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Monday, July 30, 2007
5:41 PM
ahh... currently loading youtube videos. these videos take an awfully long time. anw sabbaticals start today and its kinda mixed feelings. so basically math olympiad was some kind of 16 lectures stuffed into 5 lecture sabbatical. we had this chinese professor, i emphasis CHINESE, who sped through 10 examples of ALGEBRAIC MANIPULATION ( and i mean the really hard ones) like a bullet train gosh he could have gone for guiness. well we ppl whose brains were still not working in the morning tried to catch up with his pace and accent and then realised that we could just copy and forget it. i mean its not like its VERY important. sheesh. maths. my maths was so screwed... i mean its really bad for me. my mum was like, " thats bad..." yeah i know she didn't have to say that. anyway on a lighter note, song composition was fun! quite lah. we watched music and lyrics which was really entertaining... i liked the song! HAH must get the score... and we tried composing songs. the theme was like friendship... X( quite a cliche theme i guess. but too bad we had to make do with it. well.. i'm not sure about the lyrics yet my mind was quite blank during the sabbats but then on the way to third lang suddenly had inspiration... haha. i like composing songs. its NICE.well third lang... ok i got my test back! not bad not bad... as usual rachel topped the class. dunno how many times she did that already but we all already KNEW that she would top the class. smart ass! tmr history test and i'm not rehli gna mug cos i had my fair share of mugging during the wkend... mebbi revision yeah. sighsigh... but u know suddenly i have this full fledged passion for history! i also dunno why may be the tcher or smth. but i just realised that history was interesting! hmm... it makes studying much easier! musical viva tmr... not interested in South American music though... tribal stuff. hmm...ok i hope i can pull thru another round of math olympiad tmr... AHHHHHH. i will just sleep if i dun get it. shiyun
Saturday, July 28, 2007
1:22 PM
sometimes ppl look at life and say, why is life so stressful? why do we always have to face challenges? why does it always end up in a boring old routine and i'm always at the bottom of things? gradually, they look at life as an empty bottle and say its nvr gna fill up again. and even if it does, i will never get to drink the water. and so they just let it be.
if you just stop in your tracks and think, why do some ppl succeed and why do some ppl don't? and its not bcos of intelligence purely. think about it. its the mindset that ppl have. you think ppl don't get stressed? everybody has their fair share of stress. and everybody has a point of time where they want to break down.
but hey look... its the mindset here. why can't ppl just learn how to look at things a different way, think about how to find joy in studying. even though it seems really stupid, but then you really don't want to live your life remembering only how hard you study. you want to remember how hard you put in to make your life such a memorable one, with memories that carry you on. not some boring old dull monotonous work...
life is short. really. and things don't always work out smoothly. how can you expect things to be all planned out nicely and never ever ever crash into each other? talk to me about priorities. yeah i know about priorities. can't cope? what makes you think that others are less busy? or maybe others are smarter? hey everyone has commitments. everyone has different lifestyles. you maybe need more time to study, but others may have stuff like 3rd lang, or piano lessons, or some sports training. in this short 24h a day, everybody wants time.
so what if you were put on this project, which you are able to back out. however, they are really short of ppl and this is a one big time event. its special for the whole organisation. for you too. its not exactly smooth cos it clashes with some of your stuff, maybe your study timetable. it takes time. its not rehli long, maybe for about 2 wks. and you are really needed. what are you gna do?
there's always something called time management and think about it. you're not the only one who's in this. no one's extraordinarily smart or efficient or capable. besides, its only taking up CCA days. days u NORMALLY have cca... its not taking up any other times, probably one saturday but THATS IT. if you didn't have this project but had CCA instead, wouldn't it be still THE SAME???
so think about it, is it just about yourself? negatively thinking that you really CAN'T do it when you have pulled through one year and it is possible? thinking you really don't have time when others probably have lesser time than you do? think about this whole thing, do you want it to be smooth sailing and really memorable? do you want to have this privilege? its not everyday and not every year such a big event happens and you get the chance to be in it. do you really just want studies to take up ALL of your life and remember that once upon a time you studied and studied and studied? you tell me i have to study if not i'll never pass!i will die cos i'm like failing all my subj!this thing takes SO MUCH TIME!you sure can cos you're so smart.yeah like real ok if i hv my own problems too. and look 2 statements are damn negative. thats 50% guarantee you'll really fail. and the rest are just excuses to pull out. i mean you can do this. its just you dun want to and you keep thinking you can't. commitments are a part of life. and you really can't expect everything to be oh so easy. it isn't easy. its about responsibility. how responsible is it to just abandon everything just for your own sake? and i mean leaving the sec3s to do it themselves? and think about it the others have more committments than you do... their workload is much heavier. i hate the way how ppl use the excuse that ppl who are smart can do everything and they can't. because they choose to think it that way. and because of this thinking, they always wanna not do everything.... c'mon. the world doesn't revolve around you. ok. its a matter of your mindset and whether you want to make your life something memorable. and you think ppl don't have stuff to do and don't breakdown and just have a really good life.hah. thats so wrong.i'm not pointing fingers at anyone ok. i'm just quite pissed at this whole episode. anyway... jiayou ppl. it would be gd not to have it, but since you've been assigned, then you do your best.shiyun.
12:36 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
7:50 PM
MERCURY pictures! yay... the first one is our poster photo. the one on the notice board which steph says she looks gay... and the 2nd one is our beautiful batch photo, but without cheryl and cynthia cos they are out there CREWING and LIGHTING! YAY they rock! and the last one is me and steph 203ers zipai-ing. yes haha... i got more photos but this is kopped from steph who kopped from hanjing... ok i shall upload my own photos next time... haha.
mann this is so nostalgic. i miss mercury!
7:27 PM
shiyun officially wants to die now...term 3 is a CRAZY term ok and being in the middle of it is no laughing matter. well of cos, there may be...HAHAHAHAHA.but anw i think i screwed my chinese paper today cos i got like quite alot of wrong.... and i did'nt rehli understand the passage. that = die. well i kinda understood it better as i did my changwensuoduan but then i mean the questions BEFORE that??? i'm such a goner. tmr's wen hua and what am i doing now? but i feel quite accomplished cos i finished my AMES, lit circle ws, printed out the LA thing and did 9 huo dongs! left 1! so i can like concentrate on my wen hua after dinner. well, that is, if i don't succumb to the tempting television outside. i'm currently chomping down lovely gummy bears and facing the com for 2+ hours. technology is a luxury, but sometimes its the thing you become stuck with for life. oh well... life is packed. i feel. and i can't imagine next year. yes dun come rattling to me saying how next time when i grow up it'll be MUCH worse. but you know its bad enough. sigh... wen hua, history, then science! oh yes science... ms chang marked me down one mark for my sci ws cos apparently my ans were the same as steph's!!! which i so DID NOT COPY!!! and she marked steph down too. but hey steph was the one who copied! she deprived me of one mark! not like one mark is ALOT but then its like the misunderstanding u noe. sigh... i took so much effor to do that ws cos i didn't go for the lesson and so i didn't rehli understand anything. so i searched the internet for ans! how hardworking is THAT! and u marked me down?!!! but actually i failed that ws cos YES i didn't understand a thing but thats not the point isit? oh gosh...and one thing to announce we got thru the crime prevention skit thing! such a miracle!. pleasant =)test period!!! siren wails continuously!!!textbook slams itself into your face and says READ MEu push it away and say I DUN WANT!!!then the textbook say YOU WANT THIS??? and flashes you a 0 markand u say .......... FINE!and u pick up the textbook and read.sad story.... such a tragedy.ok gta bathe and eat and study wen hua. i spent 1 freaking stupid hour touching up my stupid shoe in the stupid art room... sheesh. time is money you know.shiyun
Thursday, July 19, 2007
3:29 PM
oh gosh i feel so overwhelmed... o mann... it seems like every part of my school life smth like this has to happen, hint p4 that time also... i'm not gna blog it but oh gosh this MUST blow over! i'm stressed enough. jiayoujiayoujiayou lingo rachel tong peiling laura!ooh maths remedial later. GRAPHS. wth. but i chose to go cos i need it. and tabby has my variations ws! haiz... i haven't been playing the com for like one week already? although i have been on it until late in the night to finish up hw. goshhhhh. tests are up next wk. jap, maths, chinese! WENHUA! i shall just lock myself up and nvr come out for the next thousand years. oh well... yes i agree with someone who presented their chi SIA yest. when you grow up, things really change. and... the world is not so innocent anymore. i want my childhood back!! isn't it great to just live a life that is so carefree?shiyun. needs to go remedial in 5 mins.
Monday, July 16, 2007
6:06 PM
ok... feeling better. PRODUCTION! yay production was thurs and sat and to all TCNers we DID IT! but i gotta say that the saturday show was much better (or so i thought) than the thurs one so sorry to all who came on thurs.HAH. but its still good! anw production makes me feel happy and sad... esp after production. its all over! like few months of work finally over. WOW. ok. think its ppb. (post production blues)... the saturday atmosphere was so good cos everyone rushed backstage to present flowers and gifts and everything! haha. cos thurs we weren't allowed out of the audi until we cleaned up everything. which was quite sao xing. but tabby was still waiting out there! HAHA. time to say thanks:Thank you tabby, lingo, amelia, wannqin, huicong for coming!!! YAY love you and thanks for flowers!
TCN:
sec1s: YAY yall've been GREAT juniors and enthu too! haha 1st production for you ppl and yall did it! love my juniors.can stop bullying too... yall are a really bonded batch!!! yeah go juniors!!!
sec2s: BATCHMATES! i think we bonded much more this year so well done to ALL of us! yeah finally there's the enthu! cheryl: you gave us GREAT sounds! ty! cyn: thanks for doing backstage and cue-ing us and helping me find stuff in the dark! eiffel: you curly! thankyou for being such a great and aunty batchmate! estee and rachel: gosh you hua-chi ppl! drooling over seniors. gosh! haha! steph: 203er cum TCNer! YAY you rock thankyou and love you! zeph: thanks for being so enthu for your 1st year here! love you!
sec3s: by far the most enthu ppl i've ever seen in my whole life! you seniors are so GREAT. love food, have fun, always doing sixteen... HAHA i love you guys and always be the centre of attraction for some of the sec2s: hint estee and rachel.
sec4s: it'll be really sad to see yall go and i know i'll miss yall to bits! van: dear pres you've been really FUN to be with! and i'll hang my costumes up next time ok? hhaa. sherm: you're such a great SM! and you really rule the club! thankyou! thanks for cues and everything! jessie: keep up the auntying! haha... you're darn funny! limyu: smarty pants who types out website codes MANUALLY in less than 5 mins... you're so intellectual but u go crazy at times! HAHA.
gosh production gives me a natural high! haha. can't wait for next year's. and will miss sec4s very much!!!
shiyun
5:58 PM
ohgosh i'm terribly cold in this aircon room... i just finished adding in LA presentation stuff and election speech stuff... and gone thru my 3rd lang stuff though not thoroughly... AHHHHHHH. i'm seriously burned out ok. and there's stupid geog test tmr. shitty. its not like geog is so interesting that i would love studying it. sorry i find no interest in geog. so governmental! and anw my maths is like BAD now cos i forgot all my stuff esp graphs and algebra and i'm so gna fail my CT at this rate i'm going. i need REMEDIAL! yes i have to go tell ms teng. its NEXT WEEK the test! like how fast can time fly man? you don't need a rocket. too messy. should list hw here and scare myself:this week:chi SIA presentationLA presentationelection speech geog CTmaths revision papervariations ws (i'm not sure abt this)next wk:science ws 5AMES 7maths CTchinese CT(which means WEN HUA!!! )jap CTand all that spells... D-I-E. oh gosh i have to get this out of my system now... i shall study stupid geography later after my tuition. see? i still have tuition! oh stupid stupid geography... anw i shall post this first cos its sounding really bad. i wanna post on production!shiyun.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
12:32 AM
sorry another out of the blue post. romans is HARD. its really hard when it gets to chapter 9 onwards. wow sometimes you really don't understand and you question why the bible is so hard to read. i kind of got a grasp at the overview of it but i mean it really takes lots of prayer and reading to fully understand what God wants to say. but of course, what finite creatures we are will never be able to FULLY understand the almighty God's words. but he has a purpose for everything. so its all about trust. i shall strive to study Romans until i understand. Paul can really be a great debator. and this works for my literature as well i guess. i guess the time when i can fully understand is when the holy spirit is with you and you're really close to God. its hard. i'm still trying. the bible's like communication between God and you. of cos there r other ways... but it only takes really close relationships between you and God to really absorb everything in the holy bible. ROMANS. so rich and detailed, but yet it is the base of the whole of Christianity.I SHALL FINISH THE BOOK.
12:11 AM
2days to production! counting today which is like 12am already... wow production's really busy now and i'm totally neglecting homework and revision! ok not that i revise often but... i mean the priority is not there le. HAH after production is time to mai tou ku du le!!! so in a way, i wish production wouldn't end. right? no but actually i wish it will be good and i am hoping so fervently that it would be a satisfying one. i mean after mulan and duael this must at least be something with quality right? i can't rate my own show though... honestly, production's been quite stressful cos i've been really scared at times cos things were moving so slowly! and we were quite slow at first. when everything was like not done and i realised we had so many things to do + my homework + many others... wow i wanted to burst already. but then now i'm kinda ok with things at the moment. i mean working to 12am isn't such a rare occasion anymore. in fact, its getting common. talk about sleeping early before production. i know! but today's really busy. and i can't help but blog u know.so hah last few days of rehearsing and then the big day. looking forward to it! its like my first big production not counting duael cos i was backstage and chilli crab/forgetmenot was SYF piece. SO... i hope no screwups. mercury is pretty emotional for the sympathetic ones.ok enough of production. ahh mrs chitra is leaving! its really sad... i mean since last year we had GREAT lang arts teachers and BOTH of them had to leave. hey our class is not jinxed right? but i really like mrs chitra, she does make the lesson alot more interesting with her antics. (see i'm using good vocab!) the whole class likes her (i think) and our LA marks improved by quite a bit this year! So... mrs chitra 203 will miss you! oh yes we will.... take care!i wish i could pop in on thurs during her lesson to say a goodbye... but then there's cca. production day! but if i could i would. =)campaigning for council is like really really fast! by 2-3 wks everything will be over. well got posters designs ready and photos etc... WOW. happens really fast for me. haha. hope everything goes well. VOTE 203! late night blogging in my brother's bedroom isn't such a good idea after all. i should stop. i have a long day tmr. school + CCA + piano. oh gosh my 3rd lang's gna suffer! and i realised ALL TESTS ARE IN 2 WEEKS TIME!!! so fast! i must chong after production!oh yes. pls support mercury, NYGH theatre club's production. nights. i wish for sleep.searching for inspiration. me <3>
herbasics
shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH
DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE
ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music
PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure
WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time
wishes
striving for these
- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!