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Thursday, June 28, 2007
7:05 PM
is the day so young?it really doesn't matter so much when the sun has not yet risen, when everything is just a silhouette, where the world is just all you see. you do not care about how many thorns a rose has, or if some animal is waiting hungrily among the bushes. To you, its just a world for you. the sun rose for you, the flowers bloomed for you, the sea shimmered for you. You thought you'd seen the world. It's only when the day starts to bright, when everything comes to light. The good and the bad. You see a different side of the world. You see that on that lovely rose, five menacing thorns stare threateningly at you. You see the shining sun and the dark clouds looming ominously behind it. You see the lush green grass and that pair of eerie glowing eyes glaring at you. You realise its a world that's full of irony, that's full of beauty, yet a hidden darkness. The grandeur of the world is far more amazing than a day with the sun yet to awake. Yet, you think the thorns are out to prick you, the dark clouds are out to strike anytime, and that beast waiting to pounce on you. It is only when the sun comes up, that you see these possible dangers and neglect the far-more magnifent sight in front of you.You start to wish that the sun would not fully rise up and that things would just remain a silhouette. You would not see the full picture, but you would be carefree and only regard the great scenery you see in your life. You realise that it is only when the sun fully rises did you really grow up. You wanted to grow up, but now you'd prefer a shadow of the world. Unclear, but at least your life and mind was clear. Yet the sun would not set. Not for now, for it only takes time for the day to end and become a world that is perfect. You do not know when the day will end, but you know that when the day ends, there'll be no more worrying. Not because there's a layer of darkness covering it, but that the world will change into a world thats really perfect. Time cannot go back. It is only to move on. To live in the world that's perfect, we can only place our trust in the one above, the one that made this world. It is that hand that will lead you through, through the flowering plants and the shimmering sea, through the pricks of the thorns and the paws of the beast. The thorns and the beast may cause you pain, but its his hands that treats the wounds. . Sometimes we slip, but we can always reach for his hand again because its always there for you. Sometimes we see the hand, but as independant, confident people we say we do not need this hand to guide us. But we only see a small fraction of this world and the hand sees it all. We can only be sure that only by firmly holding his hand can we walk through this world to a world of perfection and holiness.Why live in the shadows when there's a world of holiness just for you? Go, breathe in the fresh air, smell the fragrance of the flora, ogle at the vast horizon, overcome all the thorns and beasts, all with your heavenly father.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
12:12 PM
counting down to school reopen. apparently i don't think its a happy countdown. its hard awaiting the whole bout of... complications that are gna happen AGAIN. but at least, there won't be me rotting in a corner of the house.yesterday went out with linghan and her sis and lingo to jurong point to catch a movie. and i wanted to watch shrek 3. and lingo too. but sigh too bad our dear linghan didn't... but nvm so basically typical stuff lah. then later went to shop for presents! and linghan was going around the whole shopping centre looking for her craved bubble tea! which apparently they didn't sell and she was so devastated. oh well there's always njc and coro u know. by the time i went home it was like 9 already. gosh. so u see guys we should go somewhere more CENTRAL! sheesh. singaporean westerners. but sadly, cos of this i missed my family outing to sentosa! i mean i didn't know that they were gna go sentosa at night and so the planning kinda crashed. AHHH. its not my fault! humph nvm i shall go sentosa with ppl next time. i was so booked on friday la. pri sch class outing, sec sch frens outing, family outing, then hanjing invited us to sentosa! overbooked! so u see i could only go for 1.. good things just have to come all at once right. i still have to print out all my done-online hw, get 2 files for personal use and jap, pack everything on my table, and pack my bag! and get costumes. everything in 2 days! ... school preparation is a chore. i got a barbecue later! my grandma and cousins rented this chalet. hah. but i'm not staying there. but for food yes i'll go.can't resist! i still want to thin my hair! its so... out of control. guess i'll see everyone on monday! await my presence!shiyun
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
2:46 PM
last wk of sch. gosh time passes so fast. after one month hol i dun want to go back! sigh. i was packing all my ws today and i felt rehli... i can't believe school's starting AGAIN! well its not like i haven't been to school during the hol. in fact i go there 3times or more a wk! but then starting classes, exams, assgn, COMPETITION. not fun. i bet first wk i'll still be in holiday mood. well... today's one of the rare days where i dun have anything on. i cut my hair today! but it looks the same lah just shorter mebbi neater. and thinner. i actually wanted a shoulder length hair but then it will be very hard to tie and if i do i'll prob look like some ah lian with that small little stump of hair. so yah... same hairstyle can be very boring though... got tennis later! like 3+... and i hope its not hot! although i know it will cos what do u expect of Singapore June afternoons? but nevermind i ned the exercise. i dunno what's gna happen next term. just saw the timetable tabby sent and i was so pissed they put drama PE and art on one day! and s'more on mon lah. then tues there's geog science and maths! so bad balancing. and the last period on fri is HISTORY! die... TCN's gna have new tchers! which i dunno whether its a gd or bad thing huh. well... 3 tchers more is ALOT for a tiny cca like us. which means on average one tcher can teach 6 ppl. wow... why dun they send more tchers to the bigger ccas. but aiya i also dun rehli care... and anw i'm feeling scared for mercury cos what date isit already and we are still at... ? whatever, we must gambate! and i'm pissed at ppl who dun come for no reason. no GOOD reason. wth too bad lor.romans is HARD. i was doing bsf and i realised chapter 9 is a blur. and i dun rehli know how to ans the ques. sigh i think i shall just leave it for the lesson. i still have to print out all my hw that are done online, get costumes, pack bag... i dun like last wk of hols. its not rehli holiday. its preparation for school! and then 1st wk of school everybody's in the holiday mood... and mon is so slack it won't really seem like school.ok... i love my third lang! i feel so jap-fied! but who knows when third lang starts i may drop the enthusiasm. hope it doesn't.shiyun
Monday, June 11, 2007
5:52 PM
shiyun finally feels filial to her old blog! anw today was lit circle meeting again and we managed to do 3 meetings! which is one big accomplishment. well lit circle is not a really productive project but then we chonged for the 3 meetings. aiya whatever just one more meeting and thats it. seriously, R&J is getting... boring. and as i thought i was nvr gna eat lemon chicken again ever since that really full lunch during litter free day, I DID. i guess coro just has the force to attract me, and us, and a whole lot of hci + njc + working adults there. but anw i like the onigiri! haha... i should start revising jap. yesterday night i opened my textbook and realised i had forgotten lesson 20. THE WHOLE OF IT. just finished AMES 5 and amelia is confusing me... geometry. hate it. my maths marks is plunging. and so is my enthusiasm about it. and chi huo dong. its so useless... and ART! its so time consuming...i shall stop complaining. tmr i shall watch shrek 3 with lingo and whoever wants to come. =) i shall spend my money extravagantly. hahaha... but no money is precious. money is something you wouldn't want to put as deposit just to rent a dvd. like a $10 note i suppose.ok... mondays are blue. tuesdays are bluer. but its gna get GREEN cos shrek3 is tmr! ok i see three streaks down yr face and oh yea its getting cold so i shall stop.shiyun.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
3:13 PM
outside's like some fish market now... my bro's b'day party. hah and just imagine 5-6 ten year olds in a small house. YUP. food's the best thing now. and i'm currently downloading msn on my laptop cos it couldn't download days ago. but my dad fixed it. unfortunately the boys are raiding the comp and playing games so the downloading is really slow... urgh.anw yest i went to marina to eat with cousins for a kind of like farewell party for kangqi. the food was in really big portions but i was smart and kopped food from everywhere. so i was not so stuffed and could eat ice cream later! the ice cream was not bad... this jap restaurant specialising in desserts. i took black sesame, which really tasted like it... haha... i bought shui hu zhuan! finally... i went to popular and found many versions of it. but then i didn't know whether to buy the really kiddy one, the quite kiddy but simple one, the quite chim one with no pics... so my mum said buy two. lol. so i bought the quite simple one and the quite chim one. and the chim one is cheaper than the simple one! but then considering the fact that chinese books, esp this kind of books, don't interest me, i might as well buy a simple one. SIGH. i dunno how i'm going to live through shui hu zhuan. my downloading thing reads 35% installed. thats so slow lah... BISH.sigh sigh sigh... i'm contemplating whether or not to go for class gathering 6A one. mebbi i should... aiya i think i need some life out of the house. i'm not mugging or whatever. i'm like rotting... =.= mebbi go catch a movie or smth. like shrek or the VERY long POTC. went out for a while. they wanted to change the duel sound thing... haha. but i dun really like watching dramas in dubbed chinese. sounds weird. after all watching it in another lang like jap can improve my third lang! they'r gna cut cake soon... AIYA why is it only 52% loaded! sorry i think my posts are quite random today..you know what i think i should stop here... end this kind of no meaning post. and erm mebbi watch nobuta wo produce! its nice! and its in jap. ;Dshiyun.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
6:38 PM
yo...thinking of changing skin. gosh i'm ROTTING at home OK!!! i mean there IS homework. but then there's only AMES5 and art left. ART is SO IRRITATING.. my paint dried up in one day so i gave up getting paint from the art room and decided to buy new GOOD never gonna dry up acrylic paint. urgh... i want to get art DONE and over with it. like anyone will want to buy the converse shoes. PLANTS indeed... and anw besides that, there's only like revising for test, maybe catching up on school work which is really not what i would do. and since there's no cca next wk, i might as well find myself a nice dark, damp and warm spot and plenty of oxygen and sit there and DECOMPOSE. yup... come to think of it i would like CCAs and project meetings. it makes the day more fulfilling. if not it will be resorting to the comp and desperately checking out stupid movies on youtube. or spoofs. life never has a balance. its either no life or too much life until you get really sick of it. I NEED A NICE HOLIDAY! but oh well i guess mercury's something to look forward to. ever since CHILLI CRAB, which has been more than 1year already... and if the announcement on my blog is not BIG enough, here it is:MERCURYproduction of TCN12 & 14 JULY 20077.30pm@ Siew May Audi, NYGHtickets at $10 eachok. i see you should get the point. the really crazy gatsby moving rubber ad is so funny... takuya kimura acting really gay and drunk. kind of reminds me of some asian johnney depp. hah. the music's really addictive. i have it in my comp!!! I... CAN GIVE YOU GATSBY... GATSBY... GATSBY...ok.. sometimes too much time spent on the comp is depressing.. mayb not for addicts but then like around 6+ its getting dark and then you see the comp. EMOEMOEMO... hah...sushi skin?shiyun
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
12:35 PM
first things first. happy belated b'day qian! =D hmm... haven't bought yr present though. ok gosh i'm rotting at home now. but i feel quite accomplished cos i did my AMES problem4 (which was quite easy) and chi SIA 5. !!feel bad for ppl who chose the derichlet one cos i think newton is much easier... which is good. means i left AMES problem5, jap compo, art, geog assgn to do. lit circles dunno yet. ok... today still gotta go to sch for psl phototaking. which will prob take at most 20 mins lor. and the trip there and back will be about 1h 15 mins althogether. so stupid... haiz but no choice. fan zheng i also have nth on.CCA yest was like fish fish and more fish. for now i do not want to see FISH or SCOTCHTAPE. i've been breathing in scotchtape from 9-2 yesterday! gosh. its bad for health. but we managed to do i think 80+ fishes! haha. the target is 100 or mebbi more. i will die. but i think the puppet cat is so CUTE! hah. ok making props is quite fun but i'm getting sick of scotchtape. i dun mind making more ribbons... boring... my cousin is at home cos my auntie and uncle went for holiday... staying for 1 1/2 wk. which means YAY for my bro and =.= for me. i'll have 2 hyper kids at home. sigh. but luckily they were out in the morning so i could get work done. =)i feel ACCOMPLISHED (for the 2nd time) which means i have no qualms about slacking for the whole day. not good but who cares. i know i should study... BUT i'm not much of a study/revising freak. throw me hw instead of revision. SLACK TIME! of course there are much luckier ppl who are in MALAYSIA now... lingo and linghan. shiyun
herbasics
shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH
DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE
ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music
PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure
WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time
wishes
striving for these
- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!