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the past

take a walk in the alley of yesterday

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Thursday, October 02, 2008

12:53 PM

MOVED! to http://shaded-images.livejournal.com
(:

Saturday, August 30, 2008

7:09 PM

okay, i think it's time to GET OFF the whole emo angsty thing and face life. (i almost wrote facelift there!)

elections! i think it's really really fast that now we have become like, seniors of theatre club. it's SO hard to imagine! i can still rmb the first day of CCA where we walked into the audi and seniors were all rushing to change into their costumes for DUAEL and mr tang gave us this long talk and we were cleaning the audi... it seems like billions of years ago. and looking at my batch, i didn't think this day would come. but it did, and TCN BATCH '09 we are going to ROCK. i'm going to miss the sec4s alot, since i know that the past year we have been really dependent on them and they have always been so enthu and bonded and passionate for the club.

this year's elections will be unforgettable. and though we cried our hearts out that day, we have to move forward. so tears aside and jiayou everyone! and i hope the club can come together like i felt it did that day. JIAYOU eiffel cheryl and jinjin!!! and all the others b/c we are ONE batch!

no time. have to eat dinner. and catching a movie! (:

Thursday, August 21, 2008

2:11 AM

Nanyang Theatre Club Presents:

SCARLET, final installment.

22,23 August 2008, 1930h

NYGH Siew May Auditorium

Tickets @ $10 each.

come support!

1:36 AM

How is my life? SCREWED.

URGH its not a gd time for nice perfect english.

no matter how much ppl might hurt you, through words or actions, no matter how much you want to get back at them, we should be able to forgive. (BSF is always so apt to my life) and so even if you hurt me, and i might not show it, i may just give you a subtle smile and swallow it all. thanks for that, i would say, because deep inside it's hurting, but i'll cover up to forgive you all in all.

ignorance is bliss. but knowing will result in change.

our sins against God are much greater than the sins against us. so what more should we forgive, just as God has forgiven us?

FORGIVE, shiyun. and things won't be too jarring in your face. and it will gradually fade off. don't become too sad, cos sometimes, it may just be your own fault.

it would be nice to have ppl see me as a confidant, or friend, and not just the one you say hi to everyday, nor the one whom you joke with on the surface, nor the girl out there who's just, nice. and i know the people whom i really love as true friends, and i'm thankful.

but there are only few true ones. after all, who really are the ones who know all your deepest secrets?

or maybe, is it because i never tell, so no one really knows?

): im becoming emo again. :(
but i believe my screwed up life is my fault, and that there are better things to come.
life isn't always bright, but there will always be that glimmer of light.

maybe someday i'll become some motivator or inspiring speaker or philosopher or something. x/
bah.

qertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm,

i'm losing focus.

Scarlet's coming, i shall switch my tone of voice to a more positive one.
by the way, come and watch if you are interested.

let's give this blog some revival, shall we?
with big smiles and hugs,
shiyun.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

12:21 AM

it's very freaky when someone who is not supp to be reading your blog READS it. -.-

i'm still hooked onto online dramas. i need to go cold turkey.

SUNDAY: i just realized that i only have less than 3 weeks to learn my church choir piano piece! which is B-A-D! three note chords for each hand and in quavers... i'm going to have to prac like crazy already. if not how to dui de qi choir members? oh well, screwed up my rehearsals cos i totally could not keep up with the speed. AHHHHHHHHHHH. did i say that i take very long to learn the notes? oh well jiayou jiayou prac prac prac. sry, have to neglect my dip pieces for a while, if not i'll be probably practicing for 3-4h, which is not very feasible for now.

MONDAY: assembly was boring. endured through the long and tedious discussion on BSP thing which does not concern me the least. and i really wanted to throw something at someone. on another note, had japan hosting briefing at moelc and a mini-reunion with hama ppl! (: my jap student's profile gave me quite a nice impression. so i'm very looking forward to meeting her! but i really dun think they should have taken flo, liying and hsiaochu's chance of hosting. its so unfair! they went to hama as well, and they had the same hosting experience as us, so why should they be deprived of such a great chance? anyway, looking forward to YUKI and lejing's host AYA, who is 170cm tall and has the exact same birthday as me!

TODAY: i don't like second days of school. for one it seems longer. + CCA + night classes. actually there's nth much to say. just need to study for blocks and do herstory and bio7.1. rarh. i need to study digestive system! can't rmb a thing. and math formulas. CCA is getting intensive.

TOMORROW: Track and field meet! (: hanging banners early in the morning at CCK. i think it will be fun, ppl i know will be there and everything. cheering as well! which will make me lose more of my voice. ok bad thing is, i'm missing school, which means missing A-lit (my essay!), CL (yingyongwen!), and bio (NOTES!) i really really hate it when i miss classes, then have to get notes from ppl and transfer to my notes which is really troublesome. and usually i don't bother to do it. BUT on the bright side, at least it will be fun tmr...

hw: herstory, bio7.1, jap compo, e-learning hw
blocks: actually, EVERYTHING.

poems, graphs, compre, ions, plants, conflict, love.
shiyun.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

11:56 PM

i am not blogging nowadays...

anyway i've decided to stop bathing at like 12 midnight, i'll bathe right after school. which will either make me fresh, or sleepy.

blocks are coming! thankfully there's not much work now, so it's kind of relaxing, although i know that it's time to mug. oh well... math chem and bio. i need to study these three first.

not like i'm studying actually. i slept for 3 hours in the afternoon after school. one of those rare days when i come home at like 3+ so i practically wasted my afternoon. but it explains why i'm still quite awake now. (: aiya my sleep pattern has become very screwed up ever since this year.

i am actually quite relaxed now. apart from the nagging conscience that i have to start studying. and the marshall cavendish thing, but i'm always happy to do a creative writing piece. (: so i'm not stressed, ok. ( to mr sit who told me i looked stressed) i mean, being in 312, you won't get stressed even when exams are nearing. we are the happy-go-lucky ones, of course it brings along the pros and the cons.

guess what? i grew another 1cm! xDDD let's hit 1.7 shall we? since 1.69 isn't that nice a number.

i need to memorize and revise my math formulas, and practise alot.
i need to actually understand chemistry and know how to answer questions properly.
i need to revise and memorize all my bio stuff and apply them to questions.
i need to read thru all my IH notes.
i need to understand the general themes of MND.
i need to read more poems.
i need to read more chinese story books.
i need to study my jap more carefully and in detail, and expose myself to more jap stuff.

whee~
shiyun.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

11:23 PM

a really pretty sunset taken from the plane back from Japan to Singapore. its really pretty! and a somewhat comforting picture for really stressful situations like now.

GOSH i haven't blogged for AGES.

once you step into the school on the first day, everything seems back to normal again. and its like we nvr went on a holiday. SIAs are back. oh dreadful dreadful dreadful. "oh spite, oh hell!" i'm still trying to get that efficiency in me, and still be very happy and calm.

i think i'm losing it. in terms of grades, and my drive. i'm passing deadlines, overdue in hw, shutting off in class, and still watching dramas in spite of all that. sometimes i kind of miss 203's competitive spirit. or how we still find joy when doing our SIAs, like staying up real late to finish it. but it was fun on the whole.

i liked hokubu's greenery and peace in hamamatsu. to me, it's so much more innocent and pure than here. and walking home from school was like walking through lanes of houses, where the wind blew gently and everything was serene. no perspiring, no busy roads, no complaints. i could totally retire there.

okay. regarding the funfair, i do believe that our class can make the haunted house a success as long as we keep the spirit up. it's not only abt the money, but also the fun when everybody dresses up, decorates the classroom, scares ppl etc. so, why think about competition when it just means showing the ugly side of you? we'll just do our best and see how it goes. (:

dramas are becoming an addiction.

MISS JAPAN to bitsbitsbits.

shiyun.

Friday, June 20, 2008

11:34 PM

having no urge to post nowadays... and whatever happened to the supposedly "chionging hw week"? temptation has been too great these days, its really bad. and guilty.

my week has been rather boring, and lazy. my hw is still in a pile and i... have no idea when i'm gna finish them! first, i need my willpower back. and lets pray cr,veoh,mysoju will crash so that i have no more stuff to watch.

i think i'm absolutely screwed up.

anyway, as if time wasn't short enough, went to watch "Temple" with CCA. its quite a cool theatre production i would say, and rather brain-wrecking. i was practically thinking and trying to analyze it throughout! but the whole lights and sounds thing was quite impactful. hmm... and after the show when we were walking out, i heard this couple say "it was a waste of my time". o.0 i dun really think so.? at least it got me thinking.

crocodiles are freaky. at least, crocodile heads. esp when there was this guy with a crocodile head hanging from a flybar. and the music was sometimes really piercing it was pounding in my ears.

okay, i might want to watch such shows again. cos, its interesting. but only if you bother to think deep. oh well.

the weekend! i still have hw, but i'm really defying everything. ):
i would really look forward to school if there weren't the pile of hw and deadlines.

i really should sleep. (: although i most probably wouldn't.
shiyun.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

12:33 PM

SHIYUN IS BACK FROM 3WEEKS JAPAN AND SHE ABSOLUTELY LOVES IT!

the whole trip is simply too long to recount everything!

2 weeks hamamatsu was incredible! yurika was sweet and nice and she had a really cool team of softball friends! like aya, kaho, hitomi, nanami... they were really great. japan schools are really more relaxed than here. they just have like homework which can be done in a day. and projects to them are like... non-existent? so when i was doing projects on the comp she asked me what i was doing and i found it quite hard to explain. haha

i have gotten used to the いただきます！ごちそうさまでした！いってきます！いってらしゃい！ただいま！おかえり！thing. and all the あのさ～　知らん thing. WAHAHA. can't say that my jap really improved but i learnt quite alot of things.

like お前気もい！is the worst thing you can ever say to a girl. thanks, kimura jun.

japanese schools are smaller but they have some really good-looking ones in there. johnny potential, shirotayuu lookalike, kimurajun, ishikawa... but unfortunately most of them have quite a bad attitude. oh well.

school festivals are really really cool. its really like what you see on tv. and i'm really glad my host had an oniichan so i could go to a koukou and see their school festival. it's FUN and you get to lug alot of candies home.

i miss hamamatsu. its the nice suburb town which is relaxing and fun. and it was sad to part with my host.

tokyo was different though. it was always a mad rush, keeping track of time and stuff like that. but still with the group it was interesting and hilarious at times. i gotta say the bunch of us were quite... interesting together. HAHA. at least i got to go to harajuku! and see lolita ppl and shopshopshop! and asakusa, and disneyland! loved that. sat around 16-17 rides in 10h, PLUS shopping! and i got to eat cinammon churros. =) it's really different when you're out with friends. the highness is in the air. disneyland's night scene is really very pretty, its so pretty you could cry. not the first time there but its always a new experience.

SO. here i am back in singapore. with the homework. and SIAs. but japan was so memorable, with the stuff you learn and the friends you make. rarh. hosting japanese students in end july! お楽しみ！

i WILL go back again. and probably visit hokubu!

and so, i never regretted my choice of japan over CAP. i mean, i don't know how CAP would be like but japan was definitely awesome.

working on my CLEP xiao shuo. )=
shiyun.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

6:14 PM

for memory's sake. kopped from ysabel's blog cos i was too lazy to upload from my hp... bowling sabbats rocked! and everyone, even estee!, did well! yeah and i reached my goal for the last day to have at least one strike =) and my trusty 9 pound ball!

From left: Mr James Tan (a thinner and nicer and younger version xD) amanda he, sylvia, estee, yilin, me, lanxin, chenying and ysabel.

why did they scrap term 3 sabbats?! you actually learn stuff! or, you actually WANT to learn stuff.

shiyun.