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Thursday, August 23, 2007
8:59 PM
i just feel like sleeping. it is not the usual everyday it was not the usual past. move on girl. rain's patting on the windows faster and faster. it isn't everyday it rains so heavily too. too many things on one hand but they seem so light. good sign? no cos you'll be unaware of the amount of things you're carrying. sometimes they seem like a ton but sometimes you just really can't feel the weight. weird huh. and its not like the amount hasn't been increasing. wow. its blanking and that's not good. its a must but nothing is happening. its nearing but yet its too far away for this thing of mine to start working. yeah. can't help it. i don't work when its too far away. yet its not too far away its getting nearer and nearer. but just like what i said, i see the amount but don't feel the weight. which is like you see blood but don't feel the pain. and you say oh gosh that's blood but don't do anything about it cos you don't feel it personally. its also like its raining so heavily but you don't care cos you can't feel the raindrops running down your cheek. sometimes you realise you have to feel it to understand and to take actions but you don't. cos as time passes it kinda gets numb doesn't it. and so you start to feel numb in everything. only when it hits the bones do you feel the intense pain. its not like it pricks little by little, but an overwhelming intensity of tense and pain.
calm, it'll be better tmr. pain isn't eternal.
and after that, please get rid of that numbness and go all the way.
you can.
its proven, just don't prove yourself wrong.
an please, make up your mind.
doesn't it always feel better when the rain stops.
herbasics
shiyun
14 going on 15
30.09.93
NYGH
DOES:
theatre
english literature
JAPANESE
ADORES:
foreign languages
creative writing
cheesecake!
online dramas
roller coasters
singing for the love of it
music
PEEVES:
disorganized notes
long-winded people
noise early in the morning
alot of homework ALL AT ONCE
too much pressure
WANTS TO CHANGE:
procrastination
being late all the time
wishes
striving for these
- to LOVE my life
- step back, relax and break rules from time to time (IF POSSIBLE)
- keep very close to GOD
- master the Japanese language, then learn at least 1 or 2 more
- to master my piano skills, at least match up to a reasonable standard?
- attend vocal courses (:
- learn the drums
- to be more hospitable
- exercise more!
