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Friday, October 12, 2007
8:17 PM
things just start sloping downwards after the exams. i mean, u get yr papers back, u slack in the classroom, u TRY to prac for choral night, u HAVE to buck up for cca (memorising lines), u sit in front of the comp and rot, u decompose in front of the tv. fine, its not like that's a really bad life, i mean, i would like this more than exams... but, considering the fact that it is I, who naturally is not that sporty, that outgoing, that sociable, NEED some fun at this point. in a world where people are alive, fun and always on the go, i seem to be lagging behind, i seem to be stopping, without saying a word. yet in a second world where i live, it seems i'm the one wanting to jump, wanting to go out, yet the world just falls dead on me. it's really not my natural thing, to socialize with everyone on the planet, or to just go out with anyone i see. seriously, count 8-10 years back and u won't see me like this. well, i grew changing gradually. i preferred sitting back and listening to the whispers of the earth. but, call it being pushed, i was pushed to the front, to the face of the earth. it is a change. people at the face of the earth do not see the other side. they look on forward, they are charged with enthusiasm, they want to advance. being there is great, cos u move forward, and more ppl are there. most of us want to be there. it is where, it's great and its fun. did i ever try looking back? yeah ok, deep inside i'm not a very face front person. sometimes its nice to be at the back. its nice to just look back at everything. it's really where u tear down all the fronts, all the masks and see the individual in you. i mean, reflecting on who u really are. i really like, and i really appreciate heart to heart talks, chats that just are a simple reflective time. it really beats going down to a wacking party and go back feeling all high and... these are stuff we all love, we all love the front of the earth, we feel that sense of exhiliration. but when we question the soul its really all about the truthfulness and the depth of this life. i like feelings. i like to feel with the heart. its not really called emo-ing, but, its a certain connection that i would like to make. the heart is really what we're supposed to listen to. that's why i prefer the depth and beauty of language as compared to cold hard facts. it feels. it's something that links to your heart and you can really feel and express. call it drama.emo.whatever. but if u ask me whats my real personality, i really can't answer that question. i can only tell you now, i am HIS. God's the one i can trust forever. shiyun.
herbasics
shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH
DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE
ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music
PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure
WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time
wishes
striving for these
- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!
