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ok i'm supp to study and when i try to study i either start sleeping or stoning and when i really study finish i realise that mebbi i didn't memorize everything completely then when i try the test papers i dun really know them and i have to keep on looking back and i realised i have been studying but i dun really fully understand... and then its like some i studied but i'm so scared i have NOT really studied them and then some are like not even touched yet which is really really bad and then i have jap exam tmr and i'm supp to be studying now and then i haven't really did my maths which is BAD cos i have a feeling i'm gna flunk that and then humans are kind of done except for history last topic but i cannot really rmb everything in full and my science not touched and i realised i dunno lots of things for physics and bio is not even memorized yet... so for now i'm fricking

DEAD.

ahhh.... this is badbadbadbadbadbad....i shall get back studying.

shiyun's gna do a really fast and short post before she bathes and studies Romans, which means bsf. i mean ok bsf is fun but the class is a lil noisy. well i mean its quite irritating at times but God says to pray for them and yes i guess i should be patient and just do what's right, yeah?

and anw home learning is... i'm so scared i cant rmb my stuff i've learnt cos i'm chionging alot of stuff... ok i mean ppl see this as last min but then everybody is last minute right? unless yr the really mugger sort. sigh i really hate nationalism. its such a long and political topic. sry, not interested in politics. eew. and then oh gosh my geog is really bad now my science is totally clueless and my jap... i have exam the day after so what exactly am i doing? ok u can see that i'm crapping cos i realy have to go... urgh.

so i actually can't wait for school cos i really hate sitting at home studying... grrr. but then i mean exams are coming i'm really scared i'm gna flunk alot of stuff. like english which is really hard to score, and maths which is getting worse by the day, chinese which can be really unpredictable, science cos i'm really clueless at this point of time esp physics, geog bcos i have no heart to study and history cos, well, no time and a whole lot of political stuff.

this.is.bad.

ok i should really just get off the topic of studies. but then everybody's blog seems to just talk abt this... anw we must jiayou for drama on thurs! and dun let mrs chitra down, although i mean do we even really care about frizz? but then i know our group is really gd although we may not be as talented or dramatic or enthu than the other group but then we have this really gd quality that everyone just does what they're supp to do and no one really quarrels. YAY. so jiayou jiayou we must pass this thing ok and do a darn gd play!

ok i'm late, as usual. hah.

shiyun.

hello.. i think i stopped for a while. haven't been on comp for quite long. well... its not like i'm studying. the problem is i fall asleep every time i try to study! so now its like pressing for time... argh... anw jap oral was quite bad... i mean firstly i didn't like the tcher, she was so mean... if u didn't understand she'll sigh and shake her head which makes u feel really bad. and yes i mean i didn't understand some of what she was saying totally... like the sentence was so weird. but luckily the last part of the conversation saved me when she changed topic and i knew how to answer... haha. speech and reading was ok. i think i can talk but can't listen. but anw i just have to do well for written which is 90 marks. oral is just 10 marks. so how bad can it get right...

ok after long thoughts and hesitations and panicking, i finally chose my subj combi. i mean it was so dilemmic. took bio, chem, CLEP and lit. was deciding between lit and history and then finally decided i wanted to get myself off facts cos i'll really sleep memorizing them. CLEP was originally intended already cos BSP was seriously history in chinese which is totally not for me, and CLC was like too normal. oh well i like creating writing... and then i've come to the realisation that i can't do physics and i really don't see the reason why we have to learn physics, its so weird. ok so i'm happy about my choice. except that not many ppl are taking and close friends are not taking it. but still hope can get into same class as them. there is still a possibility. haha come to think of it i always have this already made up decision from the beginning like the year before and then months before the deciding date i will change my mind... just like how i wanted RGS for the whole of pri5 and then suddenly changed to NY in p6. i thot i always wanted to take triple science since sec1. but come to think about it now its not really worth it. haha. and parents and tchers do not have real advice to give lor. they say the same old thing. in the end its still yourself who has to do the choosing. oh well i'm not regretting the choice for now..

anw... i can't believe i actually got like highest in lvl for that AMC thing... i mean i nvr keep track of what competitions or quizzes i go for... so i was seriously blur when ms chooi told me that cos i was kind of like not really listening in class... hehe. but its really honoured to have yr name printed on a brochure and then being like cordially invited. haha. but still, its not like my maths is so gd cos i'm still dropping. my maths grades are dropping! which is so sad...

home-learning is just tons and tons of test papers to do. can't even study! have to do all the test papers that the school gives. sigh i think i'm gna do history one, and chinese, mebbi maths? and then i still got third lang to study k... i'm jianchi-ing for jap, which is why i'm not taking hp. haha.
after eoys i'm so gna drown myself in jap shows, have a wacking class chalet and enjoy hokkaido! sigh

the grass will be greener once you cross that really high fence. but that day will come when u cross the fence, its only a matter if you easily jumped over or you landed really badly. i'm gna try jumping over the fence and not land on my face. then i can fully enjoy the greener grass.

stupid metaphors. haha...
shiyun

this week is like total screw ups... first our drama wasn't really considered a performance. we totally blew the whole thing cos we weren't rehearsed and we have to do it again. yes apparently it was due to a lack of time. er herm, which is not really our fault cos everything was so so so last minute. who can we blame? i mean its like we were quite on time until last term where we started to do really irrelevant things and we kept delaying. so of course, we didn't have time to practise. wasn't surprising we screwed. and there's no point telling us cos its time not used well...

and... piano exam yest was screwed too... i mean screwed my 2nd piece which was supp to be like my best and most "promising" piece acc to my piano tcher... but haha. and then aural and sight reading which i'm already not good at... haha. i just wanna pass now. i mean the examiner must have mercy on ppl who are not very musically talented...

anw jap oral today! i must do this well to make up for my terrible piano exam yesterday. sigh i rmb i screwed oral last year cos i didn't understand the last question they asked me... so this year i must do my best! i think its gna be harder cos you learn more vocab and my kanji is not fab. and my grammar is horribly inaccurate. haha. but of cos i'm nvr gonna give up jap cos its the best subject where stress isn't a real problem.

tmr handing up of subj combi forms! and indecisive me has not really come up with a decision yet. i mean its betw history and lit... although i'm more prone to taking lit but i still dunno leh. and like very few ppl are going for lit. unless i can pull linghan along, although she is more prone to taking history but she is considering lit too... i dunno... my chinese and sciences are settled. and i tried talking to zzc but it ended up the same as talking with my parents cos they are all so suibian. i mean i need like recommendations of my ability right... sigh i realise adults don't help. and i dunno how i'm gna come up with a decision by tmr... howhowhow??? the last panic stage. i realise i always make last minute decisions cos from last yr i've always wanted to take triple science. but then this year since july i've been changing my mind to take humans. haha. same thing as coming to NY. hope i dun regret my choice. and hope i have a nice class next year. like 203.

ok... IT is so boring... and once again i failed my IT challenge. i mean i always fail IT stuff. got certificate of participation for IT quiz by UNSW. but i mean its not that impt so long i can use word, ppt, blog, surf the net. i think its sufficient already. well, was never the IT whiz anw.

well hope my exams start off well... 1st school exam of EOYs today! watashiwa gambaranakutewa ikemasen!

wkends doesn't seem as stressful to me... haha. but anw. yesterday i had this really bad encounter with my hairdryer. i mean i don't use the hairdryer often and pian pian when i used it yesterday something bad happened. cos i was drying my hair like in a hurry cos i had to tie my hair and rush for piano right... so i was switching between high and low heat. and then suddenly i smelt this bad burning smell so i switched it off for a while and then on it again. and seconds later that hairdryer sparked! i was so shocked and scared i kind of threw the whole hairdryer on the floor. and then it sparked two more times and conked off. worse, my whole house power tripped because of that. haha luckily it didn't like burn my hair or smth. and i didn't get an electric shock... but ok that hairdryer was so old it had to go...

anw to more exciting things... we had mid autumn festival celebration at hci yesterday night, which was fun cos almost half of 203 went... at first it was kind of low, everyone was like ok... guessing all the deng mi (which i guessed correctly and then got this really weird hci band) yeah and then performances. i think hci wushu is like so so much better than NYs, cos i think firstly there are guys in there. i mean wushu is like quite weird with only girls right. and they were fighting like some gangsters on the street. which was quite cool. there were some guys behind us cheering really loudly. ok... i thot they did the lighting very well! i mean jc right what can u expect.

after the performances we went to light lanterns! which was kind of funny cos i dun think ppl actually brought lanterns along. but we took some time lighting our candles because the wind was so strong and we were taking pictures and walking around in the field. and then, because enthu ppl like laura and amaris and kim and linghan were there, we kind of started breaking into songs, ranging from really stupid ones like hi-5 to our fave class song! it was so funny and horribly embarassing cos alot of ppl were looking at this crazy bunch of red shirt NY girls singing so loudly in the middle of the field with lanterns. actually we were enjoying ourselves alot and we were cheering like xiao until about like 3 guys started walking towards us and kind of laughing at us. and then we were like oh crap... then we started to walk away.... and i think he said, "stop liao ah?" gosh it was super embarassing... haha but then our class is SO thick-skinned i don't think we felt it at all... haha.

so after that me, lingo and amelia walked linghan to the bus-stop. after that when we were walking back, cos it was so dark right and they had this net thing in the field. we couldn't really see that there was a net so we found ourselves trapped in the middle of some netting... haha. yeah but we managed to get out and then we found sharon. and she said that the rest of the class went on stage to sing at the mass singing session. we were like "WHAT?" i mean we were really embarassing ourselves already... Haha...our class can really do anything.. but luckily they weren't ON stage. they were like with all the hci ppl and singing. so we went to join them and realised all the songs they sang were hci songs and we were kind of out. i think the ppl were so amused that in the middle of the quadrangle there was this circle of NY girls singing like crazy. HAHA and then while we were really losing our heads, this guy and a girl came to us and the guy was like "can i join yall". the girl was like too shy to ask. we were like "..." and then he really did! for a few seconds. haha it was so hilarious. our class was enthu and tried to be enthu when they sang songs which we totally didn't know. it was like all hci jc section around us. not a single ny person. HAHA. after singing session was dance session. and we finally decided to get out of there and not be a dian deng pao already. cos i mean it was supp. to be a hci thing. i bet ppl thought we were really weird cos everyone was looking at us. haha. so during the dance session we left. ok it was embarassing but really really memorable. look what 203 can do. go out there and embarass ourselves, but forever stay as one class. gosh i'm loving 203 to bits!

mid-autumn festival will be so memorable! haha to think i even hesitated not going. sad its over.

tmr back to school! stupid drama stuff... i really hate my character. i mean our half of the class is not enthu about this thing... oh well... and subj combi form is to be handed in by friday! and i haven't decided yet. indecisiveness always leads to panic last minute. i bet very few ppl's gna be in my class next yr. which is really bad cos i will miss 203!

we shall party till we drop after eoys. for now, its back to books and business.
shiyun.

its really heartening to see 203 bond, caring for each other. its like maybe if you look from the surface, 203 is made up of many small cliques but deep inside, even if no one says it out, everyone has this special bond with one another. and i think that's what makes us special. 203's quite different, in a way that we're always crapping out lame stuff, basically, our class is more of like a primary school class, everyone's always laughing, everyone's always crapping.

its so great to see how 203 has like grown over these 2 years. cos i rmb last year was quite a tough one, and there were like many problems. i like the 203 now. we have bonded, matured ( well in a sense) and really showed care and concern to our classmates and teachers. 203's made up of different ppl, in a way, the hardworking ones, the really crazy hua chi ones, the lame ones, the quiet ones, the cool ones... but i think towards 203 we all have this common love. its this spirit that's so beautiful.

i'll cry, 203, when the time comes to part. (i have this feeling very few ppl's gna be same class as me cos very few ppl are taking my subj combi... i may change my mind mebbi) i think on that day, we'll have a 1 hour mass crying session. keep that spirit, 203, i know how quiet the class was when steph left. everybody felt it i guess... we laugh and cry for one another.

we rock! and i really don't feel bad for nominating ourselves... haha.
let's enjoy the last few months together. as one class.

jiayou for eoys.
shiyun.

everyday's like obliging you to mug... argh.

piano's like AHH its one wk and i'm not ready ok... and its like major major grade 8 exam! sighh...
jap oral's one day after. which makes things even worse.

sigh... its september! the nice month of the moon.... haha.

i have kind of nothing to post, except that now its revision and more revision and we have freaking geog for 2 h later... i have a feeling i'm gonna sleep...

BORING. i want to like fly to japan now...

can the whole class like not mug? its pressurising...

we had kind of like a crappy seat, but then you could like see all the sashimi! raw and uncut... haha. i was thinking of stealing one.

appetizer! that gooey thing is yam. but its really nice with the sashimi... this looks nice right!!! haha...

the always-order dish--tofu!
fried squid. its nice and full of flavour.

i'm starting to ask myself why i'm tempting myself at 1130pm in the night. but anw...

we went for the duck race today! haha didn't realise it was such a big scale thing cos there were 3 big buses to send all of us there. it was so so so hot... haha and we waited for like 15 mins beside the truck that was supp to release all the ducks... they delayed 15 mins! and the exhaust fumes were terrible. and cos we had tickets for the race, we were entitled free pass to ACM. which was really nice... haha although i went there before. its quite cool... but quite scary too. i mean if you get trapped in such a place you'll get really freaked out. haha.

today was like rush man... cos after taking mrt and bus back home after the duck race, i filed my stuff, cleared that big fat disgusting file of mine and packed my bag, then rushed down for tennis. yeah tennis after walking at the S'pore river. haha.

well everything's like settled now... tmr ready for school! NOT. ok quite ready but dreading the studying thing and exams... which my piano exam and 3rd lang oral is on two consecutive days!!! SIGH. everyone's mugging now... and it kind of like seems WRONG not to mug huh

its 7 hours to waking up, and 8 hours to school.

wake me up when october 8 ends...

shiyun.

holidays are a bore... i can't believe i actually started studying ok. cos if i remembered correctly, i didn't study until like week 2 last year... ok well its supposed to be good i guess. but seriously i have notes but i don't have knowledge! haha... holidays are ending. and next term is one heck of a term. council duties have started and everyone's on full gear to race ahead of the other. tension's on... well i'm not really bothered about like ppl. i just see the stuff i have to learn and faint. overwhelming indeed!

tues went to linghan's house to study geog with amelia. haha and we did study a whole lot! i'm quite amazed actually. ok we did talk but then we were so hardworking we finished notes on fricking agriculture which was so long and tedious and really irrelevant. unless someone wants to be a farmer when she grows up. yeah you see? but it was fun, more fun than studying at home, crammed into this small space and cramming info into your already small brain. about 5-6h spent there and i have to say it was quite good time spent. yay. at least geog is kind of studied and notes done. just need that whole lot of revision. well not like i like geog alot you know. i can't wait to get out of this subject. and the school can put me into anything except geog.

besides this, my science and history is screwed. how very sad. and my maths, gosh i really ogle at my downsliding grades which is kind of like a x=1 graph, which really is a straight line, down. but, knowing myself, i'll most probably chong everything in term4. which is not really good...

something more exciting... i went to learning lab for replacement yesterday. and when i walked into the room, first person i saw was jiajun, and i was like WOW she comes to TLL? and then seconds later i saw kenneth tan on the other side of the table, and i was like OK too much coincidence? and THEN minutes after the tcher came in, i saw claire from my previous learning lab clas walk in. the world indeed is too small, needless to say a dot in this small world. HAHA. it was so weird, cos like i knew half the class ppl but then each of them were different types of ppl. and one of them looked seemingly familiar... but after class claire came to me and told me that ms cheong went off to italy with her lover! and my tcher confirmed it.

ms cheong! how could you just run off to italy like that! you didn't even say gdbye... and you should invite us to your wedding if you're going to have one and provide us with air tickets to italy!
wow... pretty teacher runs off with lover to italy. i told jiayu and she was like antagonised too.. so sad... i'll miss ms cheong. part of my long ago memories. ok not so long ago. haha.
in gamba! mi mancherai! (and if i'm not wrong, its "take care! i will miss you!")
ok yes my italian sucks. can't believe ms cheong learnt italian in one year!! fluent italian.

ok... have been like poetic emo-ing these few days...
shiyun

Look Within
by WhtDove

There is so much beauty in
This wondrous, blue rose
If only we could capture it
Within our very souls

If we could take its beauty
And apply the glow within
Search a little deeper
In the soul beneath our skin

Take what it does stand for
And shed its love abroad
Don't hide the glow within you
But share the love of God

You know you can't touch beauty
Without it rubbing off on you
And spreading it to others
In the kindness that you do

There lies within each one of us
The beauty like this rose
When it's used in touching others
Then its beauty overflows

Fifteen Crosses
by Lisa Teller

I had a dream I was kneeling, at fifteen crosses on the hill
Not a whisper from the trees, everything was still,
I felt a sadness in my heart, an empty kind of pain,
Fifteen souls had gone away, only memories remained.
I tried to cry out to ease my grief,
Lifted my hands to heaven, prayed God's relief.
Not a sound or a word, emptiness abounds,
My sorrow overcoming, I began to drown.
Such bitter suffocation, I wish someone could hear,
Why we let this happen , in my dream nothing was clear.
I shook my fist to heaven and begged for reasons why,
But only silence spoke, offering no reply.
No sound came from my lips even as I screamed,
I prayed it's just a nightmare, an awful kind of dream.
Then I heard a choir of angels beckoning from above.
"The world is reaping hatred,""Because the world's not sowing love."
"You should embrace each other's differences no matter what they may be,"
"And enlighten each other with the hope of peace and unity."
When the angel finished speaking, she ended with a sigh,
Gazing down at fifteen crosses of fifteen souls who said goodbye.
Then the heavens opened up, the angels giving way,
up to the gates of heaven, Amazing grace began to play.
And as they left this Earthly realm the angels were downhearted
looking back at fifteen crosses of the recently departed.
A soft rain began falling, but no cloud was in the sky.
Then Jesus whispered to me, "This is how the angels cry."

为什么
幸福总是那么短暂？
当化身天使的你涂涂降临，
我甚至连你洁白的羽翼，
都没来得及触碰。

为什么
痛苦总是那么漫长？
当眼泪花过脸蛋的时候，
我甚至无法看清，
你转身时的表情。

在写满着困惑的世界里，
我轻轻拾起遍体鳞伤紫色贝壳，
仿佛听到了晴天娃娃的哭泣，

我努力回忆，
我们曾经的点滴，
为什么一切，
却像是许愿喷泉里的幻影？

这一切还会回到最初吗？
我轻声问起，
风中，
却听不见你的回应。

天使街23号

夕月夜顔だす　消えてく子供の声

遠く遠くこの空のどこかに　君はいるんだろう

夏の終わりに2人で抜け出したこの公園で見つけた

あの星座何だか覚えてる？

会えなくても記憶たどって同じ幸せを見たいんだ

あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

行きたいよ君のところへ　今すぐかけだして行きたいよ

まっ暗で何も見えない　怖くても大丈夫

数えきれない星空が　今もずっとここにあるんだよ

泣かないよ　昔君と見たきれいな空だったから

あの道まで響く靴の音が耳に残る

大きな自分の影を見つめて想うのでしょう

ちっとも変わらないはずなのにせつない気持ちふくらんでく

どんなに想ったって　君はもういない

行きたいよ君のそばに　小さくても小さくても

1番に君が好きだよ　強くいられる

願いを流れ星に　そっと唱えてみたけれど

泣かないよ　届くだろうきれいな空に

会えなくても記憶をたどって同じ幸せを見たいんだ

あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

行きたいよ君のところへ　小さな手を握り締めて

泣きたいよ　それはそれはきれいな空だった

願いを流れ星に　そっと唱えてみたけれど

泣きたいよ　届かない想いをこの空に・・・

きれいな。。。本当に好き　この歌。

创作是靠灵感，灵感是突如其来的，虽然没有深奥的词汇，却有颗充满着喜爱创作，喜欢靠灵感的一颗心。

寂寞

它是在忙碌的街上，
空荡荡的，
在人山人海中，
一片寂静
没人向你挥手。

它是在广阔的草原上，
没有风吹
在无边的海洋，
大声喊叫
却没得到回应。

它是在阴暗的角落里，
黑漆漆的，
没人路过的地方，
听到希望，
却伸手摸不着。

它是在心里的某一处，
想要逃走，
倔强的心压着、压着、
也许害怕，
也许不想面对。

周围的人来来往往，
看到的
只是黑漆冷漠的背影
闻到的
只是隐隐约约的气息。

那颗
寂寞的心
什么可以代替？

哇。。。突然好像变得好中国化哦。。。

shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH

DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE

ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music

PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure


WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time

wishes

striving for these

- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!