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Thursday, January 31, 2008
11:38 PM
seriously, whats the use of stressing us with hw just b/c we're IP or we're "supposedly the elites". we're just doing what ever society expects of us and we'll grow up to meet that expectation, hopefully exceed it. and i don't get why the week before any long holiday we get tons of hw. =( there's no difference isn't it. like we have time in the midst of the rushing and the visiting.
urgh IH assgn is worst ever. period.
i screwd bio SPA. =(
today OBS checkup was so not worth the $15. seriously. height and weight and a series of questions which you yourself can answer... you don't need a doctor for that. and that guy took my weight without even allowing the machine to stabalise!!! which means i am lighter than what is stated ok. Dx
omg i think i'm so deprived of sleep.
and i hate it when they think watching tv means "addiction". like i totally need a breather ok. stop thinking that staring at the comp for the whole night means hardworking.
i hate. the last two periods. of tmr's timetable. =( especially the 1300 one.
there's cca tmr... i forgot to document stuff. CRAP!
guess i'm going to be busying for a while.
要崩溃了啦!
somehow i dun like expectations.
shiyun.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
10:26 PM
my whole brain is revolving around the words, bio, coffee, plants, kidney stones, blah... and omg i'm sneezing like crazy. i sound really nasal now. x(but anw, todays timetable was not too bad. bio was crazily stressfully fun. haha. ms chee buzzed through the whole mind map thing i was like super stressed out copying everything. so funny, cos i'm like "!!!!! ms chee SLOW DOWN!!!" then jessica was like "oh shit i'm still at the chloroplats..." then carissa was stoning. but she still had a very neat mindmap. haha. these kind of things are what makes school a little bit more interesting. well, you just have to make life as fun as possible right. ok so life wasn't so fun after school. i was doing 2 projects at one time. and they're all bio. and they require research. -.- ohwell, lessons are fun but projects are not. bio's quite tedious in a way. right. and btw my ankle's perfectly fine since last wkend, there's so no need to see a doctor. and no need for an MC, oh well... i was thinking shouldn't have told the truth and just pretend to run with a hurting ankle. but you see, it was just on that day itself when i hurt it and it was like an immediate, temporal pain. so obviously i couldn't run then but when i got home it was better. so... ok i dun wanna explain anymore.tmr. CL, chemlab, PE, maths, LA, CME. boring, boring, ok, ok, boring, boring. if i compared it to yesterday it was ALL BORING. so i should be grateful for tmr's NOT SO BORING timetable. sec3 is boring. i dun mind stress but i can't stand boredom. i dun mind stress amidst an interesting school life. my mind does really crazy stuff when i'm bored. like will wander off to think about cheesecake, think about stupid songs that keep playing in my head. ok... i hope i'm still high tmr. i was so low yesterday i sat on my sofa after CCA and zonked out. had no brain yesterday, hope there's a brain tmr.shiyun.
Monday, January 28, 2008
11:26 PM
i think i'm currently in the "lets just go with the flow and stop thinking too much" phase now... blah. which means i'm not positively or negatively charged. just neutral. so i'm not thinking alot right now... Okay. during jap this male tcher suddenly like took over our lesson in the middle part. and it was so weird cos my tcher's the sweet and soft kind and then when he took over it was like this booming loud voice and super energetic tone. lol. haven't seen such energetic and loud tchers for quite long.... ever since like mr kaw's time? xD ok. i dun like school tmr. there's SPA, IH assgn and chi lecture. how interesting.omg CCA bitching currently. ^^ lighthearted stuff are good for me now. =)right. i wanna sleep. dun like tests and assgns. make me think about it for the whole night. =(i have very conlflicting emotions. haha. shiyun.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
5:37 PM
i hate dilemmas. i absolutely abhor them. so now i got two things to choose between and i'm like torn... RARH. i'm so distressed right now. i think i should just send both in. right. too many good things isn't a good thing at all. nada. =( it's SAD. i want to go for both. but then... !!! i can't stand it.
okokok. more proposals coming up. means more online conversations. and more late nights. so, it was a gd thing i dropped out of mpp. oh goshh... but luckily this is in the beginning of the year. get it over early.
i'm scared that jap immersion prog will cause me to miss alot of ccas and june hols ccas are very very impt. i dunno i dunno i dunno... but cap is the last year i can ever ever join! but this year is the best time to go for jap cos sec4 will be too busy! i want to scream. right now.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i sound like woodstock. hehh.
there's a thousand and one things going on next wk.
where's the oxygen?
shiyun.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
9:00 PM
here comes the wkend! nth special. i realised i spent the first 26 days of 2008 doing nth substantial. school's like slack but stressed. we can don't do anything at all for the whole period, OR we can do ALOT of things that period + more things to do at home. and they're pushing alot of stuff to wk 1. like next wk, there're 101 assgns to do. and there's SPA. on week1. after only 2 pracs. i need to rework my brain, its not getting into the right mood. but fortunately, its not so bad since i'm merely complaining and not ending up somewhere worse. oh well. this is what it is, isn't it.
mpp lecture was kind of... i mean. hehh. ok so the stuff about gender issues and freedom of speech wasn't so bad cos i was thinking about cca and like if that could help in anyway right. but i mean, i realised it was a super super big committment and shiyun isn't gna commit to something which she isn't interested in AND its something non-compulsory. think there're lots of things going on right now, i need to choose which one to focus on. so, sorry ppl who really want this cos i'm gna drop out, which is fortunately still early, and jiayou for the whole thing k! yall can always come and find me if yall need anything.
first time in NUS, law faculty and i realised everything was so whitewashed. the walls, the corridors... its like, very quiet and very clean. uh, didn't expect that. and the buildings around looked very colonial. haha. okay... its not like i'll be in there several years from now. IF i don't suddenly change my mind as usual. oh and we got lost getting out of NUS and finding a bus stop. tab,sandy,xy,kayyun and i were the last ones to leave cos they wanted to discuss after the thing, so we didn't follow the rest to the bus stop or wherever. SO, thinking we had very GOOD spatial sense, we walked (obviously) the wrong way and erm found out that we were lost. and cos there was no real pathway to walk on, we walked on roads. and whenever a car was coming somebody would shout "CAR!" and then the funny thing is everyone will jump on the kerb and stop walking. and bcos a car came like every few minutes. it was "CAR!", jump on kerb and stop for a few seconds. then repeat again. and while walking the correct way back this time, the sprinklers for the field went on and we were near it so we could feel like droplets of water. and then we all thought it was raining and we almost started taking out our umbrellas. and then somebody pointed to the field and said "it's the SPRINKLERS! not RAIN!" moment of realisation. it was so comical! cos everyone was like "do you have umbrella?" "oh shit i didn't bring umbrella" "RUNN!!!" so hilarious. but by the time i got to the bus stop i was so tired.
ok... that marks the end of my journey out of NUS law faculty. haha. i realise, i'm not really liking any subj now, except PE? but i'm dreading IH! national identity.haha... LA is ok, lit is ok, chi is ok, maths is ok, bio is ok but tedious, chem is ok but my class is super chaotic during that lesson, jap is ok (thanks to my interest for it), cca is ok but its like the same things everytime and we're not really advancing... like we're slacking every cca! right. i'm currently very neutral to everything. think my interests have like neutralised over the years. rmb sec1 i had extreme feelings to every subj. so, isit the topic problem, the tcher problem, the class problem or just the dread of seeing the SAME subjects everyday on your timetable?
and i'm living the same wkend again. i need exercise, AND i need more excitement. like more NUS walks! or eccentricity. i like interesting ppl in a way. i think its a 203 thing. we liked weird + interesting tchers.
ok... i need to stop typing.
shiyun.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
11:34 PM
CREATIVE ARTS PROG OR HAMAMATSU IMMERSION PROG?big question for the day today. BIG one.
CAP:
- its smth i want to go (its my interest!)
- i did like a portfolio for it, which means effort was put in
- can't back out once i submit the thing.
- its really beneficial but probably long term. maybe?
- its a rarer chance than hamamatsu i guess. you don't get writer MENTORS to mentor you for 7 whole months.
- you'll write so much better after this. this is what i want, isn't it?
HAMAMATSU immersion prog:
- c'mon its JAP! i'll do anything jap.
- i promised myself i'll do whatever it takes to get into immersion progs this year.
- its a GREAT opportunity and probably, more likable than CAP.
- i get to go to japan for 20 whole days!
- i'll speak much more fluent jap after this. isn't that what i want as well?
- you get to make tomodachi-s! jap friends!
i think i would like this better than CAP, BUT CAP is such a rare thing! and its hard to get in! harder than hamamatsu that is. so after analysing, a choice hasn't been made. i shall keep bugging jennifer for her ans. she's facing the same problem too!
dilemma. BIG dilemma.
they're both GREAT. and i WANT to go for BOTH!!!
why do they have to clashhhhh!?
at most for the 5 days of CAP i can like leave the jap friend at home but that totally defeats the point right. URGH!
the two things that i'm sure that i wanna do well in, jap and creative writing, meet head to head and ask me to choose one over the other.
ok God will show me the way. there's just one more question: so do i fill in the CAP form anot? its due monday... cos there's still chances i'll not be selected. well, ok for jap immersion too. they're about the same! HOWHOWHOW.
i need to sleep and think about this tmr.
when i'm alert and thinking straight.
shiyun.
5:28 PM
lots of hw. coming assgn. SPA. speeches. CCA. ok, just summed up my week. for the past 4 days. chem is crazy. the tcher dumps hw like ppl throw rubbish. and 312 rebelled against quiz today. well ok... i'm not very keen on strong rebellion cos i mean its a quiz we have to get over it sooner or later so why not sooner right? oh well, still glad to know that we're enthu and didn't get into trouble. righhht. getting hungry. there's no motivation to blog nowadays. tell me the reason why. haha. and to whoever, i'm very proud to be a sch councillor. breaking rules is SO not the fad. =) it doesn't make you special whatsoever. =) yeah=)the NY montage was good! we have pro writers. i want to write like that!shiyun.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
6:11 PM
replies to tag: yes i kind of update my blog frequently but then i realised recently it has all been pretty crappy. i'm starting to sleep in class now... maybe because everyday u turn to your timetable and u see.. oh there's maths again, oh there's chinese again... didn't we have THAT yesterday? and everyday its the same old subjects... i want home econs, i want music, i even want art! and seriously, we do the same things every lesson! tcher talks, take down notes, at times do a little stuff, thats it. thats school for you.
oh well, the time has come when SIAs come streaming in, faster than the real SIA planes. 2 proposals due next wk! and yeah... i guess that's pretty much it.
lost my theatre jacket!!! and why? because i was rushing! and WHY? because we had to clear the space in 10 sec! i hope its still in the audi. ugh... sec1 must not repeat itself!
i finally CAN solve the rubix cube! but i must fiddle with it for quite some time... haha.
cherie sent everyone this grossed out video about how China Chinese strip animals off their fur. like literally. yes. when they're alive. they cut and tear it off. i'm gna stop elaborating. watched it at night and i was so freaked out!!! and come to think of it it was the day when during CCA we were listening to this story about an abused girl. SCARY. luckily no nightmares. guess i was too tired.
i'm so dazed now. i think i need to listen to smth.
oh and YAY i love 312! we're pretty cool. and noisy.
compared to 203, 312 is much much more chaotic.
the tchers can't really handle us sometimes. i think.
i want a 6A gathering. i want a 203 class chalet. i want a 312 class tee!
shiyun.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
12:14 AM
shiyun is TIRED. but i just finished solving the rubix cube after looking at all the steps... so complicated. how do ppl even memorize all of the alternatives and solve it in a world record of 11 sec? SCHOOl is normal... oh well. i wanna sleep.welcome to mudane times... shiyun.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
12:48 AM
YAY NEW SKIN!
Friday, January 11, 2008
11:04 PM
yes i suppose what i said was really right. i'm totally abandoning this blog. urgh. anw i'm gonna give it a new skin to compensate for it. x) there's nth much to sch nowadays... well.
312's doing pretty well i should say. i'm quite happy and contented in our lil class. haha. there's this funky side to our class as well as the "Hi i'm ___ and i hate chemistry" thing. so well i currently am ok with everything. how neutral.
CCA just got auditions. and i mean the response was actually not bad, but then in the end we kind of recruited about... 6? i dunno. i wanted to watch auditions lor. but oh well there's next yr. and i'm sure i'll get to watch it. so, expecting juniors!!!
ok... gta rush proposal. what a short post.
council-FBI/CSI!
shiyun.
Friday, January 04, 2008
6:55 PM
ok welcome to a new year 2008! 4 jan le. shiyun is officially tired from telematch, CCA concert and exhibition. and i can see i won't be updating this blog very often. but oh well. so school started out fine on the first day, just that i really really missed 203 and during lunch we talked alot, said how we missed each other and crapped abt our new classes. seriously its hard to believe we're separated bcos we still have so many things to say and we are still like one class. so it was pretty bad the first day, although it was really nth much going on in sch... 312 was ok. i mean first day, well everyone was still quite quiet or in their own cliques. and then third lang came, i got really really excited. and our class merged with the B class and now we're J3.11. we have a really great teacher cos she's really nice and all. and she has amazing ear power she can hear like really soft talking ok. and she taught us the un and the uun, like how the tone is like and everything. so YAY i'm gna love jap this year. and for 312 teachers, i guess its rather OK... i mean i realised that my sec1 tchers were the BEST but well its acceptable. SO FAR. but i'm actually more concerned abt class bonding than tchers cos, its the class that makes yr 2 years in ny memorable. well, 2nd day and 312 is talking alr so i guess we're not bad. still haven't gotten to know some ppl yet but the ppl around me i know. haha. today. tiring. skipped class. so first thing we had telematch, which was ok, but i left halfway for cca. and then cca concert was so screwdddddd. i mean ok its lack of rehearsals and everything but it really damages the morale after that. i mean who LAUGHS at an emo and even morbid piece? HUH? but anw exhibition was much better cos the whole club was getting really enthu! and so ppl signed up. i won't say alot but it's like normal number... ohwell, looking forward to new juniors. and i wanna watch auditions. =D ok crap i just smsed mrs ng i'll be going for maths olympiad. i didn't really know if i should go but... urgh finefinefine. ANW, i realise that good tchers have to be treasured. ALOT. cos when they're gone you'll start to miss them. and i do, ok. i miss 203, i miss zzc, i miss all the nice tchers that taught us. like i really didn't mind if the whole of 203 went on strike and sat outside the 203 classroom and then demand for zzc to come teach us. but gosh i'll have to start all over again. start all over to like my class, like my tchers... i suppose 312 will be bonded, but its gna take time... and i hate missing school. miss for one day and i'm totally clueless about everything. esp IH. =(i rmb duael last last year was so nice and the standard was so good. like at that time i was like so enthu i was hopping around and asking if there were anything to do. and we had to sweep feathers and everything. so after duael it kinda dropped. heh. sighsigh... think we screwed alot of stuff since last year. guess its everyone's responsibility right. and cheryl and i were talking abt it and it all voices down to the attitude. and seriously sometimes i really dun feel like going for cca. but since this is our cca then i suppose we should do our very best and gambatte ne! last thing. haha. i think the jap taiko drummers are so cool and pity i missed their performance in the audi cos, guess what? i was screwing and unscrewing and joining wires to lights and plugs. like i'm not a physics person and had to join live wires to something...NOT TRAINING FOR ELECTRICIAN! not gd and not interested in such stuff. but anw CO got to like let them stay in their houses! jealousy comes in. at this point where shiyun is being nipponised she'll do anything jap! haha. and so i wanna go see them. either at tiong bahru plaza or thomson cc tmr. japppppp!and i'm reminded of hagimoto sensei, she asked me what jap idol i liked and i said yamapi. and then she said watashi mo. haha. i still think the un and the uun was so funny la. YAY i heart jap. toudai's in my list of universities! and if i must migrate then i'll migrate there. or maybe australia. ok i'm not migrating... O-K... i am so beat i need dinner and tv. and i realised i've past the hunger stage alr. was so hungry during the bus ride back. and mrs ng sms-ed me on the 3rd day of school. i'm still kinda shocked. hehe. FOOD, glorious food.ittadakimasu!!!!ooh, long post.shiyun.
herbasics
shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH
DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE
ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music
PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure
WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time
wishes
striving for these
- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!