francesome place where no one has been before, where its cool and refreshing. THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON CHARACTERSermm... THREE GIRLS'/BOYS' NAMES yamashita tomohisa! =Dmatsumoto jun erika todaTHREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO dun really go to malls... except like j8, coro and ah dunno...THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE FASTFOODSnuggets with barbecue sauce! mcspicy/cheeseburgerdoes ice-cream count? mcflurry!THREE FAVOURITE DRINKSstrawberry milkshakebubble teamilo? THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAGbooksstationerypaper. THREE FAVOURITE COLOURSpeach pinkcreampastel greenTHREE EVENTS YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO class outing!class chalethokkaido trip!ok... haha. this is getting boring...
2:20 PM
hah maths is OVER! great and today's paper was kind of short so everyone had time to check! but still stupid me just had to live up to what ms chooi said in my progress report. C-A-R-E-L-E-S-S. ok how could i care less about this thing? first paper was ok and i could do the questions but carelessness has to push its way thru and make the paper so yuan wang! sheesh. and that paper had no bonus question. second paper was not bad. about the same difficulty as paper1. i hereby deem that this yr's eoy maths paper wasn't so hard after all. well after getting freaked out by ms chooi who said that the paper was hard and then realising that it was set by mr chiang and ms teng,who set the killer paper in term 2, haha it wasn't THAT bad. yay. i think i finally see abit of light for my maths. its been going down down down since term2. yesterday chinese paper was ok. haha such a typical answer for such a typical paper. did gong han about some stray cats in housing area which was typically boring and really not my kind of writing. compo was...well ok chinese compos are kind of boring. did the ji xu wen, hah as if i would do bao zhang bao dao or some weird miao xie wen about a street or smth. i mean haha can you emo on a street? so yeah anw the ji xu wen was quite personal for me cos it really did kind of happen. and erm yes according to 2 yrs of compos, english or chinese, i always try to make it a point to dramatize everything. which is.... ke que ke dian la. compre was ok... zong he was not bad ok except one question which i'm not sure but compared to last yr it was tons better. chang wen suo duan was the usual stuff. compre as well. well, what can u say abt chinese paper?tmr is LA paper 2. which really proves why i'm slacking at this moment. ok i mean my compre is not GREAT in fact it's kinda bad but i mean what can u study? mebbi i'll like look thru some test papers or smth. and mebbi study for geog which is on fri. ahh stupid geog. i nvr have the patience and the willingness to study this really boring subject. i mean history is quite bad enough but geog. that's the limit. yeah how does pollution come about and how do we stop it and what are the consequences. or they teach u how to grow rice or smth. b-o-r-i-n-g. so LA's kind of unpredictable as always, u can't really study. i really dun mind not studying geog cos if i fail its not gna hurt that much. its science which i haven't studied. and yeah science is quite impt for me. compared to geog, science is a wee bit more interesting. except the e.m.f.s and potential differences and resistence. oh yeah i'm so resisting this topic. sh-eesh.ok... i promised myself i shall start work at 4. and its 2.35! which means i can still slack a while more. haha. going to school tmr will be so stupid cos its only a 1 half hour paper. oh well... 203 ppl got a little high during break today and they were writing lame jokes on the board. like why did cinderella's soccer team fail? cos her coach was a pumpkin! and why did the refree give her a red card? cos she ran away from the ball. and what drink did somebody give David Beckham when he was too afraid to kick the ball? justea, which means just "ti"(kick). amazing how our class can be so... haha. there's no exam mood in class.its just all so high. and i like it.shiyun.
Monday, October 01, 2007
5:33 PM
ask me why i'm blogging now in the middle of eoys... haha. well it was kind of sao xing studying on that special day.. ok so it wasn't that special but i mean no one likes studying on that day right.LA and history went OK... i guess. i mean the LA psg was smth we all had seen before but then i'm not very sure of the second question. and compo, well not my best i felt, but on the whole quite satisfactory. ok i didn't even have time to check. i was like hastingly speed reading thru all my ans and then zzc went "ting bi!"... argh... history was OK... i was so pissed merger and separation didn't come out for SEQ cos i spent time studying THAT. in the end it came out in SBQ which was so... bleh i dun like SBQ. and er the questions were quite indirect. i mean answers are all in yr head its just a matter of which one fits the ques.. oh well i also almost didn't have time for that. also not enough time to check thru all... took so long for SBQ until my SEQ were all in scribbles... ok i mean its over i am washing my hands off fricking history. we now live in the present and i realise chinese is tmr!which is bad BUT also good. i mean chinese is not a study subj so i suppose its ok to slack a bit. there's only like gong han and si han format and all the xiu ci shou fa to study. but of cos i'm scared of duan wen tian kong cos i can flunk that really really nicely. think my record was like 6/20... haha and i got 10 for last yr's eoys which was really bad cos at least a decent grade should be around 16. oh well its not like i have fab chinese vocab, in fact its not very gd. thats smth bad cos usually i have ling gan but don't have the vocab to write... ahh. which makes me scared of compo too. i hope the ji xu wen is not some boring old limited story where they tell u what u MUST right and add in yr compo. its so limited ok and boring... i want one-word essay. and erm i can so forget abt bao zhang bao dao and yi lun wen. i detest those style of writing. it gives me zilch satisfaction writing that. but ok... surprisingly, once exam starts, everything seems to like calm down. pre-exam period is the really jittery period where i start going abit stress-high. but then now its like yeah ok... its not so bad. and yes i'm counting down its SEVEN more days to freedom! its nearer by the day! oh yes i have to talk about my really bad seating arrangement. i am right in front of the teacher's chair as well as a visualiser and all the tcher's stuff. so its pretty irritating when u look up and u get this really horrible view of the visualiser and the invigilator. i mean haha i dun like invigilators being too close to you... rmb last yr some tcher stood behind me for like 10 mins during eng compre and i couldn't concentrate at all. well this year its worse cos i'm right in front... well positive aspects, i can be sure i will NOT cheat and its pretty easy to ask for extra paper like that. i mean most students have to raise their hands and flail it vigorously in the air to catch the tcher's attention. and sometimes u hear loud whispers calling "zzc!!! zzc!!!" haha.... its easier to like move up and tell the tcher softly or mebbi just fling a hand across. but so far haven't had this problem. tchers are kind enough to know when i need paper. which is nice. haha. RIIIGHT.... chinese paper tmr. and i can't believe i actually promised zzc i'll work hard for this test. i mean do i look like i'm working hard for chinese? oh well i didn't guarantee gd results but ill try my best tmr... wish me all the best!shiyun
herbasics
shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH
DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE
ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music
PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure
WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time
wishes
striving for these
- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!