`shiyun.

2008-10-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

MOVED! to http://shaded-images.livejournal.com
(:

2008-08-30T19:09:00.003+08:00

okay, i think it's time to GET OFF the whole emo angsty thing and face life. (i almost wrote facelift there!)

elections! i think it's really really fast that now we have become like, seniors of theatre club. it's SO hard to imagine! i can still rmb the first day of CCA where we walked into the audi and seniors were all rushing to change into their costumes for DUAEL and mr tang gave us this long talk and we were cleaning the audi... it seems like billions of years ago. and looking at my batch, i didn't think this day would come. but it did, and TCN BATCH '09 we are going to ROCK. i'm going to miss the sec4s alot, since i know that the past year we have been really dependent on them and they have always been so enthu and bonded and passionate for the club.

this year's elections will be unforgettable. and though we cried our hearts out that day, we have to move forward. so tears aside and jiayou everyone! and i hope the club can come together like i felt it did that day. JIAYOU eiffel cheryl and jinjin!!! and all the others b/c we are ONE batch!

no time. have to eat dinner. and catching a movie! (:

2008-08-21T02:11:00.008+08:00

Nanyang Theatre Club Presents:

SCARLET, final installment.

22,23 August 2008, 1930h

NYGH Siew May Auditorium

Tickets @ $10 each.

come support!

2008-08-21T01:36:00.002+08:00

How is my life? SCREWED.

URGH its not a gd time for nice perfect english.

no matter how much ppl might hurt you, through words or actions, no matter how much you want to get back at them, we should be able to forgive. (BSF is always so apt to my life) and so even if you hurt me, and i might not show it, i may just give you a subtle smile and swallow it all. thanks for that, i would say, because deep inside it's hurting, but i'll cover up to forgive you all in all.

ignorance is bliss. but knowing will result in change.

our sins against God are much greater than the sins against us. so what more should we forgive, just as God has forgiven us?

FORGIVE, shiyun. and things won't be too jarring in your face. and it will gradually fade off. don't become too sad, cos sometimes, it may just be your own fault.

it would be nice to have ppl see me as a confidant, or friend, and not just the one you say hi to everyday, nor the one whom you joke with on the surface, nor the girl out there who's just, nice. and i know the people whom i really love as true friends, and i'm thankful.

but there are only few true ones. after all, who really are the ones who know all your deepest secrets?

or maybe, is it because i never tell, so no one really knows?

): im becoming emo again. :(
but i believe my screwed up life is my fault, and that there are better things to come.
life isn't always bright, but there will always be that glimmer of light.

maybe someday i'll become some motivator or inspiring speaker or philosopher or something. x/
bah.

qertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm,

i'm losing focus.

Scarlet's coming, i shall switch my tone of voice to a more positive one.
by the way, come and watch if you are interested.

let's give this blog some revival, shall we?
with big smiles and hugs,
shiyun.

2008-07-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

it's very freaky when someone who is not supp to be reading your blog READS it. -.-

i'm still hooked onto online dramas. i need to go cold turkey.

SUNDAY: i just realized that i only have less than 3 weeks to learn my church choir piano piece! which is B-A-D! three note chords for each hand and in quavers... i'm going to have to prac like crazy already. if not how to dui de qi choir members? oh well, screwed up my rehearsals cos i totally could not keep up with the speed. AHHHHHHHHHHH. did i say that i take very long to learn the notes? oh well jiayou jiayou prac prac prac. sry, have to neglect my dip pieces for a while, if not i'll be probably practicing for 3-4h, which is not very feasible for now.

MONDAY: assembly was boring. endured through the long and tedious discussion on BSP thing which does not concern me the least. and i really wanted to throw something at someone. on another note, had japan hosting briefing at moelc and a mini-reunion with hama ppl! (: my jap student's profile gave me quite a nice impression. so i'm very looking forward to meeting her! but i really dun think they should have taken flo, liying and hsiaochu's chance of hosting. its so unfair! they went to hama as well, and they had the same hosting experience as us, so why should they be deprived of such a great chance? anyway, looking forward to YUKI and lejing's host AYA, who is 170cm tall and has the exact same birthday as me!

TODAY: i don't like second days of school. for one it seems longer. + CCA + night classes. actually there's nth much to say. just need to study for blocks and do herstory and bio7.1. rarh. i need to study digestive system! can't rmb a thing. and math formulas. CCA is getting intensive.

TOMORROW: Track and field meet! (: hanging banners early in the morning at CCK. i think it will be fun, ppl i know will be there and everything. cheering as well! which will make me lose more of my voice. ok bad thing is, i'm missing school, which means missing A-lit (my essay!), CL (yingyongwen!), and bio (NOTES!) i really really hate it when i miss classes, then have to get notes from ppl and transfer to my notes which is really troublesome. and usually i don't bother to do it. BUT on the bright side, at least it will be fun tmr...

hw: herstory, bio7.1, jap compo, e-learning hw
blocks: actually, EVERYTHING.

poems, graphs, compre, ions, plants, conflict, love.
shiyun.

2008-07-10T23:56:00.002+08:00

i am not blogging nowadays...

anyway i've decided to stop bathing at like 12 midnight, i'll bathe right after school. which will either make me fresh, or sleepy.

blocks are coming! thankfully there's not much work now, so it's kind of relaxing, although i know that it's time to mug. oh well... math chem and bio. i need to study these three first.

not like i'm studying actually. i slept for 3 hours in the afternoon after school. one of those rare days when i come home at like 3+ so i practically wasted my afternoon. but it explains why i'm still quite awake now. (: aiya my sleep pattern has become very screwed up ever since this year.

i am actually quite relaxed now. apart from the nagging conscience that i have to start studying. and the marshall cavendish thing, but i'm always happy to do a creative writing piece. (: so i'm not stressed, ok. ( to mr sit who told me i looked stressed) i mean, being in 312, you won't get stressed even when exams are nearing. we are the happy-go-lucky ones, of course it brings along the pros and the cons.

guess what? i grew another 1cm! xDDD let's hit 1.7 shall we? since 1.69 isn't that nice a number.

i need to memorize and revise my math formulas, and practise alot.
i need to actually understand chemistry and know how to answer questions properly.
i need to revise and memorize all my bio stuff and apply them to questions.
i need to read thru all my IH notes.
i need to understand the general themes of MND.
i need to read more poems.
i need to read more chinese story books.
i need to study my jap more carefully and in detail, and expose myself to more jap stuff.

whee~
shiyun.

2008-06-26T23:23:00.003+08:00

a really pretty sunset taken from the plane back from Japan to Singapore. its really pretty! and a somewhat comforting picture for really stressful situations like now.

GOSH i haven't blogged for AGES.

once you step into the school on the first day, everything seems back to normal again. and its like we nvr went on a holiday. SIAs are back. oh dreadful dreadful dreadful. "oh spite, oh hell!" i'm still trying to get that efficiency in me, and still be very happy and calm.

i think i'm losing it. in terms of grades, and my drive. i'm passing deadlines, overdue in hw, shutting off in class, and still watching dramas in spite of all that. sometimes i kind of miss 203's competitive spirit. or how we still find joy when doing our SIAs, like staying up real late to finish it. but it was fun on the whole.

i liked hokubu's greenery and peace in hamamatsu. to me, it's so much more innocent and pure than here. and walking home from school was like walking through lanes of houses, where the wind blew gently and everything was serene. no perspiring, no busy roads, no complaints. i could totally retire there.

okay. regarding the funfair, i do believe that our class can make the haunted house a success as long as we keep the spirit up. it's not only abt the money, but also the fun when everybody dresses up, decorates the classroom, scares ppl etc. so, why think about competition when it just means showing the ugly side of you? we'll just do our best and see how it goes. (:

dramas are becoming an addiction.

MISS JAPAN to bitsbitsbits.

shiyun.

2008-06-20T23:34:00.003+08:00

having no urge to post nowadays... and whatever happened to the supposedly "chionging hw week"? temptation has been too great these days, its really bad. and guilty.

my week has been rather boring, and lazy. my hw is still in a pile and i... have no idea when i'm gna finish them! first, i need my willpower back. and lets pray cr,veoh,mysoju will crash so that i have no more stuff to watch.

i think i'm absolutely screwed up.

anyway, as if time wasn't short enough, went to watch "Temple" with CCA. its quite a cool theatre production i would say, and rather brain-wrecking. i was practically thinking and trying to analyze it throughout! but the whole lights and sounds thing was quite impactful. hmm... and after the show when we were walking out, i heard this couple say "it was a waste of my time". o.0 i dun really think so.? at least it got me thinking.

crocodiles are freaky. at least, crocodile heads. esp when there was this guy with a crocodile head hanging from a flybar. and the music was sometimes really piercing it was pounding in my ears.

okay, i might want to watch such shows again. cos, its interesting. but only if you bother to think deep. oh well.

the weekend! i still have hw, but i'm really defying everything. ):
i would really look forward to school if there weren't the pile of hw and deadlines.

i really should sleep. (: although i most probably wouldn't.
shiyun.

2008-06-17T12:33:00.002+08:00

SHIYUN IS BACK FROM 3WEEKS JAPAN AND SHE ABSOLUTELY LOVES IT!

the whole trip is simply too long to recount everything!

2 weeks hamamatsu was incredible! yurika was sweet and nice and she had a really cool team of softball friends! like aya, kaho, hitomi, nanami... they were really great. japan schools are really more relaxed than here. they just have like homework which can be done in a day. and projects to them are like... non-existent? so when i was doing projects on the comp she asked me what i was doing and i found it quite hard to explain. haha

i have gotten used to the いただきます！ごちそうさまでした！いってきます！いってらしゃい！ただいま！おかえり！thing. and all the あのさ～　知らん thing. WAHAHA. can't say that my jap really improved but i learnt quite alot of things.

like お前気もい！is the worst thing you can ever say to a girl. thanks, kimura jun.

japanese schools are smaller but they have some really good-looking ones in there. johnny potential, shirotayuu lookalike, kimurajun, ishikawa... but unfortunately most of them have quite a bad attitude. oh well.

school festivals are really really cool. its really like what you see on tv. and i'm really glad my host had an oniichan so i could go to a koukou and see their school festival. it's FUN and you get to lug alot of candies home.

i miss hamamatsu. its the nice suburb town which is relaxing and fun. and it was sad to part with my host.

tokyo was different though. it was always a mad rush, keeping track of time and stuff like that. but still with the group it was interesting and hilarious at times. i gotta say the bunch of us were quite... interesting together. HAHA. at least i got to go to harajuku! and see lolita ppl and shopshopshop! and asakusa, and disneyland! loved that. sat around 16-17 rides in 10h, PLUS shopping! and i got to eat cinammon churros. =) it's really different when you're out with friends. the highness is in the air. disneyland's night scene is really very pretty, its so pretty you could cry. not the first time there but its always a new experience.

SO. here i am back in singapore. with the homework. and SIAs. but japan was so memorable, with the stuff you learn and the friends you make. rarh. hosting japanese students in end july! お楽しみ！

i WILL go back again. and probably visit hokubu!

and so, i never regretted my choice of japan over CAP. i mean, i don't know how CAP would be like but japan was definitely awesome.

working on my CLEP xiao shuo. )=
shiyun.

2008-05-24T18:14:00.002+08:00

for memory's sake. kopped from ysabel's blog cos i was too lazy to upload from my hp... bowling sabbats rocked! and everyone, even estee!, did well! yeah and i reached my goal for the last day to have at least one strike =) and my trusty 9 pound ball!

From left: Mr James Tan (a thinner and nicer and younger version xD) amanda he, sylvia, estee, yilin, me, lanxin, chenying and ysabel.

why did they scrap term 3 sabbats?! you actually learn stuff! or, you actually WANT to learn stuff.

shiyun.

2008-05-24T17:56:00.002+08:00

明日です。私の気持ちは、うれしいか、怖いか、わからない。三週間は長い時間ですよ。日本人の家に住んでることは、どうでしょうか。いい日本語が話せますか。

答え探してるなら、今日早い寝て、明日頑張って行こう！

i am...

happyscaredexcitedworriedanticipatingnervous...

3 weeks. homework will pile up all the way to the time i come back.

nevermind.

let's go and come back with fantastic memories.

じゃ、さようならね、シンガポール。
行って来ます！

shiyun.

2008-05-18T17:52:00.002+08:00

the things happening around me are like slow, yet we have to work fast. eww... i think i'm becoming more and more passive. i need to go high. homework.deadlines.packing.shopping.school.

ANYWAY my wkend has been pretty okay, managed to get SOME work done, esp AMES which i'm quite proud of =) love my organized hw schedule. just hope i actually follow it. xP

played in church service today. i think i'm pretty crazy, in the sense that most ppl start off with children's ministry or youth, but i kind of plunged into the adult service. so besides a few wrong notes and wrong chords and the score kind of falling off, it was okay i guess. grand piano sounds nice as always. and uh, i kind of became like the dark horse which came into the limelight. everyone was like "GOOD JOB! you played so well!" frankly speaking, it wasn't that gd, but i suppose ppl don't pay alot of attention to the accompaniment.

so this is how i started serving in church. for a super non-proactive person like me, its others that encouraged me into it. and i realized no matter how much you try to avoid, God will still bring you back to his plan.

and after this, though i still believe i don't play very well, it's made me appreciate piano more. and thanks to my piano tcher for the "you have alot of potential IF you work hard" encouragement and pep talks. she asked me about my plans regarding piano, like where i want to head and stuff like that. seriously, i've nvr considered that. piano is a skill, and yes i do like playing the piano and i can sort of "feel" the music, but i'm not sure if its gna go out as a career or smth. but i don't believe you can only work hard if you have something big in mind, even if its just for leisure, i still will focus and probably work hard for dip. okay, you can't ask a indecisive person about her future plans.

i'm becoming a really dull person. NOOOO.

i'm halfway done for shopping for japan trip, i'm still missing 3G hp, souvenirs and shoes. ooh ok. and i want nice knee-length shorts or above knee skirts. RARH no time! i haven't packed yet, i haven't even dragged the luggage out of wherever it is.

japan trip is scaring me. i'm thinking how i would live in a japanese person's house for 3 weeks and not feel awkward. still, think of harajuku, disneyland, shopping and food! i'm using up 3 wks of my precious jun hols so i better make this trip even more priceless.

i need exercise, more specifically, fresh air.
shiyun.

2008-05-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

one more week has ended. rarh... as expected, there was the last minute PILE of hw that sealed our fate for the june hols. its kind of gotten numb already.

SABBATS! okay my electives this year are not TOO bad. and as usual, the morning sabbats are boring, followed by a more fun afternoon sabbats. i actually expected more from forum theatre, cos its... theatre right? but we spent the session discussing on racial stuff in s'pore and abit of warm-up. AND they split us up into groups where you don't really know everyone. okay.... for bowling its was better, cos first there were more 312 people around! and we got to go outside school. and our instructors were fun ppl. we had fun laughing over the instructor's name (JAMES TAN! o.0) and we learnt the sliding position which makes my foot really pain... but all in all i think my ball kept going into the gutter, and that i am always luckier in the first rounds. but nvm, i'm gna come out of this sabbats a better bowler. mwahaha. at least can flaunt the stylo finishing pose. xD

HAMAMATSU breifing. it's making me excited =)) and scared and everything. rarh. first i gotta buy and pack stuff amidst the crazy hw and everything. wk 10 will be crazy. and its pretty scary staying in someone's house for 3wks, with limited communication. haha, but it's gna be a real nice experience! i've just decided not to brin my laptop there sicne they said there should not have wireless connection... blah. but i'm still gna bring schoolwork there. too bad. we're sad people. and lastly i hope i have a very nice host family who will take me out to FUN places and are really friendly! oh yes, i'm amazed at the ofuro etiquette. communal bath! haha. omigosh, i AM EXCITED!

open house tmr! sadly there's duty so i can't chiong as much hw. i'm sry i'm becoming muggerish these few wks cos there's really too much hw to clear before the trip. anw, there's also arena finals, church choir playing, lingo's b'day celebration, NYAA cip + necessary shopping for japan trip and packing + homework and SIAs.

i'm amazed at how sardine-packed my life is. i think all our lives are. but there's this saying that human beings start from the basics of life, start to advance and then reach a peak in advancement, then things get chaotic and the downfall will start, and finally it will go back to the basics again.

blah. i'm thinking of changing skin.
shiyun.

2008-05-15T00:19:00.003+08:00

jialun and lejing san has said my blog is becoming too depressing... okay then i shall start off by counting my blessings today.

thankyou mum and dad for the ipod nano! =)) so finally shiyun has moved on to better technology since... centuries ago. YAY! the irony, how they always tell me not to watch too many videos and they are actually giving me something that allows me to do just that. HAHA. and its 4GB, its not some shitty number like 512MB which really cannot fit all of my songs. so tytyty! i'm eagerly looking at my ipod which is still charging like a snail...

tomorrow=last day of school officially! the sad thing is the deadlines aren't. boo. but sabbats are coming! =D

it is, considering that it is now past midnight, TEN days to japan trip! too many what ifs to ask... so just see how.

i'm sry i still have to rant that hw is still piling and its nearing the hols already! somehow there's a bad feeling that there will be the last minute holiday hw pile tmr.

OKAYY! sabbats coming up, ny open hse, flag day, arena finals all before my japan trip!
which reminds me, i have to do extra NYAA cip hours to cover for my three weeks. o.0
and i haven't packed my stuff, or went shopping to get stuff that i need.

WAHAHA. i hope its not tatamis for the next three weeks. =)
shiyun.

2008-05-10T19:56:00.002+08:00

絆　亀梨和也

先のことどれほどに　考えていても　
本当のことなんて　誰にも見えない
空白？心に何かかつまって
あやまちばかり　くり返してた

一歩づつでいいさ　この手を離さずに
ともに歩んだ日々が　生き続けてるから
ボロボロになるまで　引きさかれていても
あの時のあの場所　消えないこの絆

流れゆく時間の中失わぬように
すれ違いぶつかった本当の気持ち
心に染みてくあいつの想いに
出逢えた事が求めた奇跡

立ち止まることさえ出来ない苦しさの
中に見えた光つながっているから
うそついたっていいさ涙流していいから
あの時のあの場所消えないこの絆

一歩づつでいいさ　この手を離さずに
共に歩んだ日々が生きつづけてるから
ボロボロになるまで引きさかれていても
あの時のあの場所消えないこの絆

Translation:

kizuna -kamenashi kazuya

No matter how much you think about the future
No one can see the truth
A void? Something’s stuck in my heart
I kept repeating my mistakes

Just one step at a time; don’t let go of my hand
The days we spent together still live
Even if we’re torn apart til we’re ragged
That time, that place, this bond won’t disappear

Making sure we don’t lose it in the flow of time
Our true feelings pass and bump against each other
My heart is steeped in love for her
That we met is the miracle I longed for

The pain of not even being able to stand still
We’re connected by the light we saw inside
It’s okay if you lied; it’s okay if you cry
That time, that place, this bond won’t disappear

Just one step at a time; don’t let go of my hand
The days we spent together still live
Even if we’re torn apart til we’re ragged
That time, that place, this bond won’t disappear

~absolutely beautiful.

2008-05-10T19:36:00.003+08:00

weekend. the time for chionging stuff.

my june hols is... if you don't count wkends, i have only FOUR wkdays when i actually SLEEP IN MY HOUSE. and there's council camp 2 days after my 3 week japan trip! so, i'm going to be physically and mentally drained like CRAZY. i can't even go for CCA! but i'll make my japan trip so worth it i'll be happy and jappy! and i dunno what to do with the pile of hw. currently, i'm trying to make it lesser. well, trying hard. i even have to bring my hw and laptop to japan. SIGH.

anyway, first time volunteering at AMK library! the IMH thing didn't really work out, so we decided to do NYAA at AMKlib. it was efficient so we could start work right away. spent like 2h handing out some forms at the entrance, registering ppl, blah... public face! haha. and i did it with this indonesian girl who was really nice. cheryl and estee were shelving books! ahaha, which is quite sad.

CLEP is crazy. everything is an essay. even the compre is almost an essay. a question is like.. 50 marks! o.0 and so there's this automatic pressure to write more right?

school is getting hard. am i getting stupid or is the syllabus just crazy?

頑張れ、シーユン！絶対あきらめない！
勉強勉強！笑って、きれいな空を見上げて！

let's face it with a smile.
shiyun.

2008-05-07T23:23:00.002+08:00

a day of school, a day more burdens, a day cleared, a day to face tomorrow.

school is just depressing i don't wanna continue.

anyway, we watched dead poets society during a-lit today! and it was nicenicenice, esp the end! so sad neil shot himself because his parents were totally against him acting in theatre and helped him pave his road to become a doctor. poor him, he should have just left his parents off to somewhere else. i mean, his parents are just a bunch of square idiots. and it was so heartwarming to see the whole class kind of went against the headmaster to support Mr. Keating. seriously the school was some shitty system which only focused on tradition and parents. the last part was sad, it was the kind that you cried but smiled in the end. when the movie ended and the lights were on, people were tearing.

the rest of the day was a one note drone. even third lang was quite boring today.

RAFT: i don't understand why they are making us write some weird comicstrip/advert/chart about math?! firstly, i am 1000000% sure that quadratic functions do NOT talk. it's so stupid, like why do we have to even pose as a quadratic function and write to some other mathematical being? it's not creativity, its trying too hard.

(there are two times of the day when i really don't like to be disturbed, or talked to. that is, early morning when i just wake up. and late at night, like after 1130. super irritated.)

LA lecture today there was a talk on body image and tchers started saying we should be kind to ourselves. but is the school kind to us? no, and if they did not realize, maybe students are too busy to even eat? its so ironic its amusing sometimes.

i miss 203! i miss the 4 of us together! i miss zzc's chinese lessons! i miss the fact that the times we had together were, somewhat, innocent fun. maybe its sec3, i'm beginning to see the darker side of things.

blah. what can we do but move on.
choir concert! jiayou nyc!
i'm broke.
shiyun.

2008-05-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

shiyun feels stupid, suddenly... blah. i don't think my grades are dropping alot, but i think i've slackened quite alot, and my expectations are lowering, even if i don't realize it. perhaps i'm taking things too lightly? i don't feel i've studied alot this year... and i could have done better. well, don't give me some crap abt how you are worse off, cos each to her own right? i mean if you know yourself, then you should guage your potential and work towards it right?

anyway, yiping was PRO today. chongmin too, but i can't really appreciate guzheng so i can't comment much abt it. hehh. but for someone to learn a very fast piano piece in one month is amazing, and for me, its miraculous. like one month will be the time i take to figure out all the notes. okay, i will strive to master my piano if time actually permits, cos its irritating knowing that you are diploma level but still worse off than someone who is, probably grade 7. -.- no, i just think i take very very long to learn my notes.

okay, i'm like super bored learning chinese poems. i don't want to memorize poems!!! and they are all the same, talk about spring summer autumn winter, its as if its the only thing they can ever get inspiration from.

more deadlines... i want to finish my AMES and CLEP story BEFORE japan trip. which is 3 weeks from now. which is bad. holidays are equivalent to home schooling. pls correct this misunderstanding that students have alot of time during the hols. "you have the whole june hols to complete your homework!" YEAH, as in jun hols, if you minus off overseas trip and camps, that's like one week? right, i have one WHOLE week to clear like hw from 7-8 subjects. one subject one day.

i bet 30 years ago, ppl were still like, maybe flying kites on the grass at my age...

i foresee a busy, unpredictable year ahead.

jiayoujiayou.
shiyun.

2008-05-03T16:00:00.002+08:00

yesterday was just BAD. firstly, i woke up late for school and even though i managed to take 162 to the macritchie bus stop on time, we couldn't even get on the next bus. we saw three 74s and one 852 pass us!!! we stood at the bus stop for half an hour, and every bus that we could take was FULL. =( by the time we could squeeze up the bus, it was already 720 and we were already LATE for school. but ohwell, everybody was late that day so they let us off =)

school was boring. and more deadlines came up.

what, should i laugh or cry regarding CCA? the only thing i felt sorry was that i was late. i admit that, cos i wanted to go but had to wait for ppl and pass my edusave form to mrs ng. BUT, just kicking us out of CCA for not doing refelctions is like !@#*&^%. we walked out anyway. you can't expect a child to be good if the parent does not set a good example.

i miss the times when i was really jumping around and really eager to help out in any way during CCA, how i waited behind the curtain to clean up the feathers and moved the property man box, or how we did yoga in m4, how we cleaned every inch of the audi, tang's bitching, the REALLY GOOD FOOD before production, the banning of SUGARED WATER, cabbage soup, the highing and tension before production and having a wonderful, perfect show.

and i miss how bonded we were. and how we moved as a club. and how professional in terms of acting and backstage we were. it's quite sad to see the club like that. and if we turn sec4 next year, i really wonder how the club will be like, since we are the last batch to have tang, and not everyone in our batch knows him and his way of working.i just don't want to see expectations drop.

SIGH. enough of CCA, i should feel accomplished since i finished some work. =)

~~i don't like teaching my bro.~~

today has been boring.
shiyun.

2008-04-30T19:44:00.004+08:00

WAHAHA, CSM today! i realised that when you're in council, these kind of activities mean much more to you. anyway, cheered our hearts out today! and by standing below we actually get a better view of the races. haha. i would say everything went quite well, except that STNR was quite messy. but then the teachers and students were really enthu so it was FUNFUN! (it was even funnier when HCI got the hawaiian girl costume ^^)

as usual, NANYANG ROCKS in staff relay race! every year teachers come and go but we never break our tradition of clinching champion! ^^ mr kaw ran, surprisingly! haha! and although shyam the national record holder is gone, we still have other pro tchers! i would say, you can never judge a teacher by his/her looks. =) anyway we got really high at that point, inclusive of mad cheering, jumping, screaming and hugging.

i'm just sad that CSM wasn't spent with 312... and our class lunch supposedly dissolved into thin air?

after CSM, had batch lunch and then went to j8 cos there was third lang.

~~(it feels very heartbreaking to part with $10 on just ice-cream)~~

from NY to j8, i listened to my piano piece, and realized Beethoven's Pathetique Sonata is 20 minutes long! and that is if you play really really fast. !!! inferiority always kicks in.

third lang was a crazy session as usual, and i really do treasure these times of madness. i love our third lang ppl, we are UBERcrazy! we should really put our stuff on youtube! i really think we need some kind of control, cos we're very slack in third lang. but the thing is, cos we all have alot of interest in jap, so we really listen and apply during lessons. =))

finished my A-lit essay, FINALLY! i dun really love MND, i would prefer individual passages actually, cos MND is just too broad and long for nice deep analysis. left with bio 5.2 and abit of math!

i'm gna make full use of my public holiday tmr and CHIONG out everything. =) and i should really start on my CLEP and AMES if i don't wanna spend my time in japan doing hw.

WOOHOO. i love CSM, CSS batchmates and third lang!

highness does not last for long, but it's these kind of days that you treasure the most.
chiongchiongchiong!
shiyun.

2008-04-28T22:44:00.003+08:00

i officially don't like my life, as to now.

THANKYOU.

i'm looking for the garden that brushed past my childhood, not knowing that i'm still in that garden, but it is just that, i don't see it as a garden anymore.

RARH.

i was thinking, wouldn't it be nice if i just be someone mediocre, someone average, someone who achieves not many things but accomplishes small tasks, someone whom nobody views with deliberate (or not) expectations, someone who basks in the natural sunshine rather than in the spotlight?

wouldn't it be nice if the world was just made of Cadbury chocolate.

the feeling which you get from eating really starchy food again and again, sick, and a dull discomfort.

what a nice pessimistic post.

to God my father, these are my burdens, surrended.

shiyun.

2008-04-25T23:50:00.002+08:00

term2 sucks. my jun hols are gna be TIGHT. cos there's THREE weeks jap immersion and council camp. i think overall, i'm left with less than a week to chiong everything. and everything includes like 2-3 SIAs, AMES, CLEP story, and more stuff that the school will probably throw at us.

anyway, chem SPA today was... okay. just that i didn't test for gas for the solution S. cos i think i couldn't be bothered to. and uh, i guess it was okay. 3 years and screwing all my SPAs, i think this one was fairly ok.

went to watch debate finals with estee and sandy! NY vs RI. and NJC vs. HCI. well, sad to say that RI won the thing, but i kind of predicted it cos they were really not bad. if i was a third person i would probably side with RI, but then... anyway NY jiayou!

i'm lacking jap shows... nice ones. -.- i miss nodame cantabile. and i wanna watch zettai kareshi (absolute boyfriend!) but the whole thing is not out yet. it's gna air until june. and i dun like waiting. oh well.

iwantcheesecake.
shiyun.

2008-04-20T19:37:00.003+08:00

i've been "feeling like" doing some things recently, for some apparent reason.

1) i feel like playing my piano all the time. REASON? i dunno. maybe it's because of church choir. maybe i'm kind of feeling the pressure to play WELL. hmm. i like it though, its just that i screw up alot of times, bah. and usually its quite unnoticeable cos everyone sings really LOUDLY the piano is kind of drowned out. or maybe, its too much of nodame cantabile. and with that i wanna say I LOVE YOU CHIAKI KUN! and nodame is SO retardedly cute! ohmigosh i love the part where he hugged her near the sea at sunset. so romantic! back to topic, maybe their overly pro playing of the piano has influenced me in some way. so, i suppose its good that i still harbour interest in my piano, even though i don't think i'm talented in it, and for some reason i survived EIGHT grades, working towards diploma, still can't sightread properly, still stumbling over my notes, probably sounding worse than a sixth grader, but still... playing on.

2) i feel like blogging alotalotalot. and i don't know why as well. okay, maybe too many things not said in my head... ?

3) i feel like going shopping! i wanna replace my old and SHORT clothes. bad thing if you're tall. everything's like short. and i need nice shorts, those that are casual and you can go out in. i either have really those home-ish shorts, FBTs or long pants. -.-

anyway, (i think i rant alot, contrary to my usual public self, i RANT ALOT)

ANYWAY, finally chem SIA experiment is OVER. i hereby conclude that jam tastes weird with gelatin. its best with just fruits and sugar. =) and zephyr tried to make JELLY out of it, but it uh kind of turned out weird. ohwell, its an experiment anyway.

i finished that stupid baohuludemimi movie review! i got sick typing baohulu. -.-

i'm left with disgusting chinese compo. rice prices going up blahblahblah. i still got to emphasise my thoughts that i really really HATE such compos. composition is from the word "compose" which means to PRODUCE something, and not copy from newspapers. =D

chemSPA tmr. too bad i missed the last chem lesson! =( i was choreographing at m4.

NAPFA 2.4km. bad... i don't like my timing... i got a stomachache since the 3rd round! =(( lesson learnt, empty your bowels before a strenuous run. i must jiayou for 5 items. standing broad jump shiyun, pls jump further. i have big problems passing that!

CLUB JACKET! yayay! although its like BIG and baggy and makes ppl look fat. but its still a club jacket and everyone in the club has it! =)) i will contemplate whether i wanna wear it over an already baggy council shirt.

okay, calls from the living room for dinner.
shiyun.

2008-04-19T22:48:00.018+08:00

SCARLET!!! pictures first. =)) too bad my camera died on me, cos it was not charged! -.- but still managed to take some... oh well. send me if you have, ppl!

delena + bimbosteph! =)
Steph + helin. helin looks so cute here! ^^

hyo lim's curled hair. zephyr wanted to take this cos she DID it. okay, this is evidence that our dear zephyr is a very very gd hairstylist. (give her the credit she wants =) amanda looks very comfortable there.

hyolim + me! and melanie is trying to catch unwanted attention back there. LOL!

iBeauty host EIFFEL!

delena + eiffel!
estee the mistress, shiyun the model and delena the girl with the scary, piercing scream. ^^
steph + me (203-ers!) and HIPPO!

looking sweet!
once again, steph and me! apparently someone stuck her hand out suddenly.
hyolim, amanda and me! (+ the monkey) yay 3 top models!omg, the monkey is SO CUTE! it takes the attention away from us.

so, Scarlet is finally over and i gotta say although this is considered quite a SMALL performance, it was still big enough to give me post-performance blues. and audience was pretty good that night! it was definitely more that 50! yayay! hyolim amanda rachel and i were like peering earnestly from the second level... many many teachers, NY ppl. =)) audience response was not bad i would say, just that they didn't really know how to move until the last parts. and when i came down for my scene and walked to the grass patch, no one moved away! -.- and there we were, standing at the grass patch IN the audience and i was like thinking how we're gna continue the scene. and i could see lingo smiling at me, cheryl jessica... and they were like "shiyun!" but i couldn't respond could i? haha, but overall it was NICENICENICE! the rose petals were prettyyyy!

at the end of it they popped sparkling juice and then everybody had a share of it! and atmosphere was so high!! teachers came up to say some high stuff, and then one by one we popped the champagne. highhighhigh.=)

A BIG THANKYOU TO:

203ers:

amelia, lingo, tabby!

312!:

cheryl, jessica, sylvia, chongmin, loyee, ysabel, lanxin, sandy, yilin!

TCN seniors! batch 06 (yiming) and 07! [i've learnt that dear vanessa has become bimbo!]

AV (although i don't know your names, thankyou yall put in alot for this!)

and lastly, my DEAR THEATRE CLUB MATES! ^^ 1st instalment--down! batchmates, we'll definitely have a chance to take our batch photo, WITHOUT being disrupted. =)

this is NOT IT. i mean there is still more to come. so... i guess we'll be seeing scarlet for the next few months!

(i learnt that dressing up and make up takes really really long... and fake eyelashes are somewhat gross, and jumping around in the mud isn't a very happy thing to do, and that there's actually such thing as a temporary hair straigtener and curler(ok i'm quite dumb). i'm amazed how real models can actually sit for 5-8h just to get that few minutes or hours of glamour on the runway. WOW.)

SCARLET!

shiyun.

2008-04-16T22:25:00.004+08:00

i lived through 11h on one peanut butter waffle. -.- on fried food day some more.

typical stereotypical predictable days are so easy to come by.

GREAT. i forgot to hand in my bio quiz. what, marks are gna be slashed into half?! and i spent my precious sleeping hours doing it!!! teachers LOVE slashing marks, like somehow, a "minus" sign seems to be easier to write than a "plus" sign.

tell me the rationale behind minusing FIVE whole marks for not writing THE TITLE. ohh yeah right, the REALLY IMPORTANT TITLE. i am so so so pissed with that certain someone. there is no reason behind this?! its absurd, stupid and more ridiculous than the Chinaman in "thrillers".

LA: got back compre results. i don't do very well for compre usually, so the mark i got was OKAY. i suppose.

A-LIT: time trial. just crapped out 2 1/2 pages in one hour. i think i repeated points and stuff... but nvm i'll just see how much sense ms birchwood can make out of my crappings.

MATH: alpha and beta just makes our life more complicated. as if A and B is not enough. but, ok, i have come to a point where i really need to listen, process and apply. not like how i just rush through all the examples, get the answers and be happy.

CHINESE: as usual a wasted lesson. supposed to read how many freaking pages of ya zhou zhou kan and newspapers on rice inflation and olympics stuff and do a COMPO on it. give me a shu qing wen anytime, i'll do it gladly (and nicely!) for you!

LUNCH: bought my one and only precious WAFFLE, had a few bites, went up to M4 for CCA stuff, then went back to class, had a few more bites, and then went for bio lab. -.-

BIO: nth special... realized there is SPA next wk. how last minute. i can't do SPA! something always screws up suddenly.

CCA: spent bulk of time dressing up doing hair makeup +++ we only had ONE rehearsal. -.- and we're gna do that again tmr... on friday too.

i can sleep anywhere nowadays. like on the benches, in front of the comp... i am so deprived...

2.4 tmr! just pray i don't get sick or some weird morning nauseating stuff. and i just wanna get a C, thats all. sleep early tonight.

TWOTWOTWO days to scarlet!
shiyun.

2008-04-16T02:43:00.002+08:00

whoots. shiyun is still alive and kicking at this obscene hour.

ok maybe not kicking...

i am.being.tempted.to.sleep.

gdnight.

shiyun.

2008-04-13T18:17:00.002+08:00

HELLO! this wkend is a much better one compared to last week, which is not necessary to bring it up again.

STRINGS CONCERT
met up with cheryl, estee, jessica at coro for dinner and flowers first before heading to school! and my dear estee got so scared over TAPPING HER EZ-LINK CARD. well, what do you expect from someone who hardly takes the bus?! you know, i believe the sensor of the tapping system is sensitive enough to pick up your ezlink card so there's no need to be so afraid of it not being able to read yr card or anything! but ohwell, it's estee, so i'll let it pass... =)

anw, went to NY audi, met with loyee chongmin, yilin, lanxin... with chenying and wanting upstairs doing AV. like a mini 312 reunion! haha. strings concert was not bad, considering it was solo performances, so the impact is not AS great. but the last performance was SO cool it was jaw-dropping! it's the kind of performance that makes you go "oh-my-goshhhhhhh" and almost makes you hate the person up there. whoever that is, I SALUTE YOU!

okay, during intermission we went to give ysabel flowers, who alr obviously was showered with love and all... haha. i'm so proud of my lab partner! =) she had this super big softtoy from her parents which made everyone kind of envious that ysabel, you have the perfect family! and a cute grandma too!

after the concert, cheryl estee jessica chongmin and wanting and i went to "the place opp beauty world" for supper! and throughout the whole journey we were kind of stalking yingci... ok maybe only estee. poor yingchee! so we went to this noodle shop, got drinks and food and sat down to TALK. right, so talking isn't it. haha. but it was nice "bonding" or crapping session, we couldn't get enough of it. wanting and chongmin have cute parents!!! =D

so it was a nice break i would say. =D my life is back! although not for long.

TODAY
i was out for almost the whole day today... boo.
after watching a whole lot of pro ppl play yesterday, i realized my piano is BADBADBAD. oh goshh. prac more prac more! i dun really have a big flair for anything... i just moderately know how to do quite alot of things.

scoured thomson nurseries for bio SIA potted plants and artificial flowers. FOUND THEM! =)

which reminds me i need balloons as well.

came back and spent the next hour eating nian gao and reading newspapers (the lifestyle section of course!)

irritating stuff currently weighing extra pounds on my mind:
-chemSPA. if the prac is smth very free and asks you to do your own experiment, i can be prepared to fail. which is quite common cos i do not do well in practicals.

-JAPsakubun test. this will die as well. =) i will use really simple and safe sentences.

-CLSIA. irritatingirritatingirritating!!!

-Chinatownthing. i dun care. its just oral marks right

-math. i looked at the questions and shut off immediately.

blahh. i need to have a nice summary of my hw every now and then if not i lose track. just like how i really dun like it when science tchers jump from one place to another when they're teaching and i don't know how to write my notes. in the end i squeeze notes everywhere and they become very messy and i lose interest. stuff like bio and chem and math, CANNOT have discussion style lessons. i won't understand anything at all. but LA LIT and IH is a diff story.

okayokay. i'm at a loss of what to do next.
5days to SCARLET!
shiyun.

2008-04-12T12:36:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY! thank God for no CCA, and i had the privilege to sleep in till 9+. I MISS SLEEP! i think i slept altogether 11+ hours. =) which is like probably, 2 normal days of sleep added together.

anyway, friday was slack-ish. no maths, no chinese. =) and we only had LA, IH and PCCG.
yayay. i like it when tchers decide to kind of abandon us in class alone. I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS WEEK TO BE OVER. =D

CCA
watched sec1 performance. not bad for a first performance, considering the fact that their batch put up a show by THEMSELVES. like i don't think our batch ever had that kind of privilege. they're pretty cute, i would say. but i'm hoping they would soon join the rest of us after their performance cos we're always split up! which makes bonding hard you know.

back to scarlet. firstly, the halter top dress looked really cheap, and bad, i don't understand how it would be appropriate for a model. ? but we have to SACRIFICE FOR OUR ART right, quoting tang... oh well, me and amanda were like complaining upstairs while waiting for our scene.

i actually quite like Scarlet, which means the 3 women scene and the classy music and the atmosphere and all, but "when you're immersed in some really emo-ish or classy mood, you have to go up and give a super fake smile and pose" it spoils the atmosphere!!! but anw, i shan't spoil it for others.

CYNTHIA YOU MAKE SUCH A SHUAI GUY!! <3
YINGCI YOU MAKE SUCH A GAY GUY!! xD

i never believed cynthia would ever be a guy. well, now i do.

and so we stayed up till 8, and i gotta say when the sky was dark and the lights came on it was really pretty. so i would say the music and lights make the show. i'll probably get alot of laughing for my scene. -.-

OFF CCA now, i'm still thinking what to choose for sabbats. i'm quite glad they have this random scheme thing, so no one will flood the com labs or have this super paranoid state. but, i really don't like prioritizing choices. ohwelll...

THINGS TO DO THIS WKEND:

get logistics stuff--raffia string + artificial flowers

get bio SIA stuff--9 balsam seedlings

study chem qualitative analysis--the one that i have to keep referring to cos i can't memorize! and i don't fully understand it either

study IH--ok read thru at least, luckily its open book

study JAP compo--can't really study actually, BUT my sakubun is reallly bad...

CHINESE SIA--we are dead. thankyou.

chinatown prj--we are not THAT dead but still bad...

booo....

i really hate it when you know ppl just come in, and NAG. they don't say anything else. they open the door and the first kind of ppl, they come in and not even a "hello" and start nagging. the second kind, they come in EVERY MINUTE and nag. the third kind of person, they sit down and NAG for whoknows how long.

~~can't ppl just have a normal conversation?~~

STRINGS CONCERT!

shiyun.

2008-04-10T00:29:00.002+08:00

i shall sum up my day, which isn't really very interesting to read, but... oh well, what's a blog for.

MORNING: came to school, dropped my bag in class, rushed to GO, chopped posters, got CD, found ppl to help me paste posters, pasted posters, rushed for assembly. all this - in half an hour. it seems like every second is valuable now.

LA LECTURE: our class ppl got this canon guy came to talk abt photography today, which i thought it was quite cool (well at least his ppt were all pics and no words) at first he wasn't in the LT yet then natalee went up to introduce him and then there was this other guy there so we greeted the wrong guy! haha. he was like "erm i'm not jino, he's not here yet" very sheepishly. and ah, although i didn't really understand camera terms, pictures were nice though. we came up with amazingly intelligent questions =)) much to the tchers' amazement. well, until Jingzhi asked where to get some (i dunno) camera and the person said "penninsular" and she went "ISIT IN MALAYSIA??" then the guy was like -.- "its at city hall, looks like you don't travel often". and the whole lecture theatre burst out laughing. jingzhi, you rock at such stuff.

A-LIT: MND again and again... nth much.

RECESS: mad rush again. haha. set up booth, settled music, blew (and tied) lots of balloons.

MATH: graphsgraphsgraphs. no comments.

CHINESE: spent one hour stoning. he spent one hour talking. we spent one hour doing nothing.

LUNCH: more balloons sold! grabbed chewy junior's from band at the last minute. yay we should have these kind of things more often.

BIO: the whole class was super super dead during the first half. it was amazingly and scaringly quiet. even mrs lai came in and was like "WOW your class is really quiet when the tcher is not here huh." well, what do you expect, when firstly, its after lunch, and secondly, almost everyone failed bio ws. but after that things got better. it just takes someone to say smth crazy and the whole class awakens. well, i still think bio is relatively fun, if u wanna compare to other subjects...

THIRDLANG: normal stuff. but jap is always more relaxed than school, and there's always craziness in class. we shall go japan and speak really flowery english in this american accent, chinese in the china way, and go there and speak nonsense jap. =) we shall try that in harajuku xD.

HOME: tried my very best to do chemws, but realized i didn't understand a single thing, I REALLY DON'T! so i fell asleep all the way until 853. i wasted time away again...

tons and tons of projects are waiting for me, deadlines are all on the same time, assgn, SPA, tests... care to tell me the rationale behind this? if you realize, it should be given in small tasks one at a time so that, according to the surface area to volume ratio theory, we can absorp better.

i hate this word called SIA. it is evil, pure evil.

and i'm sleeping late every night!!! ><

SAP seminar tmr, wellll... i think this time should be better used for like project discussions, or sleep.

shiyun.

2008-04-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

have been stressed out all weekend. one of the worst ever. have you ever gotten this sickening dull pain that is constantly weighing like a thousand pounds in your mind that you can't get rid of? and because of that i've been looking at food with no appetite, but rest assured i still eat, and i have been neglecting my bed and rest. so, maybe, i'm just one who is more paranoid than others.

according to sec2 DISC test, people see me as an I-S, i think i'm an I-S, but when i'm under stress i'm an I-S-C. that C, pessimistic, pays extra attention to details and somewhat introverted. like how i don't like to talk to ppl when i'm stressed and i'm just thinking abt work work work everytime. eew, nonono i don't like C i must go back to my I-S self, which i perceive as the best combi to have! of course, i know i'm never a D. i can never be a D.

okay, what am i doing, analyzing my stupid self.

anyway, school passed in a blur today, probably cos i was to caught up with IFD.

chem: read qualitative analysis PLEASE cos i can't rmb a single thing.

A-lit: whee more comedies to read! Bill Bryson and his American food fad. or Odgen Nash and his literal metaphors.

Maths: was too stressed up to really listen. tmr coord geom quiz. die. luckily its open book, and luckily i did the ws today.

Assembly: not too bad this time. teachers were hilarious. hmp mini concert was, again, making me inferior to my nondescript piano skills, the juggler was just amazing (it took my mind off IFD for a while)

3rd lang: normal normal normal.realised there is compo test next monday!!! and test on 28th April. my sakubun is gna dieeee!

i'm quite happy that at least me skipping tll today was worth it. at least, i'm not feeling too bad now. at least, i'm crapping and thats a gd sign. but still, the real thing is not until tmr onwards so i will がんばってね！絶対できるよ！信じて！self motivation is key.

a little publicity here:

Theatre Club presents
SCARLET 1st installment
18th April, 1900
@ NY eco pond
F-O-C!

of cos there's limited number of audience cos its only... well, ecopond. so COME and see for the first time, an outdoor performance at night. try smth out of the audi shall we?

jiayoujiayoujiayou.
shiyun.

2008-04-06T17:58:00.003+08:00

The seashell sits, on the bed of soft sand along with his many other siblings. The sea, the wind, the sand, they were all part of their home, part of a picture they see every day. Every day, the sea would cry out its majestic song, its waves conducting the orchestra by shifting and engulfing the sand in a four-part rhythm. "Swoosh... (two three four) Swoosh... (two three four)" it patted, a rhythm repeated over and over again, for a song sung by the sea, accompanied by the wind. It was often a lovely sound that resonated, and the shells sung along with it. They made sure this song was entrapped, kept within their hollow bodies, so that they themselves may be able to sing that song forever.

A trance, that has bewitched them. A song, that has kept them singing for the past lifetime.

And they were glad to be just, on the sand, bathing in the sun and sea, resonating that one song. They were even more overjoyed when people took them home, and they would play that song in his ear over and over again. The seashells were a little remnant from the sea, a little something that, when you put your ear near its hollow opening, you hear the sea.

You hear the seashell singing a song that was originally sung by the sea.

The sea, the sea, it is majestic, it is magnificent. It is a limitless body that lets you gaze at its greatness; it composes awe-inspiring songs that fall ever so awesome, so breathtaking, on the ear. We stand in awe at its boundlessness and we say "How beautiful, how amazing, how WONDERFULLY created!"

Maybe, and maybe that is the reason, why seashells want to sound like the sea. At least, they yearn to contain a fraction of that wonder.

And maybe that is why they are not any shells, but seashells.

Now that seashell, that one right at the very beginning, was just like everyone else. He kept the song of the sea tight within his little body and he sang with them as well. But he was starting to ponder on why seashells were seashells and why they had to sound like the sea. People say that is what makes a seashell precious, because they are then able to bring a part of the sea home. He looked around him, the sand, the wind, the creatures... the sea. He realized he was part of a picture, a picture that people had admired for years.

A picture, was it only two dimensional? A seashell, was it meant to be only a shallow being?

He struggled to keep out the songs of the sea, but it was too hypnotizing, it was too strong for him to resist. For this was what seashells have been doing since the start of the world, and they never stopped. He did not want to sing like the sea, he wanted to compose his own songs. He battled with his soul, yet seashells did not have souls. He wanted to be his own shell, not a symbol of anything, but a shell unique to its own. He struggled hard, and then he sat back in the sand, singing the song of the sea once more.

Seashells, they are hollow inside. They are non-living creatures that are meant to be homes for other living creatures. They are discarded, and then used again. They fall into the sand, and are picked up again by people. There are many to be discovered, pretty in their coloured coats, exquisite in their slender twist of the body. They are kept as a collection, accepted by creatures around them, praised for their beauty.

But they still remain a seashell, an empty, hollow shell that sings the song of the sea, over and over and over again.

2008-04-04T00:30:00.002+08:00

i'll be keeping my head above the waters, no matter how stormy the sea is.

If it knocks me off over and over again, i'll keep standing up.

everything is a whirl around me, the menacing sea, the blinding rain, the foggy clouds.
and i try to remain a clear mind.

i'll keep trying, and i'll steer my boat, i'll make sure it touches shore safely.

it's weighing on my mind, it's a involuntary, nagging pain. i'm
struggling to keep above the waters, i'm
gasping for dear oxygen.

keep holding on
because
with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm.

shiyun.

2008-03-31T23:05:00.002+08:00

hohoho, it's MONDAY.

thankyou ms birchwood for not coming to sch today. we had a lovely 3 and a half hours of break. =))

ok so the only thing that was bad today was chinese compo. what, i don't like compos that talk about current affairs... like it's not a COMPOSITION. you don't compose anything. you copy off silly factual stuff.

OKAY.

IFD makes me wanna pull my hair out. -.-

and too many SIAs are NOT GOOD. like how trying to push us in every aspect may in turn spoil the overall effect.

OKAY.
i hereby end my post.

anego! AKANISHIJIN!
shiyun.

2008-03-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

決めた。

so since it's like that, i just hope that it's the right choice and GO FOR IT! =)

busybusybusy. HMM, let me take out my long list of paper to see. LA SIA, chem SIA, bio SIA, ChiSIA, Chi book review, IFD, CSM, SAC, CCA. the bulk of acronyms, to shorten a word which is actually very long, to make it look simple when it's actually complicated. how the world strives for perfection in every aspect.

note to self: pls go PRAC yr piano OFTEN now unless you wanna die on stage or put the whole choir to shame. THANKYOU.

somehow, somewhen, i actually AM playing for the church choir. after, like, since sec1 ppl have been coming to ask me to play but i shrugged it off... maybe it's God's plan. and no matter how much i try to steer away he brings me back to where he wants me to be.

like how in the bus i was still contemplating over CAP or JAP, thinking through all the pros and cons and whatever things that have been repeated to me for the past month, my hp suddenly rang and then the moelc person called me and asked me abt JAP. so i was kind of forced to make a decision, to accept or reject. and the conv went in a way, i found myself accepting it. maybe this is God's plan as well, to help me make the decision, since i was super indecisive. God works amazingly.

AND another example, like when i was so frustrated trying to find a substitute for prize giving duty cos i couldn't make it and NO ONE was free. i almost had to give up third lang to do duty and everything... then on the day itself there was an updated list and someone, i dunno how, miraculously took over my duty so i didn't have to do it! it's like i didn't even have to find anyone! i was thanking God like crazy that day.

i'm in such awe of God's works. He's just SO big and limitless and vast, yet he is so personal that her cares for everyone of us.

Quoting today's sermon on revelations, God is like a lion, majestic and strong, and also like a lamb that has been slain, meek and gentle. When Jesus came, he came as a sacrificial lamb to save our sins, hence he was humble, he was gentle. but when he comes again one day, he will be like a lion, strong and majestic and will judge each and every one of us.

it's hard to put it in words.

but anw, i'm super stressed abt ALOT of things now.

i don't know about tomorrow
i just live from day to day

many things about tomorrow
i don't seem to understand
but i know who holds tomorrow
and i know who holds my hand

shiyun.

2008-03-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

i'm not updating frequently... -.-

BLOCKTEST
it's over. and there's no post-test happiness whatsoever. firstly, i screwed the last test of the day, IH. secondly, class started IMMEDIATELY after the test. thirdly, hw started piling in. fourthly, it was "ok block test over, now let's move on to other work" OKAY. i think my tests this term are not going to be very gd. ohh but it's gone kind of numb hasn't it? ever since i stepped into this place.

MY DISGUSTING DILEMMA
is this what, too much of a blessing? anyway, it's like having to fire someone. like "i love both of you but i have to let one of you go" kind of thing. so drama. so my disgusting dramatic dilemma WILL have to come to an end eventually and i AM 本当に考えて-ing so pray, decide and don't regret. shiyun will not live to regret the choice that she is gna make.

AOB
it's ironic that i'm fated to sit with the most ENTHU and CHATTY ppl in class. =) listen cheryl they are compliments! take sec 1 with steph, and then with jessica and now cheryl! haha... but ok at least i won't be stoning off in classes! ^^ amazing how tchers just randomly decide yr seating arrangements. no, actually i dun think it's random. it's deliberate randomness. am i making sense?

things weighing on my mind now: THAT dilemma, IFD, LA SIA

i just abandoned my coord geom ws.
shiyun.

2008-03-23T18:19:00.002+08:00

EASTER: no bunnies, no eggs. we dwell on the central aspect of Easter, the Lord's resurrection. Jesus is fully God and fully Man. that is why he can die, that is why he can feel our pain. but that is also why, he can resurrect and he can save us from our sins. his death is not eternal, but the significance of it is eternal. we are eternally saved. and i can safely say, no other "GOD" will ever, ever die for us. except for Jesus, our saviour, our God.

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

Thank you Lord, for all you've done.

2008-03-23T18:06:00.003+08:00

APRIL is a totally disgusting month.

i'm not thinking about it, but how to? -.- seriously, i could take more block tests than PWs.

i'm kind of screwed for many many things. >.<

nevermind. at least, what are the gd things for now? ok, at least the worst few subj tests are over. which leaves LA, A-lit and IH. which are scary but you can't really study.

shiyun hasn't got her hands on koizora!!! and, according to the jap book which i sneaked a peak at kino, the first sentence of it was, "I'm LATE!" she smoked a cigarette and ran out of the house or smth. in jap. so the female lead smokes. haha.

i absolutely WANT to catch the movie.
and if kurosagi comes out in s'pore, i will NOT even hesitate. i dun care whether i'm in the middle of block tests or not, i'll just, probably study like crazy then go see it. it's only 2h right... ok that's a claim worth doubting. but i MUST see it.

quotes quotes quotes for a-lit!!!

~~but earthlier happy is the rose distlilled, than that which, withering on the virgin thorn, grows, lives and dies in single blessedness.~~

your eyes are lodestars, and your tongue's sweet air, more tuneful than a lark to shephard's ear.

love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

i can't memorize... blah. how to study lit??? i think i'll just end up slacking off the day away again.

HAPPY EASTER!
shiyun.

2008-03-15T18:23:00.003+08:00

pop the champagne cos a week has been successfully idled away. ok, so i tried to get things done today. like revising my bio, well desperately, i dun think its all in my head, revising my chem, which is kind of the most successful things i've done today, doing my maths terrible, horribly confusing questions, and jap. ok, i think my maths is very screwed now. don't say it's not, cos it IS. i see it. i think i'll have no time for test. -.- my mind is working slower every year. and i hate memorising explanations, like WHY need an explanation for congruency or similarity, or whether this angle is equal to that... ):

ok so cross my fingers for block test. i haven't even touched LA, lit, chinese or IH. my table's in a big mess. happens every holiday.

yes, i fell prey to procrastination again. come, take me. it always does anyway.

so in short,
CCA attendance SUCKED big time this wk.
did more council stuff this wk.
made eye contact with the comp the whole day this wk.

and still in the big dilemma. i don't know what to say but, my parents want CAP cos of alot of reasons. they stated it all out. my mum did, my dad sent an email from boston. and they said cos there's no next yr for CAP and like, you can go to japan anytime, and maybe you can try out next year or smth. (wait, i want my UK trip next year.) blah... and yes to some extent i do agree. but then, missing out on jap is like...!!! and if i go next year i may miss out on like UK trip or smth, and JC? i'm not sure if i'm even taking jap to JC.

so, haha, this ends my crappy but useless shoutings.
cos in the end, i haven't come to a conclusion.

OK...

school's reopening.
shiyun.

2008-03-09T23:05:00.005+08:00

OBS blues are still here. come to think of it i really really miss OBS! somehow, it's less complicated than normal life now. even though there were some bitching here and there, i think i can take it better than now. -.- MAYBE i'll be crazy enough to go again. that's a BIG maybe.

anyway, i'm now bogged down by block test, PWs, CCA, council... PLUS a huge dilemma. now how's that for a nice holiday? basically, jap or cap?

選ばなくちゃ！でも、選べないの！！！本当に困った！

so after that crappings in jap, i still 決められない。i need more time. i'm getting like different advices everywhere and currently, i'm quite confused. it's not gd to get too many good things at times you know. but it's not like it's a bad thing, i mean the ability to CHOOSE one and REJECT the other is actually gd. it's just a matter of which one do you prefer? or which one is better? and that's the problem for me now.

OKAY. so you see, compare OBS to my life now, i think i rather be physically dead than be mentally dead. physically challenging makes you healthy! mentally challenging means more stress which leads to health problems. =)

blues.blues.blues. i need time to get over this. blues make me unstable. i feel like a grp 1 element now. or a flaccid plant cell. or a super lost helena, or suffering from an identity crisis. sry, that was chem bio lit and IH put together to form a crappy sentence.

i want to sleep. bah i need sleep. what block test after hols. what hols.
shiyun.

2008-03-08T14:05:00.003+08:00

BACK FROM OBS!!! and yes, i survived it! =))

i dun like the feeling when you just came back from camp and settling down back to reality. it's a loss and a mixture of feelings. and i'm missing OBS, maybe not the bad parts of it. but oh well, its a time when you get caught in the middle.

anyway, OBS! watch 13, COLUMBUS. came to OBS feeling like excited, scared... Din was nice, he put up with alot of our crap, seriously. 1st day, learnt how to pitch tents, belaying and cooking outdoors. basically, first day was nice, not so dirty and mild. camp 2 is NICE, although it's not the resort kind of site, but it has the campy feeling. we did the trust fall thing, which was quick and gd. =) and yeah our camp site that night was quite nice, except that it rained so the ground was muddy. our rice was uncooked for dinner. haha. but overall outdoor cooking is not bad. =)

2nd day morning was really bad.cos firstly they asked us to wake up very early in the morning, we had to unpitch tents, which was muddy and dirty and wet, and then pack our stuff into OBS backpacks, which amounted to like 12 backpacks a watch. and wash up and change... I HATE PACKING. and so, yeah, ppl got pissed, stressed and frustrated. but anw, we had some retarded morning exercise and went to learn kayaking! =)) kayaks are HEAVY. seriously heavy. but after that we learnt to paddle and capsize, which you get to taste seawater. and then rescuing capsized kayaks. which was really funny when we did it in the open sea cos we kept drifting and sandy and dawn couldn't get their kayaks up onto ours. and the jellyfish scaring and all. it was like screaming frantically. haha. and we all got freaked out by a durian in the sea. anw, after the rescue thing we kayaked to camp 1. which was funfunfun but the current was quite strong so poor arms!

anw camp 1 is seriously like a resort. its so NICE and civilised!! but i'm sorry i like camp 2 better, it has a campy feeling! it has the OBS feeling. in camp 1, we did height element, which looked VERY VERY scary i wanted to cry alr. but is it a miracle or what, i still managed to climb up until quite high, higher than my personal goal. so yeah i guess its called realising yr potential huh. camp 1 had like a canteen so called and we had REAL food! =) but of course we still had to wash our cutlery and stuff. and we pitched tents in a nice area, where its not very dirty. so camp 1 was quite a luxurious stay so called.

3rd day, after morning exercise, we played some games. columbus, cook, cousteau and dagama made camp 2B! and we won the skipping thing which was quite weird cos the prac went pretty bad. and then, we learnt how to read maps for trekking, which i really didn't get. no connection with maps, ty. later we trekked for like half an hour, did the obstacle thing and it started to POUR. rain dampens the spirit really badly, and we had to take shelter in this place in the middle of nowhere. stayed there for like hours. and we played games in there. the BO-LIAO tribe and the crazy superheros. and i gta say jingzhi was dressed up really WELL. so she had like powder and ropes and weird hair! chongmin was some weird dude. haha. but we figured she looked more like L. =)

and after the rain stopped, we had no time to navigate the way ourselves and had to depend on the instructors to lead us. kind of sad but then less time trekking haha. so trekking with heavy backpacks is not really FUN and for the first hour everyone was quite dead, because of the rain. but then i'm really glad ppl started high-ing, singing and made the whole trip very light-hearted! so the trekking memories are relatively good. everyone was so high when we finally made it to camp3 and helped each other massage. atmosphere was good UNTIL we started pitching tents and realised that it was a natural campsite which meant that it was just trees and grass and the nearest toilet was far away and there were stray dogs around. and because we came late we had to pitch tents and cook in the dark. it was so frustrating cos at one point it was so disorganised and everyone was irritated. camp3 was the worst night of all cos we squeezed our backpacks into the tent, which was badly pitched, and we had to do DUTY. for security reasons! and we had to wake up at 4 in the morning. the bad thing is, our tent's duty was at 3.05 to 3.25. so after that we couldn't sleep and started packing. which means i only got less than 4h of sleep. =( that night was bad. alot of pissed ppl, alot of swearing.

but ok, nevertheless, 4th day was sea expedition day! and we had to kayak around pulau ubin back to camp2! morning was the usual stressing out and frustration, esp when we lost like 1 backpack and our group was the last to get everything on to the boat. could see that the instructor was pissed as well. but still, when we started kayaking everything got better. the weather was not bad, with a little drizzle. amazingly, there was no sun at all, for like the 4 days i didn't see the sun at all. it was quite tiring, kayaking for 6h. but it was fun=) i realised my arm muscles aren't that bad after all! and big ships at the channel kept sending big waves towards us and kept pushing us to the jetty or fence. but i got to say that we did well in kayaking! the WHOLE of camp2B! and then the funny thing was we could do our business in the sea during the expedition but alot of us didn't want to so we kept it in for the whole journey. and seeing ppl jump into the water to pee is so funny! ^^

so returned to our beautiful camp2, wet and dirty and stinky. went to pitch tent and shower. then we settled down for DINNER! and we had fresh vegetables for dinner! of course, we had to cook by ourselves, this time for our buddy watch cook! so we had a really great feast! rice, vegetables, curry, omelette... ate my fill for that one. the most satisfying dinner of all. =)

last day, mostly packing up the store, washing ponchos, tents and groundsheets. the sun finally came up on that day, but it was kind of no use right, since there were no more activities. did souvenir shopping and slept in the boat. it's like, when the boat touched the jetty and you see all the NY teachers looking at you, you get this sense of mixed feeling. like I'M HOME FINALLY! and oh crap, i'm back again.

post camp blues suck. and after 5 days you get an attachment to camp.i mean even if it's really bad at times during the camp pitching and the bitching, the packing... OBS had really fun memories for me. and you want to go back to all the luxuries but not reality. sickening mixed feelings. somehow i want to go back to OBS, without the frustration. and yes seniors do say its fun, i got to say that overall, the memories there are fun. but OBS won't be OBS without the frustration too. home is different now. seriously, i don't know which is better. and reality is BAD. it's a time when i just want to sit in the comfort of my home, thinking about OBS and not doing anything else. oh well, i suppose it will just get better after a while.

things i brought back from OBS:
1) tent pitching. which is bad when no one cooperates and the ground is dirty.
2) i learnt how to open tin cans with a super small manual can opener.
3) I CAN CONQUER HEIGHT ELEMENT!
4) trekking is fun when everybody makes it fun.
5) i LOVE kayaking!!! i'll do it again and again and again.
6) OBS brings out the true personalities in everyone. all of us can see it.
7) the process may be quite bad, but after it all you realise it's actually very memorable.

and OBS instructors are really nice. Din put up with alot of our crappiness. and even though it was so obvious he was pissed at times, he didn't vent it out or anything. he was really nice. and LoYee's "red-shirt shuai guy", vivien and chu ai. they make OBS even more fun.

but i still can't stand the fact that cousteau's instructor made APPLE CRUMBLE for them!!!!!!!!! that's too nice to take in.

anw, it's so surreal that OBS is over. and it's time to study for block test, and do projects and hw, and council stuff. this is life. too bad.

oh and when i just stepped onto punggol jetty and was walking stonely towards the bus, ms teo pulled me and like "SHIYUN i think you got into CAP!". ...(1 second)...(2 sec)... "huh. oh! erm, i may have jap immersion" choices are flung right into my face the moment i reach civilisation huh. i got to think abt this more. it's like my june hols are really squashed? but wth i alr have the march hols to handle.

there was no sun in OBS (except the last day) and i still got tanner!
maybe 305 and 312 will become closer. who knows?
and stupid chinatown project. other classes are not even doing it! why only OUR CLASS?

the blues kick in.
OBS!
shiyun.

2008-02-29T19:16:00.003+08:00

BUSYBUSYBUSY.

the coming two weeks are gna be hell.

block tests on the FIRST week of term 2 is really not a very good idea. cos if they think that there is the march hols to study, then there's also CCA and holiday hw and projects. =( so it's IRRITATING and my hols are packed. to the brim. SIGH. they're out to break us.

OBS! omgomgomg. for someone who looks fit but is terribly NOT, OBS is scary. hehh. and i haven't bought all my stuff yet, and packed them. and i'm never in a good condition to go and die in pulau ubin. HOW? it's gna be rough and dirty and tiring. oh crap i almost don't want to go there. but i'm hoping that after two days of OBS i may start to like it. we'll see. hopefully there'll be some fats lost. HAHA.

i just hope i don't end up dying in the woods of pulau ubin.

i must jian chi and enjoy!!! and hopefully have a nice bonded watch. ok, although they're not my besties BUT haha, friends can be made anytime anywhere!

i'm scared and stressed now... currently more stressed cos i haven't packed anything and haven't bought anything!!! and there's a possibility that _________________ -.- HATE THAT!

anw, the OBS camp tee is so BAD. we look like football players. although i appreciate the fact its dry fit BUT the colour is really bad. oh mann, but ok its OBS no one will really care right.

but OBS aside, I GOT INTO JAP IMMERSION PROG!!!!!=)))) yeah! which is really good news, except that CAP has to be sacrificed. -.- oh well... anw it'll be fun! and i realised this year is going to be very very eventful.

i'm going to start OBS with a real kick. promise!~
shiyun.

2008-02-25T22:35:00.003+08:00

shiyun does not look and feel shiyun anymore. well, except that i'm pretty sure she's still shiyun at heart! =)

council u! haha, today was hilarious. everyone started looking at each other and bursting out into laughter. but actually i think everyone looks about the same. there's no really big difference abt hongzi and council blouse. haha. rightt, wearing it now makes us even more outstanding. so with the added "pressure" we must strive even harder to work hard for council! =))

lessons were mainly... neutral. its not stressful but its not fun either. bah. that's school for you.

i don't usually harp on tuition but TLL today was on LIT and we did war poetry! it was nice and compelling. deciphering poetry is hard and makes you think alot but i tell you its totally worth the effort cos when you see the hidden meaning behind it, its like sudden realisation and admiration for whoever wrote that. simply beautiful. and one reason why i don't regret taking lit. it's a beautiful beautiful subj. it transcends all factual stuff we learn in school.

ok... school work's not an issue, SIAs are. PWs are IRRITATING!

oh goshhh bio proposal!!!

and math written task is blank.

i want SLEEP. time does not permit me to fall prey to my tempting bedsheets and be carried off to somewhere elsewhere.
shiyun.

2008-02-24T21:01:00.004+08:00

this week has been hectic, as if last week was too slack and this week is like double the load. but it has been interesting! lots of events happening!

INVEST: congratulations council batchmates on getting installed! YEAH we did it! and after all that nervousness and rehearsals we did it! of course it's always hard sitting ever so poised on your seat for very very long but it was one memorable moment. wow. so for the rest of the council term, it's going to get exciting! until now i can't imagine myself in a council blouse. =0 guess i'll see it for myself tmr. and i want to see EVERYBODY in council u!!! HAHA.

after invest there was school tour, which went pretty well cos the two girls were really nice! =D and phototaking, which can't be too sane since its css! yup and then me and xy rushed all the way to moelc in our blazers. haha. interview was ok, since the questions they asked was almost the same as last year's. hope i do well!!! cos i have given up my DEAR UK literary trip for this!!!

THE ARENA: today went for the arena recording. NY against Fairfield Methodist! i realise recordings are really not what you think and expect. they keep cutting and re-doing stuff. so haha tv's all about editing and rehearsing. it doesn't go in one smooth flow. but oh well it was good experience! and watching debate is quite fun and nerve-wrecking! -results are kept confidential- haha! go see it for yourself.

bah i'm so lagging in my hw now cos i've been shoving it aside for quite some time now... so since it's after invest i better catch up. i'm gna fail my congruency/similarity quiz. =( like shapes and shiyun dun really link u know. and circle properties are a big chore!!! and bio, we're so slow we're being forced to do a ws that we know nothing about! which really explains why google is one of the most successful internet company huh. sigh.

ok i guess it's time to finish up my hw.-.-
council U! xx)
shiyun.

2008-02-19T22:30:00.005+08:00

survived the worst day of the week! tuesdays... what a horrible day.

LA-speeches! i didn't present today, and i'm still waiting for ms birchwood's random picking. but cherie gave this really inspirational speech today and abt this guy with no arms and legs. and the video was playing in christ alone. got really inspired. and sad as well. i pei fu cherie for doing that. yayay it was gd.

Maths: as usual, i dun get circle properties! i stare at the question, think again, start to TRY to figure out the angles, and then see where i can apply the properties, and then POOF i get confused and try again. >.<

CL lecture: -.- quoting the tcher: "while the BSP ppl are having a WAR (learning abt the opium war), here you are learning about all the beautiful poems and stories." lol!

chem: quiz sucked. still have prac ws and ws 9 to do. howhowhow i think my chem is dying.

IH: somehow it's diff to concentrate in IH. CONCENTRATE!

CCA: usual stuff, i'm guilty for missing warm-up k, but someone said it was 3.30! but anw

I FOUND MY THEATRE JACKET!!! XD

so you see, it was ok due to my carelessness, but after so long trying to find it in the GO, SAC, it turned out that someone had been keeping it all along and NOT telling me!!! -.-

i think school's getting bad again. and my SIA! it's stale and not moving...
invest! must jiayou!

shiyun, pls at least go learn your stuff. esp chem and maths.
stop the videos nonsense.

it's all in a big mess now. and i'm trying to sort everything out. it's like you want a super clean life but stuff has to be there so that it makes up what your life is right?

shiyun.

2008-02-16T14:48:00.004+08:00

saturday!

school ended early yesterday! and we only had maths and chinese. so it was so slack.

i dun get circle properties. -.- dun like geometry.

anw, yesterday we had club lunch at thai noodle house. i miss thai! it's been a long long time. nth much.

i love cj7! it was really nice. ok so i watched like 3 movies this year alr. and i think cj7's the best. firstly, cj7 is really really cute! it's like this dog-ish looking thing with really cute eyes. and the small boy is very funny. he has so apt expressions! yup and stephen chow's gd as well. overall plot was not bad and it was so funny in the beginning but really heartwarming at the end. it's the only movie out of the three that i teared. i didn't even cry for kung fu dunk k...

and actually, even though jay chou's the lead in kungfu dunk, he's not the hottest one out there. yeah so the movie was saved by gd looking chars, but not him though. the plot was pretty predictable, but there was still some funny scenes and heartwarming parts.

and i'm so sad for our local production. too much humour with no substance does not make up a good movie. but still, mark lee was hilarious. i think he stood out more than fann wong.

i want to watch l change the world! haha. matsuyama kenichi! even if i dun get the chance to watch it in cinema, i'm gna cr it or smth. and in the cinema there was this ad about dance of the dragons which sounded quite nice and interesting. and then on tv there's this movie called the leap years? i think i have too many movies i wanna watch. !!!

invest is next wk! and i haven't attended a single rehearsals. thanks to third lang and cca... sigh. hope i can get everything by next wk! must jiayou! whole school's watching. that's quite a scary thought.

and i just realised my jap interview is on invest day! which obviously i cannot go... so i'm trying to change the day! hope i can!!! sacrificing jap for invest is necessary but seriously heart-breaking!

ok. it's a pretty slack week. yay.

shiyun.

2008-02-14T22:55:00.005+08:00

it's a day of love! and love was definitely felt early in the morning when presents and candies started to fill my desk! =) thankyou all who gave me stuff and everything! thankyou estee for the pink wand thingy which sent the whole class crazy about it. imagine the whole class walking to the library carrying this pink wand?! think we looked very retarded. and thankyou to sylvia my secret valentine for the lovely necklace! think this year, or maybe its just 312, valentine's day seems more significant! cos for the last two years, i dun think valentine's day has been a very prominent event. but anw yall are so nice! i kind of feel guilty. but nevermind. shiyun has bought her present for her secret valentine alr! ok... although its belated. but then its not about only the day itself right? anyday can be a day to share the love! . sounds corny. but its true!

school was spent listening in class, drawing, and trying to make space for my ws amidst the pile of presents. estee gave mrs ng the pink wand as well! lol! wonder what she'll do with it. x)

after school. plan to watch 27 dresses was through cos apparently it was not showing anymore-.- so me and amanda watched kung fu dunk. i mean after the crappy ah long show, i wanted to watch something more substantial. so ok, this was better. actually cj7 was supp to be better but i couldn't be bothered watching stuff about aliens. anw, while waiting for the movie, we shopped ard for my presents! and we went in artbox 4 times. and amanda was empathising with her dying rose... lol. and half the popcorn was gone before we even went in the cinema. but anw, thanks for spending my valentine with me! i really needed to go out.

ok so the journey back home wasn't the best thing. i got to the bus stop, looked at the directory thing, realised that there were more than 1 162 buses but they all reach my stop. so when this 162m bus came i just hopped on it, stupidly, not knowing that it was the long way!!! and so the bus went another way, and i got really worried. cos i couldn't make out the roads and all. and it was dark! but anw, i soon saw the familiar roads and realised i was on the right bus after all, just a longer one. ok, so i felt stupid. dun like taking the bus at night. it's depressing and easy to get lost.

takeaways for today:
1. valentine's day is more significant than i actually thought it was.
2. i should buy presents in advance! not like now, late and guilty. hehh.
3. i really have no direction sense. it's a long proven fact now.

ok. happy valentine's day everyone! i shall enjoy the last 50 mins of the day.
shiyun.

2008-02-11T22:27:00.001+08:00

life starts all over again.

it's not a matter of stress now, it's a matter of monotony. and like what i've just learnt from TLL, we are all in this crazy rat race, competing, fighting for money and power. what for? to "stop and smell the roses", because you see them and you will admire them, it's a feeling that money can't buy.

i can't rmb all the competitions i've taken in these two years. too many. too complicated. they all sound the same. bad bad bad for portfolio next time. considering the fact that i haven't done any.

i am so deaddddd. i've been pigging. stupid cny goodies. why r u so tempting? they're everywhere in my kitchen!!!

need to exercise. think my tennis skills are really bad. after what, 2 years++? hah. laughing matter.

okay. my dad's gna leave town for one whole freaking month. to boston!!! no car. no chauffeur. and means that my mum has to give me pocket money from there.

twilight. should go read this book. i need to read. haven't touched a book since quite long alr. a-lit student, must read more. i'm pretty clueless abt quite alot of stuff.

i hope crunchyroll and veoh and youtube break down so that i won't be tempted to go there anymore. ok, thats mean, maybe for my computer only. =)

invest in 11 days. new uniform! =) or =(?
shiyun.

2008-02-10T18:20:00.002+08:00

203rd post!!! =)) i miss 203. to bits.

cny eve: apparently, most of our class have gone to prepare for performance (cos we're more than 90% perf. arts!) so hui chun was quite pathetic. but we had quite a nice cozy place to write and my words came out better than last two years. and cleaner too. no stains! everyone wanted to do it anyhow. haha. jessica, jingzhi and estee came in cheongsams! and the bigger news of the day: mrs ng came in cheongsam too! super hilarious. and they got a photo taken by the av ppl with their chinese umbrellas and all. haha. we're like the only crazy class that wears cheongsams to school. ms chee wore a blazing red cheongsam too! anw, after hui chun, i went for a mini-walk with my best 203-ers. ok they came to find me. and yes, i gotta say that put me in high mode for a while. i misssss 203! it makes me high! so we were like walking and talking in the quadrangle and then zzc came and shoved this big pile of rubbish on me. then it was like "stare.. stare..." in this super weird way. so i gave in, took the rubbish. then liu lao shi saw and was like "come and help clear the rubbish!" in chinese. WAH i was so... speechless.

then went back to class, rushed out cards for mr zuffri and mr ng (av), the outside was quite nice but the inside looked quite cheap -.- sorry for that it was so last minute. and then went for performance. performance was normal but a bit lagging. wasn't that nice. and then chong min gave really ugly ugly oranges to mr sit! x) i was quite... amused. but anw i went to find mr zuffri and mr ng and gave them the cards.

biggest takeaway from that day: mr shone's son is sooooooooooooooooo cute! (squeals!)

ok then the routine ats visit. we had the highest number of ppl who came so far. i wanted to watch movie but somehow we ended up in tp. and we ended up eating in a foodcourt -.- but ok mdm ho gave us a nice treat to swensen's ice-cream! that was nice. and uh... nth much. went to lejing's house, watched abit of videos, then went back home.

i shan't talk about reunion dinner. after all, its the same every year. -.-

yup. visiting (only to two places) -.- eating and watching tv is a very very bad sign. this year everyone was late. and i never get alot of red packets cos we don't really have many ppl to visit. so... oh well i'll just be contented to like $100++ or so.

cny's over. its fast. in a flash. like it never happened.

so it's back to school. i predict march and april will be very very busy. =0 but i'm quite glad i got to catch up on sleep. =)

i'll start school on a good note! but it really depends how it's gna go later.

clarifications: shiyun has never really thought of being really successful in life. firstly, i'm still quite clueless about what i'm gna do. secondly, i think stuff like doctors and lawyers and business ppl make a very boring job. and, it's a very impt and, my life does not not not revolve around studying. stop thinking i'm some study freak who mugs and mugs and mugs like crazy. please.. i watched like 8h of videos yesterday. and i slack alot. i'm getting sick of general conclusions and stereotyping. -.- that's all.

ok. longpost. happy schooling to me.
let's just hope i don't get addicted to some shows again.
shiyun.

2008-02-05T22:43:00.001+08:00

usher in the hols please!

i think this CNY is special not because its cny, but because we finally get to breathe after tedious weeks. so i must must must enjoy, relax and live it to the max.

of course, not like cny is really free, the school has perceived that this break is a somewhat long one and has believed that it is long enough to complete more hw.

i think i'm going to screw hui chun tmr as usual. no gd with the brush. and hopefully not get any more stains on my skirt.

ats tmr! yay!!! i'm looking forward to a nice get-together. dx gna relive the 6a memories again.

soon, there'll be a 203 one. i wish.

312 got 1st in hamper making and 2nd for cny decor! yeah! we absolutely rock. of course, quoting jessica, this is the only thing we can be gd at. we'll all die for csm or any other sporting stuff. haha. nvrtheless i'm still proud of the all-arty-farty 312! =)

all right. have a blessed cny!
let us all have a gd holiday.
shiyun.

2008-02-04T17:53:00.001+08:00

school isn't fun. i've tried to like it, but it just disappoints me over and over again. BAH.

today. started off with chem. i dun get the sub shell things. and why there are 18 in the 3rd shell. and why electrons have to move in opp directions. more so, what do clothes and satellites have to do with atomic structure. whatever. maybe it was because chem was the first lesson in the morning. so my brains weren't pumped up yet.

then lit. we had a surprise assgn, UNFORTUNATELY. and there i was all ready to do abit of slacking and ms birchwood comes in and says we have an in class assgn. how very very nice. right after chem even. but anw it was ok, except that who would have gotten the Russian political thingy? like bathhouse... Russia?? wait, i didn't even know the author was Russian.

and then maths. usual. nth much to say. somehow i dun sleep in maths, cos it works yr brains. but ok, maths is like the same old stuff everyday.

wasted time during lunch...assembly...

third lang. normal. the guy tcher went up suddenly again to teach us. its weird... but nvm. i actually dun mind the occasional change. =)

after third lang. relived my craze for bio and ochee. hah. she's so funny! bio's all worthwhile now. so sad that there's NO bio these two days, and chem is on BOTH days. wth...

ok... i think i'm getting terribly unsatisfied with my life. it's boring. it's just so monotonous. hey, 203 wasn't like that...

i've gotten more emo again. =((
6A. catch a movie during CNY?

shiyun.

2008-02-02T17:38:00.000+08:00

the 200th post for the 02/02/2008! so i shall specially make this post happy and light-hearted. no more complaining. cos i realised if i had to complain, i would be complaining almost everyday, in every post.

OK... but basically today was a normal normal saturday. and i'm quiet satisfied cos i crazily rushed through my hw this morning. so i'm left with the speech, the non-compulsory chem ws and the big ifd proposal. ok.

pianopianopiano. ohwell it's hard to believe i've finished grade 8 cos i absolutely think i'm not worthy of that grade 8 cert. or maybe its because i have no time to prac so my pieces always come out horribly. but i believe that i can play well if i actually put in the effort. it's just that theres no time to put in the effort. so, the nocturne and sonata i'm playing now are actually quite nice, which is gd. cos in previous years where i had to play pieces which i didn't like, i totally lost interest. so ok, a 20-page sonata is quite daunting but its quite nice to play.=) and the nocturne has nice parts. let's take piano nice and slow. cos i dun think i'll be doing it for real in the future.

haha. that's me. jack of all trades but not a master of one. like piano and tennis and all my other subjects. i'm still trying to find one. jap has a potential though. =)

yeah CNY approaches and the house is getting filled with food! CNY goodies are better than christmas ones i feel. i'm looking forward to the long hols. i think we all need a break.

and its only, what, february?

ok. here comes the season to get fat.
shiyun.

2008-02-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

199th post! one more to go to 200!

in term1week5 of my sec3 life,

the most common phrase i have said is " wo yao beng kui le la!!!"

the most common gadget i have seen is my computer

the most common website i have gone to is google.com for research

the most common scene was of me sleeping in front of my comp.

the most common time i have slept was after 1.

the most common thing i could think about was school.

the most common thing i wished about was sleep.

there goes the sad life all you sec3s out there live huh. sigh.

LA unseen prose, LA speech
Maths ws 9.1
Chinese zuowen
Bio ws 2.1
Chem ws 5 and 6
IFD proposal

i think these take more than a weekend to get done.
what were they thinking?

shiyun.

2008-01-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

seriously, whats the use of stressing us with hw just b/c we're IP or we're "supposedly the elites". we're just doing what ever society expects of us and we'll grow up to meet that expectation, hopefully exceed it. and i don't get why the week before any long holiday we get tons of hw. =( there's no difference isn't it. like we have time in the midst of the rushing and the visiting.

urgh IH assgn is worst ever. period.

i screwd bio SPA. =(

today OBS checkup was so not worth the $15. seriously. height and weight and a series of questions which you yourself can answer... you don't need a doctor for that. and that guy took my weight without even allowing the machine to stabalise!!! which means i am lighter than what is stated ok. Dx

omg i think i'm so deprived of sleep.
and i hate it when they think watching tv means "addiction". like i totally need a breather ok. stop thinking that staring at the comp for the whole night means hardworking.

i hate. the last two periods. of tmr's timetable. =( especially the 1300 one.
there's cca tmr... i forgot to document stuff. CRAP!

guess i'm going to be busying for a while.
要崩溃了啦！

somehow i dun like expectations.
shiyun.

2008-01-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

my whole brain is revolving around the words, bio, coffee, plants, kidney stones, blah... and omg i'm sneezing like crazy. i sound really nasal now. x(

but anw, todays timetable was not too bad. bio was crazily stressfully fun. haha. ms chee buzzed through the whole mind map thing i was like super stressed out copying everything. so funny, cos i'm like "!!!!! ms chee SLOW DOWN!!!" then jessica was like "oh shit i'm still at the chloroplats..." then carissa was stoning. but she still had a very neat mindmap. haha. these kind of things are what makes school a little bit more interesting. well, you just have to make life as fun as possible right.

ok so life wasn't so fun after school. i was doing 2 projects at one time. and they're all bio. and they require research. -.- ohwell, lessons are fun but projects are not. bio's quite tedious in a way.

right. and btw my ankle's perfectly fine since last wkend, there's so no need to see a doctor. and no need for an MC, oh well... i was thinking shouldn't have told the truth and just pretend to run with a hurting ankle. but you see, it was just on that day itself when i hurt it and it was like an immediate, temporal pain. so obviously i couldn't run then but when i got home it was better. so... ok i dun wanna explain anymore.

tmr. CL, chemlab, PE, maths, LA, CME. boring, boring, ok, ok, boring, boring. if i compared it to yesterday it was ALL BORING. so i should be grateful for tmr's NOT SO BORING timetable. sec3 is boring. i dun mind stress but i can't stand boredom. i dun mind stress amidst an interesting school life. my mind does really crazy stuff when i'm bored. like will wander off to think about cheesecake, think about stupid songs that keep playing in my head.

ok... i hope i'm still high tmr. i was so low yesterday i sat on my sofa after CCA and zonked out. had no brain yesterday, hope there's a brain tmr.
shiyun.

2008-01-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

i think i'm currently in the "lets just go with the flow and stop thinking too much" phase now... blah. which means i'm not positively or negatively charged. just neutral. so i'm not thinking alot right now...

Okay. during jap this male tcher suddenly like took over our lesson in the middle part. and it was so weird cos my tcher's the sweet and soft kind and then when he took over it was like this booming loud voice and super energetic tone. lol. haven't seen such energetic and loud tchers for quite long.... ever since like mr kaw's time? xD

ok. i dun like school tmr. there's SPA, IH assgn and chi lecture. how interesting.

omg CCA bitching currently. ^^ lighthearted stuff are good for me now. =)

right. i wanna sleep. dun like tests and assgns. make me think about it for the whole night. =(

i have very conlflicting emotions. haha.
shiyun.

2008-01-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

i hate dilemmas. i absolutely abhor them. so now i got two things to choose between and i'm like torn... RARH. i'm so distressed right now. i think i should just send both in. right. too many good things isn't a good thing at all. nada. =( it's SAD. i want to go for both. but then... !!! i can't stand it.

okokok. more proposals coming up. means more online conversations. and more late nights. so, it was a gd thing i dropped out of mpp. oh goshh... but luckily this is in the beginning of the year. get it over early.

i'm scared that jap immersion prog will cause me to miss alot of ccas and june hols ccas are very very impt. i dunno i dunno i dunno... but cap is the last year i can ever ever join! but this year is the best time to go for jap cos sec4 will be too busy! i want to scream. right now.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i sound like woodstock. hehh.
there's a thousand and one things going on next wk.
where's the oxygen?
shiyun.

2008-01-26T21:00:00.001+08:00

here comes the wkend! nth special. i realised i spent the first 26 days of 2008 doing nth substantial. school's like slack but stressed. we can don't do anything at all for the whole period, OR we can do ALOT of things that period + more things to do at home. and they're pushing alot of stuff to wk 1. like next wk, there're 101 assgns to do. and there's SPA. on week1. after only 2 pracs. i need to rework my brain, its not getting into the right mood. but fortunately, its not so bad since i'm merely complaining and not ending up somewhere worse. oh well. this is what it is, isn't it.

mpp lecture was kind of... i mean. hehh. ok so the stuff about gender issues and freedom of speech wasn't so bad cos i was thinking about cca and like if that could help in anyway right. but i mean, i realised it was a super super big committment and shiyun isn't gna commit to something which she isn't interested in AND its something non-compulsory. think there're lots of things going on right now, i need to choose which one to focus on. so, sorry ppl who really want this cos i'm gna drop out, which is fortunately still early, and jiayou for the whole thing k! yall can always come and find me if yall need anything.

first time in NUS, law faculty and i realised everything was so whitewashed. the walls, the corridors... its like, very quiet and very clean. uh, didn't expect that. and the buildings around looked very colonial. haha. okay... its not like i'll be in there several years from now. IF i don't suddenly change my mind as usual. oh and we got lost getting out of NUS and finding a bus stop. tab,sandy,xy,kayyun and i were the last ones to leave cos they wanted to discuss after the thing, so we didn't follow the rest to the bus stop or wherever. SO, thinking we had very GOOD spatial sense, we walked (obviously) the wrong way and erm found out that we were lost. and cos there was no real pathway to walk on, we walked on roads. and whenever a car was coming somebody would shout "CAR!" and then the funny thing is everyone will jump on the kerb and stop walking. and bcos a car came like every few minutes. it was "CAR!", jump on kerb and stop for a few seconds. then repeat again. and while walking the correct way back this time, the sprinklers for the field went on and we were near it so we could feel like droplets of water. and then we all thought it was raining and we almost started taking out our umbrellas. and then somebody pointed to the field and said "it's the SPRINKLERS! not RAIN!" moment of realisation. it was so comical! cos everyone was like "do you have umbrella?" "oh shit i didn't bring umbrella" "RUNN!!!" so hilarious. but by the time i got to the bus stop i was so tired.

ok... that marks the end of my journey out of NUS law faculty. haha. i realise, i'm not really liking any subj now, except PE? but i'm dreading IH! national identity.haha... LA is ok, lit is ok, chi is ok, maths is ok, bio is ok but tedious, chem is ok but my class is super chaotic during that lesson, jap is ok (thanks to my interest for it), cca is ok but its like the same things everytime and we're not really advancing... like we're slacking every cca! right. i'm currently very neutral to everything. think my interests have like neutralised over the years. rmb sec1 i had extreme feelings to every subj. so, isit the topic problem, the tcher problem, the class problem or just the dread of seeing the SAME subjects everyday on your timetable?

and i'm living the same wkend again. i need exercise, AND i need more excitement. like more NUS walks! or eccentricity. i like interesting ppl in a way. i think its a 203 thing. we liked weird + interesting tchers.

ok... i need to stop typing.
shiyun.

2008-01-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

CREATIVE ARTS PROG OR HAMAMATSU IMMERSION PROG?

big question for the day today. BIG one.

CAP:
- its smth i want to go (its my interest!)
- i did like a portfolio for it, which means effort was put in
- can't back out once i submit the thing.
- its really beneficial but probably long term. maybe?
- its a rarer chance than hamamatsu i guess. you don't get writer MENTORS to mentor you for 7 whole months.
- you'll write so much better after this. this is what i want, isn't it?

HAMAMATSU immersion prog:
- c'mon its JAP! i'll do anything jap.
- i promised myself i'll do whatever it takes to get into immersion progs this year.
- its a GREAT opportunity and probably, more likable than CAP.
- i get to go to japan for 20 whole days!
- i'll speak much more fluent jap after this. isn't that what i want as well?
- you get to make tomodachi-s! jap friends!

i think i would like this better than CAP, BUT CAP is such a rare thing! and its hard to get in! harder than hamamatsu that is. so after analysing, a choice hasn't been made. i shall keep bugging jennifer for her ans. she's facing the same problem too!

dilemma. BIG dilemma.
they're both GREAT. and i WANT to go for BOTH!!!
why do they have to clashhhhh!?
at most for the 5 days of CAP i can like leave the jap friend at home but that totally defeats the point right. URGH!

the two things that i'm sure that i wanna do well in, jap and creative writing, meet head to head and ask me to choose one over the other.

ok God will show me the way. there's just one more question: so do i fill in the CAP form anot? its due monday... cos there's still chances i'll not be selected. well, ok for jap immersion too. they're about the same! HOWHOWHOW.

i need to sleep and think about this tmr.
when i'm alert and thinking straight.
shiyun.

2008-01-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

lots of hw. coming assgn. SPA. speeches. CCA.

ok, just summed up my week. for the past 4 days. chem is crazy. the tcher dumps hw like ppl throw rubbish. and 312 rebelled against quiz today. well ok... i'm not very keen on strong rebellion cos i mean its a quiz we have to get over it sooner or later so why not sooner right? oh well, still glad to know that we're enthu and didn't get into trouble.

righhht. getting hungry. there's no motivation to blog nowadays. tell me the reason why.
haha. and to whoever, i'm very proud to be a sch councillor. breaking rules is SO not the fad. =) it doesn't make you special whatsoever. =)

yeah=)
the NY montage was good! we have pro writers. i want to write like that!
shiyun.

2008-01-17T18:11:00.000+08:00

replies to tag: yes i kind of update my blog frequently but then i realised recently it has all been pretty crappy. i'm starting to sleep in class now... maybe because everyday u turn to your timetable and u see.. oh there's maths again, oh there's chinese again... didn't we have THAT yesterday? and everyday its the same old subjects... i want home econs, i want music, i even want art! and seriously, we do the same things every lesson! tcher talks, take down notes, at times do a little stuff, thats it. thats school for you.

oh well, the time has come when SIAs come streaming in, faster than the real SIA planes. 2 proposals due next wk! and yeah... i guess that's pretty much it.

lost my theatre jacket!!! and why? because i was rushing! and WHY? because we had to clear the space in 10 sec! i hope its still in the audi. ugh... sec1 must not repeat itself!

i finally CAN solve the rubix cube! but i must fiddle with it for quite some time... haha.

cherie sent everyone this grossed out video about how China Chinese strip animals off their fur. like literally. yes. when they're alive. they cut and tear it off. i'm gna stop elaborating. watched it at night and i was so freaked out!!! and come to think of it it was the day when during CCA we were listening to this story about an abused girl. SCARY. luckily no nightmares. guess i was too tired.

i'm so dazed now. i think i need to listen to smth.
oh and YAY i love 312! we're pretty cool. and noisy.
compared to 203, 312 is much much more chaotic.
the tchers can't really handle us sometimes. i think.

i want a 6A gathering. i want a 203 class chalet. i want a 312 class tee!
shiyun.

2008-01-16T00:14:00.001+08:00

shiyun is TIRED. but i just finished solving the rubix cube after looking at all the steps... so complicated. how do ppl even memorize all of the alternatives and solve it in a world record of 11 sec? SCHOOl is normal... oh well. i wanna sleep.

welcome to mudane times...
shiyun.

2008-01-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

YAY NEW SKIN!

2008-01-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

yes i suppose what i said was really right. i'm totally abandoning this blog. urgh. anw i'm gonna give it a new skin to compensate for it. x) there's nth much to sch nowadays... well.

312's doing pretty well i should say. i'm quite happy and contented in our lil class. haha. there's this funky side to our class as well as the "Hi i'm ___ and i hate chemistry" thing. so well i currently am ok with everything. how neutral.

CCA just got auditions. and i mean the response was actually not bad, but then in the end we kind of recruited about... 6? i dunno. i wanted to watch auditions lor. but oh well there's next yr. and i'm sure i'll get to watch it. so, expecting juniors!!!

ok... gta rush proposal. what a short post.
council-FBI/CSI!
shiyun.

2008-01-04T18:55:00.000+08:00

ok welcome to a new year 2008! 4 jan le. shiyun is officially tired from telematch, CCA concert and exhibition. and i can see i won't be updating this blog very often. but oh well.

so school started out fine on the first day, just that i really really missed 203 and during lunch we talked alot, said how we missed each other and crapped abt our new classes. seriously its hard to believe we're separated bcos we still have so many things to say and we are still like one class. so it was pretty bad the first day, although it was really nth much going on in sch... 312 was ok. i mean first day, well everyone was still quite quiet or in their own cliques. and then third lang came, i got really really excited. and our class merged with the B class and now we're J3.11. we have a really great teacher cos she's really nice and all. and she has amazing ear power she can hear like really soft talking ok. and she taught us the un and the uun, like how the tone is like and everything. so YAY i'm gna love jap this year.

and for 312 teachers, i guess its rather OK... i mean i realised that my sec1 tchers were the BEST but well its acceptable. SO FAR. but i'm actually more concerned abt class bonding than tchers cos, its the class that makes yr 2 years in ny memorable. well, 2nd day and 312 is talking alr so i guess we're not bad. still haven't gotten to know some ppl yet but the ppl around me i know. haha.

today. tiring. skipped class. so first thing we had telematch, which was ok, but i left halfway for cca. and then cca concert was so screwdddddd. i mean ok its lack of rehearsals and everything but it really damages the morale after that. i mean who LAUGHS at an emo and even morbid piece? HUH? but anw exhibition was much better cos the whole club was getting really enthu! and so ppl signed up. i won't say alot but it's like normal number... ohwell, looking forward to new juniors. and i wanna watch auditions. =D

ok crap i just smsed mrs ng i'll be going for maths olympiad. i didn't really know if i should go but... urgh finefinefine.

ANW, i realise that good tchers have to be treasured. ALOT. cos when they're gone you'll start to miss them. and i do, ok. i miss 203, i miss zzc, i miss all the nice tchers that taught us. like i really didn't mind if the whole of 203 went on strike and sat outside the 203 classroom and then demand for zzc to come teach us. but gosh i'll have to start all over again. start all over to like my class, like my tchers... i suppose 312 will be bonded, but its gna take time...

and i hate missing school. miss for one day and i'm totally clueless about everything. esp IH. =(

i rmb duael last last year was so nice and the standard was so good. like at that time i was like so enthu i was hopping around and asking if there were anything to do. and we had to sweep feathers and everything. so after duael it kinda dropped. heh. sighsigh... think we screwed alot of stuff since last year. guess its everyone's responsibility right. and cheryl and i were talking abt it and it all voices down to the attitude. and seriously sometimes i really dun feel like going for cca. but since this is our cca then i suppose we should do our very best and gambatte ne!

last thing. haha. i think the jap taiko drummers are so cool and pity i missed their performance in the audi cos, guess what? i was screwing and unscrewing and joining wires to lights and plugs. like i'm not a physics person and had to join live wires to something...NOT TRAINING FOR ELECTRICIAN! not gd and not interested in such stuff. but anw CO got to like let them stay in their houses! jealousy comes in. at this point where shiyun is being nipponised she'll do anything jap! haha. and so i wanna go see them. either at tiong bahru plaza or thomson cc tmr. japppppp!

and i'm reminded of hagimoto sensei, she asked me what jap idol i liked and i said yamapi. and then she said watashi mo. haha. i still think the un and the uun was so funny la. YAY i heart jap. toudai's in my list of universities! and if i must migrate then i'll migrate there. or maybe australia. ok i'm not migrating...

O-K... i am so beat i need dinner and tv. and i realised i've past the hunger stage alr. was so hungry during the bus ride back.

and mrs ng sms-ed me on the 3rd day of school. i'm still kinda shocked. hehe.
FOOD, glorious food.
ittadakimasu!!!!

ooh, long post.
shiyun.

2007-12-31T12:12:00.000+08:00

this blog is stale stale stale. and its gonna get worse cos school is starting and hols are ending. boo. belated christmas and a happy new year's eve! ok so it isn't that happy. and i dun want to start school cos its like starting the cycle all over again. stress is back! and probably bigger. i hope they don't do any teaching for the 1st wk cos theres like cca concert and sec1 orientation and i need time for class bonding!!! i have only like 2 actual days to class bond on the first wk of school. oh wow... 312 do me proud!

and i'm praying for GOOD teachers. i dun mind if they're abit quirky but spare me the boring old normal ones. esp for lit. i want good teachers.

i realise my personality is quite split in some ways. well i guess it depends on who is it.

3rd lang class merged! and yay its a jap tcher. like born and bred in japan. i suppose its a female. ok i think. setsuko hagimoto. girl? guy? oh well so long as he or she keeps my 3rd lang flame burning bright.

ok i'm LATE. i realised. and countdown today? i dunno... see first. if there's actually ppl going. haha. how many failed attempts to meet up have we done?

shiyun.
belongs to 312'08 in 2 days time.

2007-12-21T18:06:00.000+08:00

short post. hehe. no time... sry.

council camp! yes the seniors were right i guess. it was tiring but after camp you'll start missing it. a really different experience from all other camps. lots of PT and cheering but good bonding time! right. well, i will see how i go along in my council term next year and jiayou jiayou jiayou! i know i have all my council mates alongside with me.

today got back to cca realised i had to catch up a bit. but anw saw lots of p6-ers today buying books and it was like nice to know you're a senior! =) well we'll all be juniors and seniors in our whole life so... haha.

and i'm currently quite good now cos i just finished my stupid chinese book review thingy... and it was like write abit then think and think and think, then write abit again, then think again. wrote quite alot la but didn't think it was VERY good. well...

reminiscing hokkaido, council camp, 203... things will be quite different come next year... lots of things to do and manage. oh well... its just not very fun to adapt to another kind of situation like sec1. haha. but oh well... i'll get along. =)

christmas christmas christmas. its like all the festive seasons are here again and school's reopening soon. there's always this bittersweet feeling you'll get at this time. sighhh. haven't packed my sec2 stuff to make way for new books. and talk about studying... HAHA. dun think i'll really start studying until like week 2 or 3 when i shake off the holiday mood for good.

shiyun.

2007-12-14T14:51:00.000+08:00

pictures!!! these are only the ones in my cam, there are lots more in the other cam...

outside the salmon aquarium farm... though it doesn't look like one... ha.

the white chocolate factory! which was closed but outside was so so pretty!!! like a mini magical land.

the eiffel tower? haha... odori park's clock tower. very pretty!

hokkaido's famous lavender. this was in the greenhouse cos it was winter.

this is so pretty! love this photo. still the greenhouse.

penguins @ asahikawa zoo.

SKI RANGE! no one skiied though. except the tour guide.

i took this from the hotel window one morning. everything was so white...

my automobile! the ride was fun but not very thrilling. but still it was expensive.

auntie teresa and uncle donald in the bus. they look like they're involved in some illegal cash exchange... with the sunglasses and all. haha.

PRETTY! one of the most satisfied pictures. love how the sun shines through the clouds.

same place with the house in zoom. pretty!

noboribetsu's jigoku valley. natural hotspring in short.

zipai. -,- i was bored. was waiting for everyone to go shopping.

OK thats it. i'll download from the other cam as well. think there are nicer photos.

shiyun.

2007-12-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO i'm back after weeks of MIA. hokkaido was great! ok so it wasn't the best but it's always gd to get out of the country. not gna write much anw...

DAY ONE:
travel travel travel. the plane had very few nice movies to watch anw so i was basically playing games or sleeping throughout.

DAY TWO:
sapporo. basically alot of sights to see... still wasn't snowing yet but the places we went were very pretty and nice... yeah. salmon aquarium, chocolate factory... i can't rmb. we had hotpot! with diff kinds of seafood. like scallop and sea urchin RAW. very very good.

DAY THREE:
asahikawa. more sights. and this time we saw snow! very nice night atmosphere.

DAY FOUR:
went sledding. ok the very cheap one cos no one knew how to ski and we had very little time. so sad. i'm gna learn skiing. soon.

DAY FIVE:
sat the snow automobile. which was fun but not thrilling. and they said only ppl over 16 can drive but i drove anyway. illegally. and the mountain area weren't that high and dangerous so half of the journey i thought it was just a trial run. but still fun. and i met yi ming there. sososo coincidentally. and we had teppanyaki. very very oily.

DAY SIX:
shopping like crazy. scoured the streets of sapporo, bought a whole lot of goodies. ate ramen.

DAY SEVEN:
woke up at 4.30 to rush to the airport in freezing weather... yeah. travel back.

ok a highly brief account. i really dun mind going back to japan anytime. or mebbi its bcos learning the language makes you very very interested in the whole country. it's nice cos even in the bus i was trying to make out signs and words in jap. and try to understand japanese shows in the hotel tv. and trying to communicate with ppl when shopping. it's FUN and i'm quite sure i'll go there again. so it was a nice trip, i mean my tour group was quite interesting in a way and the tour guide talked alot which was good in some way cos i had interest in it and with my family and my neighbours it was quite fun.

i'm going back to japan soon. and i'm gonna learn my jap till it's fluent and good. i realised it's something i really want.

ok so back to reality. and i realise i have alot alot of things to do. and i get stressed. even before i reached changi airport.
1. i haven't bought my stuff for council camp
2. i haven't really memorised stuff for council camp
3. i haven't even started my chinese essay
4. i haven't finished my CAP portfolio
5. i haven't packed all my sec2 stuff and get ready for next year
6. i'm still in hokkaido mood.
7. i'm getting fat from all the food in hokkaido. and guess what? council camp's gna be physical.
8. it's 2 and a half weeks to school reopen.

guess i idled my holiday days away...

time to get cracking.

and i'm hoping next year won't be too much for me.

shiyun.

2007-11-23T18:40:00.000+08:00

haven't posted since last wk. ok... well contrary to last week this week is one heck of a week. actually this week passed quite slowly i felt. like ever since choral night, 2 weeks have passed but quite alot of things have been done actually. and the freaking bad thing is, i think i'm really losing my nice nice voice ok. like i sound ok when i talk but i can't hit high notes! ever since choral night and i think cheering made it worse. i so dun wanna lose it permanently.

SUNDAY-18/11
went to escape after youth, finally. it was open but then some rides, the nice ones, were closed for maintenance. and if some rides were closed then actually there's nothing much there cos there's so limited rides there. and there were few ppl only, compared to the no. of ppl who wanted to go initially. we basically sat everything, ok for the ppl who came early (lingo amelia steph) but i didn't sit wet and wild cos it started to rain! oh and amazingly, bimbos could drive a go-kart! and amelia who's usually very pro in everything and i thought she could drive kept banging into ppl. haha. looks can be deceiving. actually all the rides are really mild, even the invertor which turns you upside down. after the second round or so i didn't really feel very scared. and the sao xing haunted house which had no live ghosts at all and then the normal rides which bring you round and round and you just admire scenery kind of thing. haha. and when it started to rain we went to play the carnival games. tried our luck at the shooting the ring at the bottle one cos it had a very cute dolphin toy there but apparently it was impossible. and then watched the horse-racing one and then sandy won this purple crayon toy at the water gun station which got steph really mad cos she could have won it. she could have actually. so... rainrainrain then we got wet being sheltered under a tiny umbrella, took the shuttle bus to mrt, bought sherm's present at white sands and then went home. went to j8, bought mos burger, went home, bathe, eat, watch tv, sleep.

TUESDAY-20/11
we had pre-cheering session to learn all school cheers, council cheers and song. and then after that i rushed back home, hastily last minute packed my bag and rushed out of the house again for cca grad night. to parsir ris. AGAIN. but in the end i didn't use like half of what i packed. anyway grad night was FUN! and it was more fun than class chalet actually. ok it's not very nice to say that but then cos the seniors got everything planned out, we played cards, monopoly, wacko, barbequed, snacked. so it was like every minute you got something to do. and FINALLY ok since after exams i've been asking ppl to play bridge with me and then nobody knew how to play, i got to play round after round of bridge! HAHA. barbeque was GOOD. ok partly because we were just eating and the sec3s were barbequeing, but then the food that they barbecued was good, much better than our class' failed nuggets and erm... burnt ones. but then of course it was nice fanning like crazy during class chalet. BUT anw, this time i ate more than class chalet and played bridge with sec4s! cos i was so bridge-deprived. and then later we went up to the room, slacked somemore, played monopoly... blah.

then we had the hand over ceremony. oh and it wasn't as serious and emotional like last year's. each batch had to give the sec4s a batch gift. so it was like a nice tee with the word mercury for van, a nice wallet for sherm, a nice fish necklace for limyu and a pink and white striped bikini for jessie! HAHA. and it was bought on that day cos apparently it was last minute. so it was funny. handover was nice with the candles and all and the sec3s made a very nice booklet thing for the sec4s with photos and all. so sweet! then the speeches by everybody and stuff like that. then after that we walked eiffel to watsons outside the chalet, got caught in the rain... then when it started to get late everybody started going home and the stayover ppl who were not gna sleep were playing monopoly. and i was winning!!! until cheryl paid yingci $11000 for her nassim house. then we went out to the beach at 3+am, walked around, got our slippers soaked in mud, slacked abit then when back. and this time, no more ghostly encounters like class chalet. everybody was kind of dead when we went back to the room and started sleeping.

WEDNESDAY-21/11
woke up at 7+ and realised only the sec1s who apparently didn't sleep at all had gone out for breakfast and steph was the only one awake by then. the rest were still sleeping and so the whole room was like dark and quiet and depressing. so me and steph went out to get some fresh air. then slacked and random talk... until about 9+ we got this call saying we had to check out by 1030 and most of the ppl haven't got out of bed yet. so woke everyone up and made a fairly fast cleanup and check out. so in the end, the morning was quite useless, like class chalet.

went to white sands after that to lunch and vanessa was scaring us about OBS. i realise i'm gonna face alot of physical stuff starting from council camp to OBS... and i'm not exactly fit ok. then slept on the mrt to city hall... went with cheryl to van's house where she blurted out chunks of bsp stuff which didn't really make sense to me. chinese politics and modern history... something i will lose interest in quite immediately. and cheryl was also blurting out weird chinese names and words. oh mann... i realise i'm actually quite limited in knowledge. haha. and i realised vanessa is a very disciplined and hardworking and guai person. makes me feel guilty...

TODAY-23/11
DEAD tired after today. realised that my arms were totally weak already. council cheering session was a whole wake-up call... i mean i expected that the seniors would be harsh but then it was tough, physically. i mean i'm not the morning person who can get physical in the morning but at least it was something that i cannot forget. council's gonna be tough and i think it's gonna be tougher next year when we really start council work together with school and cca. it's gonna be worse than this. and council camp will be worse as well. just hope i can pull through and become a stronger person.

then after cheering session had cca immediately. which meant warm ups stretching yoga, some short device work and it required us to lift our hands for a long long time... so which meant i was working out the WHOLE day. ok until 3 that is. of course cca is easier than council. then went to eat lunch and talked and went home. sweated the whole day, was dirty and smelly... and i slapped my thighs until the capillaries broke. its gross. but i think most of my council batchmates had the same problem. repurcussions of cheering.

right... clean and nice. all ready to indulge in some tv and sleep. yay...

shiyun.

2007-11-16T17:38:00.000+08:00

this whole week is pretty wasted i guess... except for finishing that english compo. and then i realise i have one portfolio to do!!! anw been thinking about the whole 2 years and its like we really went through alot alot. its sad to see us split. but anyway few ppl i wanna thank for these wonderful 2 years. not that i dun appreciate the others but these ppl made up the centre of my 203 life.

LAO DA. lingo.
the one that always never fails to go out with me/us, is funky sporty cheerful chio and ASB. she wasn't one of my first friends, in fact we never really talked in sec1. but this year we got to know each other more and more, and she became my "wanna go down and eat" friend. haha. probably because we go out alot or more often than the other "4 of us" recently, i became closer to you during the later parts of this year. and i realise you're a very very nice person to hang out with. so, thanks for making my 203 life a more exciting one, cos whenever i wanna go out or do smth, you always say yes with a smile.

LAO ER. linghan.
the other ling. one of my first friends in NY and has been with me for these 2 years. cheerful, loud, sometimes childish, sporty, muscular (lol), sweet. and who can forget the unrefined laughter? still rmb what i said in the audi at the beginning of sec1? and i guess its quite true. and maybe cos we're both christians, and we've kind of experienced each other's happy and sad times, this is what pulled us closer together. and although you're not the kind that goes out, k-box, shopping, watch dramas, you're fun to be with. and even though you're the very straightforward sort, and i admit that there were times i disapproved of the stuff that you do, but in the end you're really sweet and you care for your friends. and i've always admired your family. cos you're are like really sweet and close together. thankyou, for being there when i need you.

LAO SI. amelia.
brainy, tall, totally maths and science person, realistic, practical, fun, funny. haha since when did we start comparing heights? you're really awesome and it's realy comfortable hanging out with you. at times you're funny and you pout. and you're always the one that brings us back to reality and makes sure we finish the project on time. so we can't really do without you, cos like that we would continue crapping and the stuff wil nvr be done on time. i suppose maybe cos we're of similar heights, and just 4 days apart, it's easy to talk to you. thankyou for the comfort you give me as a friend.

TABBY.
stone and sometimes moody but with a very very gd heart. and i think i was closer to you in sec1 but then as tablemates in sec2, you really gave me support when i needed it. i gotta say i don't hang out with you alot, but because we both have the same faith, you're always there to give me appropriate help and support and i'm very very thankful to you. religious or not, you're someone that always pulls me back to my faith, telling me to do my QT, writing verses and all that. and i think singing christian songs with you during the recording of the cd, or the one with ms koh, is something i can take away. because that was the time where i felt i could proclaim my faith. thankyou.

bigbimbo.steph.
fellow TCNer, first person i met in NY. well... sitting beside you in sec1 was interesting. haha. and i have to say that although i feel our way of thinking is quite different, you put a big smile on my face. cos you're always full of crap and bimbotic. so i guess it's fun to talk to you. you're the one that actually bothers to reach out to everyone in the class. always enthu, taking pics. and you don't really get angry, although at times you get pissed. and you don't bear grudges. beneath that bimbo-ness, i see someone who loves to be loved and tries to keep the peace with everyone. thank you bimbo, for adding spice and colour to my 203 life.

thank you class comm.
thank you teachers.
thank you LORD.

and for the rest, even if we were in different cliques, even if we quarelled before, even if we nvr really talked, i thank you for just simply being 203. cos 203 will not be 203, if there weren't the 33 of us.

shiyun

2007-11-14T16:38:00.001+08:00

312'08 is still stuck in my mind. apparently there are 6 ex-203 ppl and 7 ex-ATS ppl and 3 TCN ppl in there so i'm thinking it will not be so bad cos i know quite alot of ppl. how to get along is the question i suppose. but anyway the feeling now is like starting a whole new year anew. kind of unsure about everything. but i have this feeling 312 is not gna be like 203. i mean the whole feel wil be different. maybe bcos of the ppl inside. but anw i suppose 203 is like 312 in a way, made up of quite different ppl. oh well... JIAYOU 312'08! i wanna know who's the FT. and all our teachers.

oh sheesh. right. i'm looking forward to a new 312'08 with new teachers but with 203'07 still firmly lodged in my mind. and can nvr forget zzc for the 2 years.

ぜったいできる！

see ahead. smile.

shiyun.

2007-11-13T18:14:00.000+08:00

shiyun finally knows what it feels like to be alone. like really alone. and i'm quite amazed i can not talk to anyone for the whole day. i mean besides the very basic talk. and i think i know how it's like to feel hated. and feel like a big loser as well. and i see my confidence diffusing away from me by the day. yes, apparently i'm quite depressed at the moment. can't be helped. drowned myself in dramas, finally finished my justice essay. and looking at the sec3 class allocation just made me worse. 312.312.312. i can't imagine 312'08. how will it be like? i actually know quite alot of ppl there but its like i dun wanna start knowing ppl all over again, making friends all over again, starting sch all over again. i don't know. too many troubles.

i just need things to clear up. NOW. like RIGHT NOW. i feel very stuffed inside.
but as always, i tell myself to face everything with a smile. cos when you smile, you don't let ppl feel what you feel inside, and its better rather than make them gloomy for the whole day. you'll realise that whatever's inside will start to get pretty numb and immune.

though there's still a dull pain.

can you just NOT torture me like this?
我没有若无其事
只是无法开口

shiyun.

2007-11-09T10:49:00.000+08:00

shiyun is currently suffering from loss of voice, bad cough and overly emotional attachment to her class 203. after like 3 days really together with the class, after class chalet and choral night all packed together, i really really come to realise this is it. maybe class chalet and choral night were all too high and fun i didn't come to realise but on wed night when i walked out of school to the car i suddenly felt like "crap, this is the last time we can ever ever ever be together".

class chalet was not what i expected it to be. i mean it was not AS fun cos of stupid escape but i gotta say i thoroughly enjoyed it. and even though we didn't get to see the sunrise, it's still company of friends around me that i really savoured. cos when we came for the barbeque quite late, what i saw was quite heartening cos firstly quite many ppl turned up. and for those who have always objected to different cliques in the class, i felt that it has come to a point not that there were no cliques, but the different cliques were able to communicate with each other and have fun together. so of course you'll have your own closer circle of friends, but when you're able to extend it to others in the class and be able to work together, now that's what i call a united class.

the next day in the chalet was mainly sleeping cos everyone was tired after staying up late. by then there were like only 10+ ppl left but i still liked it. it's nice spending a lazy morning with some of your friends. and then at night when i went to watch choral night, my voice was already giving up on me and i was popping lozenges like there was no tmr. that was when it got me really really scared that i will completely lose my voice on wed and cause my group to forfeit their chances to perform. and that would really be my fault cos it's the last time to work and perform together as a group and as a class. i mean such things are just quite unfortunate and the whole night i was thinking i really couldn't let my class down. so that night and the next day, with a whole pack of medicine and healthy food (ok minus the ice-cream), i managed to keep my already croaky voice to a certain standard. at least, a croaky mcbeth will be better than no performance at all.

choral night actually went faster than i realised. the rehearsals were actually quite bad and regarding the "those who can project their voices are not projecting it", i really did try ok. and despite a hoarse voice i tried to put emotions in it. and i want to applaud the agents cos of missing ppl yall actually had to come up with something new on that day itself and yall did it wonderfully on stage. everybody was great on stage. and even with a lousy plot and not really an audience's favourite, i feel that we have done our very very best.

high-ing after choral night was inevitable. felt that usual high after a performance. awaiting the other group to finish their performance and then cheering and singing as a class was touching. but maybe it just went too fast. everything was suddenly over and everyone was hugging each other and crying. or maybe i couldn't grasp or realise fast enough cos at that time i was still quite "not very emo". and then briefing and then we walked our separate ways. and when i walked out of school alone,to the car, then i felt it. that sense of SHIT I REALLY DUN WANT IT TO END!!! kind of feeling. and really deeply missing 203 to bits and can't bear to walk out of the school kind of feeling. guess i'm quite slow at realising stuff. or maybe it only comes out when i'm alone.

coming back home, waking up the next day, i plunged from a 3 day high to an all time low. probably due to too much highing for the past 3 days, i suddenly went really melancholic. and still missing 203. still had that emotional attachment to 203. over within 3 days and back to normal life. or perhaps i was still struggling to adapt back to the old normal life. and i realise this happens to me qutie often.

thurs. usual family day outing to botanic gardens. was totally not high in the morning. it was like i just woken up from this really sweet sweet dream. or maybe i still haven't gotten over choral night or 203. but walking in botanic gardens suddenly reminded me of amazing race during lsc. and it was like walking here and remembering we did some game here. and at some point of time i really felt like tearing but obviously i didn't. too much memories of 203. went back home, skipped lunch and fell asleep in the afternoon.

things started getting better at night. went out to eat, walk around. and ok the depressing moments started to get better. at least i could enjoy the night out with the family. nothing much actually, just went back to normal life.

at least there are still outings left with 203 ppl to escape, to movies and etc. i'll never hesitate to go. and even if we just spend our time idling in shopping centres or eating i really dun mind. just wanna spend more time with 203. spend the remaining time left. oh sheesh... the last thing i really want to see right now is the list of sec3 classes for 2008.

trying to get hw done. which brings me even more back to reality. and somehow i lost the urge to study or touch any books. i know i'll be busy in december, cca,council, hokkaido... and sometimes i feel quite frustrated that time is just flying past my face so fast. don't wanna move on. don't wanna promote to sec3. and i know no matter how much we promise to ourselves that 203 will forever stay bonded and united, how we're gna have class lunch every week, how we're gna meet up every 20/03 or how we're gna have class chalet again, the truth is, 203 is gonna split, and breaking away is inevitable. one day we're gna grow in our own ways and we'll not be seeing each other for 8h a day, 5 days in a week everyday. we'll not be as close as we are now. there'll be another class for us to commit to, other friends that we spend time together and different projects and hw that we'll have to do. and that's what makes me really sad. that this strong attachment with 203 will start to fade away as we move on. i don't want this to happen but this is like a phase in which when it finishes we have to move on to a different phase in life.

i love 203. but looking back at the previous classes that i was in years ago, there's just this unwanted feeling that 203 will not mean as much to me as it is now. but i pray that this friendship will take us through our lives. people say secondary school friends will mostly be friends for life. i hope this is true. but i'm just asking myself, when one day i leave my sec4 class, or jc, or uni, i'm gna have this same feeling again. we enter a phase of life, grow to love it, then as we finish that phase, we hate to leave, yet when we enter another phase of life, we will grow to love it again. we say so many things that we dun wanna leave, or dun wanna say gdbye, but when we move on we break away. it's like what we're saying now will not last as we move on.

203 forever. harsh reality tells me it's very very hard to achieve. countless times we say 6A forever, 203 forever then "some class" forever. has it ever been true?

but for now. it's 203 forever.
i guess there are so many memories for me to keep.

二零三
我们这一班
克服了种种困难
最终只是真纯简单
两年的美好时光
深深留在心房

shiyun.

2007-11-06T13:41:00.000+08:00

dun feel like posting. and haven't posted for so long.

ok fundraising was good overall cos we sold all our flowers and cookies even before the interval so we didn't even have to set up our stall during the interval. and we raised like $323++. WE ARE PRO. and flowers are a hit.

chalet was like ok just that stupid escape theme park has to po wo men de leng shui and be closed yesterday. so stupid so in the end we like went there so early for nothing. so we went to shop. haha. and then barbecue was ok. everybody was like crowding around fanning and fanning. yup. then we went for night walk and saw this red thing on a tree and got reallly freaked out. erm and then after rounds of cards we wanted to stay up but then everyone started falling asleep one by one. then i realised amelia ba zhan-ed 3/4 of the bed so i could only sleep in one straight line. haha. then in the morning we wanted to see sunrise so we went down to the sea but then we only saw a very bright moon cos the sun was covered by clouds. haiz. then slacked, slept, breakfast and went home. all in all chalet was fun but then could be more fun IF escape was open. AND also IF i DIDN'T LOSE MY VOICE. i'm gonna die tmr...i'm gna be a voice-less, croaky mcbeth. thanks to brownies and cookies and macs and shouting and screaming. i'm like dunking all the "liang" stuff now. sigh. pray pray pray tmr i get my voice back. or at least, be able to talk like a normal person.

class chalet in one para. i shall post more about it next time la cos i'm in no mood to blog. going for choral night today.yay.

shiyun.

2007-10-31T18:37:00.000+08:00

the start of the hols.
CCA CIP at bugis. quite crap, free labour, stoned, talked, quite nice bonding time.
went out. spent money. food. earrings. random stuff.
baked brownies and cookies. watched tv.
watched jap dramas on comp. slacked.

oh well dun feel like blogging at the moment. but still, choral night is coming and i hope we put up a good show. i mean with such a crappy plot, it better be good. and class chalet is coming too i am EXCITED! yayness. play in the beach, barbecue, slack, crap. escape! class bonding. i gotta say this week and next week will be quite fun. then after choral night performance it will be really really sad. somehow i dun want the day to come. ='(

i like hols because...
there's class chalet!
there's choral night!
there's hokkaido trip!
there's camps here camps there!
can go out more!
can watch more jap shows!
can sleep in late!

i dislike hols because...
there's homework.
there's cca.
there's boredom.
203's gna separate.
school's gna start in 2 months time.
it marks the end of sec2 and the start of another stressful year.

oh WELL. i shall just forget, have fun, savour the last memories and gambatte!

random. [[ i am little miss fickle. i wear little striped mp3 socks and a maroon bandana and i love sudoku. am currently looking for fish earrings. i spent most of my money on food or snacks. still haven't paid my debt for my friend's present. ]]

this is like a sum up of what i have been doing, OR buying for the last week. the result: i am currently going broke.

shiyun.

2007-10-27T11:28:00.000+08:00

school's like officially over and frankly speaking it isn't a great thing at all. last day of school started off pretty dead in the beginning, playing rounds and rounds of speed which lingo got really good at and then stoning off. level closure was ok... i mean our montage isn't that fantastic but it really did show the 203 spirit. feel quite sad that some classes dun get to show their whole montage. well... and we didn't win any prizes either. but that's quite normal cos 203 doesn't really win alot of prizes. but i gotta say we r still one of the most enthu classes.

203's a very simple class actually. i mean we are just very simply "lame" in our jokes... we can play very very childish games and still bring out the fun of it. so simply stating, we are really very simple. i love the time when we got back from level closure, the whole class was starting to get really high and then the 4 of us started sitting at the back of the class and singing. the whole class started to join us! like the whole back table was filled and then everyone was crowding around singing class songs and all the songs related to 203, doing "i've got peace like a river" and singing "where's the peanut". it really brought me back to like the essence of 203. like how we're quite different in certain ways but we really can enjoy something like this together. it's really cool cos everyone's joining in, you can see lydia smiling and ppl are taking photos and video taping. the atmosphere got really really high, and i was laughing until my stomach hurt. and then the most like emotional part (for me) was when yanquan suddenly burst out and screamed really loudly THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS AND THREE CHEERS FOR 203! it was really such an outburst i was totally touched by it ok. i mean i knew she was very happy and touched when the whole class was singing but that outburst really brought tears to my eyes cos you could see how passionate she was and how 203 really really is very very unique. it's not everyday you see yanquan screaming at the top of her lungs ok.

203 will be something really memorable for me cos it's a class where everyone can connect and there's just this bond we share. i mean last year was quite turbulent for us with all stealing and cheating cases but this year, i think 203 really has grown stronger. and you see ppl who dun usually care about this class starting to open up. it's seriously touching. it's down to the last few days with one another and it's gonna be another time of parting. just that this time, it's more hurting to the heart.

203 may not mean much to some, but for the 33 of us, it meant 2 years of our lives.

as the first line of the chorus of love so sweet by arashi puts it,

思いでずっとずっと忘れない　空二人が離れていっても
in my memory i'll never ever forget this sky, even if we're apart

i wish all 203-ers all the best for the coming year.
and GO FOR CLASS CHALET!

shiyun.

2007-10-20T13:36:00.000+08:00

currently pissed at the moment.

dun worry... i'll get over it quite fast.

but i really hate it when i am alone in the room and then ppl suddenly barge in and scream at me.

and i dun even know what's happening.

urgh

2007-10-20T13:10:00.000+08:00

haven't really been updating nowadays... post exam is like simply boring, everyone's just huddling together and playing cards. haha. just put up mercury again ( and i do hope its the very very last time) on thurs. ok la no big screw ups. it's time to look forward to another new production. been missing learning journeys and choral night rehearsals cos of cca! so sad cos its supposed to be class bonding time. and i wanted to go to the art museum. not that i'm very artistically equipped but then i've nvr been there before so... but then there's also this cca cip thing which will take up 4 nights next wk. ok at least there's smth to keep me busy...

i've been like hanging around at serene centre for many many days... haha. it's post exam, it's after school and too early to go home and you can't do anything at home either. but it's quite nice just talking cos you really get some inside info from ppl. hehe...

next wk should be more exciting... i think. there's family day, volleyball competitions, sandwich making competition (-.-), level closure, class closure... and i hope the montage will be good and i'm all ready to cry then. it's the last wk of school and it's gonna be really really sad. considering how far 203 has come from the turbulent times during sec1 to a much more united class... oh sheesh i will miss 203, all my friends, all my tchers, all the memories. i'm thankful to have a great class, with a really nice FT.

i did ok this year in terms of marks... i mean stupid eoys pulled down my LA and humans... but overall i guess its not too bad la... about the same as sec1. i was improving! but then oh well i shall just chong for sec3 and everything... and i'm contemplating going for the creative arts prog. see how la. i dun have a portfolio at all...

holiday hw spoils the holidays... like 2 compos, algebra ws.

this is a boring post.

looking forward to class chalet! yays. hope more ppl come.

shiyun.

2007-10-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome

Oh, I could stop and count successes
like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal
to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need

And now I seek no greater honor
in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses
to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

thank you LORD for the fairly well piano grade, even though i thought i would fail, thank you LORD for the chinese grade, even though my compo wasn't as good but my paper improved overall. thank you that i didn't break my promise and i really studied for it. thank you LORD for the maths grade, that despite being discouraged throughout the year, u pulled me through and made me strong, thank you LORD for guiding me through the exam period, that at least i still had that smile, that strength.

i pray for tuesday, that whatever grade i have is yours. that no matter good or bad, it will be your will. i pray for cca, that it will be smooth and you'll provide me with that joy and enthu to do my very best. i pray for choral night, that the whole class can put up a great performance, that we'll feel the bond together, i pray for my friends who have walked with me throughout these 2 years. i pray for the year, that everything will be in your hands, that everything will be for your glory.

who am i without u? for i came here with nothing, and i shall leave here with only a heart to worship you.

shiyun.

2007-10-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

things just start sloping downwards after the exams. i mean, u get yr papers back, u slack in the classroom, u TRY to prac for choral night, u HAVE to buck up for cca (memorising lines), u sit in front of the comp and rot, u decompose in front of the tv. fine, its not like that's a really bad life, i mean, i would like this more than exams... but, considering the fact that it is I, who naturally is not that sporty, that outgoing, that sociable, NEED some fun at this point. in a world where people are alive, fun and always on the go, i seem to be lagging behind, i seem to be stopping, without saying a word. yet in a second world where i live, it seems i'm the one wanting to jump, wanting to go out, yet the world just falls dead on me. it's really not my natural thing, to socialize with everyone on the planet, or to just go out with anyone i see. seriously, count 8-10 years back and u won't see me like this. well, i grew changing gradually. i preferred sitting back and listening to the whispers of the earth. but, call it being pushed, i was pushed to the front, to the face of the earth. it is a change. people at the face of the earth do not see the other side. they look on forward, they are charged with enthusiasm, they want to advance. being there is great, cos u move forward, and more ppl are there. most of us want to be there. it is where, it's great and its fun.

did i ever try looking back? yeah ok, deep inside i'm not a very face front person. sometimes its nice to be at the back. its nice to just look back at everything. it's really where u tear down all the fronts, all the masks and see the individual in you. i mean, reflecting on who u really are. i really like, and i really appreciate heart to heart talks, chats that just are a simple reflective time. it really beats going down to a wacking party and go back feeling all high and... these are stuff we all love, we all love the front of the earth, we feel that sense of exhiliration. but when we question the soul its really all about the truthfulness and the depth of this life.

i like feelings. i like to feel with the heart. its not really called emo-ing, but, its a certain connection that i would like to make. the heart is really what we're supposed to listen to. that's why i prefer the depth and beauty of language as compared to cold hard facts. it feels. it's something that links to your heart and you can really feel and express.

call it drama.emo.whatever. but if u ask me whats my real personality, i really can't answer that question. i can only tell you now,

i am HIS. God's the one i can trust forever.

shiyun.

2007-10-09T10:52:00.000+08:00

WHO AM I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

2007-10-09T10:18:00.000+08:00

liberation has finally come! exams weren't really that long actually... and i dun really feel that FREE actually. ok partly bcos during exam time i was also slacking as usual... but then well now i'm really free i can just do whatever i want... heheh.

science ended with a kind of bad note... haha cos i didn't know how to do some of the questions. thats really really bad. i wouldn't say the paper was hard la, but it was not easy too. ok fine mebbi i didn't study as well or smth. but anw after exam we went out to eat at west mall, which kind of had practically not much stuff. but then thank u thank u linghan, lingo and amelia for the cd! and i was quite lucky it came with a complimentary cd as well! hahah. and then later we went to see mrs chitra at mgs. and bcos we stopped at the bus stop opp kap right and it was raining heavily and it was quite a long walk to mgs, amelia had this really crazy idea to just run in the rain... so we ran, hongzi and all. haha it was so weird la cos we were totally drenched and then the little mgs girls were like carrying umbrellas. think we were quite weird. but haha i was quite amazed the guard actually let us into the school since we were so wet. but i actually like the after-rain feeling. its quite nice and refreshing.

then we saw mrs chitra which was like really really nice! she was so happy to see us lor... so she bought us drinks and then we went to like talk. and it was really nice cos it didn't feel like a tcher-student relationship, but more of friends. she's still cool and funky. its really great to see her again. our class missed her to bits! and it was quite funny cos we were like gossiping in this quiet canteen of mgs. i think we were quite loud and there were like ppl looking. but, nevertheless, loved the time spent with her.

then later me, lingo and amelia went to AMK hub to buy linghan her present. and linghan better like it cos we spent a whole lot of time choosing and walking inside as well as outside the mall. and we like walked the whole mall at least twice ok. and the sport shop where we bought the present, we went in there like more than 3 times. at the end of it we were like so embarassed to go in there to buy the present cos the person already knew who we were. haha. so if linghan doesn't like it, i dun care she MUST like it. took great pains to get it... sigh linghan's taste ah... very hard to get presents leh!

i wanted to go out today lor... even planned it with ppl. and then cca had to spoil it all. like 12-3 is such a bad timing to have cca cos its in the middle of the day... so what can i do, i just like spent my morning on the comp, on videos, listening to my cd. ok i think its really bad to repeat the production again cos it will not be a one-time only thing. then u won't really miss it. sigh... tmr as well... and third lang some more. i have a feeling everyone's gna pon it la but then it's not very nice.

dunno la... i have 1/2h more. after exam must play as much but somehow i'm not really doing it. hah. i am waiting for class chalet.

shiyun.

2007-10-05T15:02:00.000+08:00

3 days to liberation and one more paper left! ok its not very estatic at this point of time. and too bad i'm still gna analyze papers. haha...

i think exams now are starting to get abit harder... after LA paper which was like OK only cos the passage was quite hard. and i didn't know how to do some questions. plus, summary was so short i added alot of extra stuff to make up for the words. my compre has always been bad so sigh. but i guess its still ok... i guess i could pass. geog today was so-so... i mean considering the fact that i tried to study all the stupid topics which are really boring but couldn't memorize them properly, i guess it was not too bad. they tested agriculture! which was the one i really hated. and then i didn't know some questions for both questions so i didn't know which to choose. but ok i chose global warming that one but then i started to regret after i did like half of it. but then i didn't care already so i just continued. some questions i really didn't know ok and the graph was hard... so i just crapped out alot of stuff and erm crossed fingers. aiya but then geog... i'm so glad i'm washing my hands off it next year. well, ok there's IH but then....

science last paper. and i haven't really studied. well, i studied bio today, mebbi except ecology which looks really like geog to me. physics is gna take me some time to understand and chemistry i just need to be really familiar with equations. but science is not that bad to study. not like geog, which i think i subconsciously chose not to rmb the facts. maybe its a mindset. but then i'm gna do my best for science cos i wanna score for this. ok...

i finally got to try island cremery's apple pie ice-cream! which was really really nice! they had crusts and chunks of apple in it and it really tasted like apple pie! been there so many times but nvr seen the ice cream and then today we came when they just opened and there it was! their apple pie is really nice and the ice cream as well. haha i'm coming back for more apple pie ice cream and i think i should go when they just open bcos it was finishing when i bought it. well... it will happen when we liberate. haha.

i dun like the wkend... it's boring except that can sleep late but then i mean lazing at home besides piano and tennis... must study science tmr. i'm getting really sick of studying. and come to think of it i wonder how i ever got thru 8 years of school cos i dun really study a lot... i mean i dun really MUG like crazy i just sit at the table and stare at notes... last minute. and then i realise next time when i go JC i'm probably gonna die cos i'm really last minute. oh well... my aim for this year is all A1s if i can and score well for LA so i can be fully persuaded that lit will be fine for me...

closed door, table, fan, comp, radio, wind, table lamp... dull dull dull.

i need jap shows, escape theme park, chalet, movies, food, hokkaido.

shiyun study science starting saturday.

2007-10-03T14:53:00.000+08:00

this is what happens when i slack. haha. but anw since im bored...

THREE WEIRD THINGS ABOUT YOU
i talk to myself. yeah steph's gna agree totally.
i laugh when i'm not supposed to. or when there's like dead silence
i sing in the bathroom. haha!
THREE NAMES THAT PEOPLE CALL YOU
shiyun
tung
crescent
THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE
30/09 - isn't that such a lovely date?
holiday dates!
the day when he comes again.

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE PAST 33 MINS
watch tv
blogged, and i'm doing it again
ate smth
THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY
be positive! (haha so inspirational)
rely on him
dun think so much. its sometimes better to be simple.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AS OF NOW
secret
yi lu xiang bei
qi li xiang
jiang nan
i'm relieving old songs...

THREE PEOPLE YOU MISS
my previous LA tchers. they were so awesome...
6A batch
i WILL miss 203...
3 GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE
cold hard cash will do...
something really personal and sweet to me.
multi-linguistic powers. hahaha.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES
scribbling/sketching
singing
music

THREE PLACES YOU WANNA GO FOR HOLIDAY
japan!
france
some place where no one has been before, where its cool and refreshing.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON CHARACTERS
ermm...

THREE GIRLS'/BOYS' NAMES
yamashita tomohisa! =D
matsumoto jun
erika toda

THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO
dun really go to malls... except like j8, coro and ah dunno...

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE FASTFOODS
nuggets with barbecue sauce!
mcspicy/cheeseburger
does ice-cream count? mcflurry!

THREE FAVOURITE DRINKS
strawberry milkshake
bubble tea
milo?

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG
books
stationery
paper.

THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS
peach pink
cream
pastel green

THREE EVENTS YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO
class outing!
class chalet
hokkaido trip!

ok... haha. this is getting boring...

2007-10-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

hah maths is OVER! great and today's paper was kind of short so everyone had time to check! but still stupid me just had to live up to what ms chooi said in my progress report. C-A-R-E-L-E-S-S. ok how could i care less about this thing? first paper was ok and i could do the questions but carelessness has to push its way thru and make the paper so yuan wang! sheesh. and that paper had no bonus question. second paper was not bad. about the same difficulty as paper1. i hereby deem that this yr's eoy maths paper wasn't so hard after all. well after getting freaked out by ms chooi who said that the paper was hard and then realising that it was set by mr chiang and ms teng,who set the killer paper in term 2, haha it wasn't THAT bad. yay. i think i finally see abit of light for my maths. its been going down down down since term2.

yesterday chinese paper was ok. haha such a typical answer for such a typical paper. did gong han about some stray cats in housing area which was typically boring and really not my kind of writing. compo was...well ok chinese compos are kind of boring. did the ji xu wen, hah as if i would do bao zhang bao dao or some weird miao xie wen about a street or smth. i mean haha can you emo on a street? so yeah anw the ji xu wen was quite personal for me cos it really did kind of happen. and erm yes according to 2 yrs of compos, english or chinese, i always try to make it a point to dramatize everything. which is.... ke que ke dian la. compre was ok... zong he was not bad ok except one question which i'm not sure but compared to last yr it was tons better. chang wen suo duan was the usual stuff. compre as well. well, what can u say abt chinese paper?

tmr is LA paper 2. which really proves why i'm slacking at this moment. ok i mean my compre is not GREAT in fact it's kinda bad but i mean what can u study? mebbi i'll like look thru some test papers or smth. and mebbi study for geog which is on fri. ahh stupid geog. i nvr have the patience and the willingness to study this really boring subject. i mean history is quite bad enough but geog. that's the limit. yeah how does pollution come about and how do we stop it and what are the consequences. or they teach u how to grow rice or smth. b-o-r-i-n-g. so LA's kind of unpredictable as always, u can't really study. i really dun mind not studying geog cos if i fail its not gna hurt that much. its science which i haven't studied. and yeah science is quite impt for me. compared to geog, science is a wee bit more interesting. except the e.m.f.s and potential differences and resistence. oh yeah i'm so resisting this topic. sh-eesh.

ok... i promised myself i shall start work at 4. and its 2.35! which means i can still slack a while more. haha. going to school tmr will be so stupid cos its only a 1 half hour paper. oh well... 203 ppl got a little high during break today and they were writing lame jokes on the board. like why did cinderella's soccer team fail? cos her coach was a pumpkin! and why did the refree give her a red card? cos she ran away from the ball. and what drink did somebody give David Beckham when he was too afraid to kick the ball? justea, which means just "ti"(kick). amazing how our class can be so... haha. there's no exam mood in class.its just all so high. and i like it.

shiyun.

2007-10-01T17:33:00.000+08:00

ask me why i'm blogging now in the middle of eoys... haha. well it was kind of sao xing studying on that special day.. ok so it wasn't that special but i mean no one likes studying on that day right.

LA and history went OK... i guess. i mean the LA psg was smth we all had seen before but then i'm not very sure of the second question. and compo, well not my best i felt, but on the whole quite satisfactory. ok i didn't even have time to check. i was like hastingly speed reading thru all my ans and then zzc went "ting bi!"... argh... history was OK... i was so pissed merger and separation didn't come out for SEQ cos i spent time studying THAT. in the end it came out in SBQ which was so... bleh i dun like SBQ. and er the questions were quite indirect. i mean answers are all in yr head its just a matter of which one fits the ques.. oh well i also almost didn't have time for that. also not enough time to check thru all... took so long for SBQ until my SEQ were all in scribbles... ok i mean its over i am washing my hands off fricking history. we now live in the present and i realise chinese is tmr!

which is bad BUT also good. i mean chinese is not a study subj so i suppose its ok to slack a bit. there's only like gong han and si han format and all the xiu ci shou fa to study. but of cos i'm scared of duan wen tian kong cos i can flunk that really really nicely. think my record was like 6/20... haha and i got 10 for last yr's eoys which was really bad cos at least a decent grade should be around 16. oh well its not like i have fab chinese vocab, in fact its not very gd. thats smth bad cos usually i have ling gan but don't have the vocab to write... ahh. which makes me scared of compo too. i hope the ji xu wen is not some boring old limited story where they tell u what u MUST right and add in yr compo. its so limited ok and boring... i want one-word essay. and erm i can so forget abt bao zhang bao dao and yi lun wen. i detest those style of writing. it gives me zilch satisfaction writing that.

but ok... surprisingly, once exam starts, everything seems to like calm down. pre-exam period is the really jittery period where i start going abit stress-high. but then now its like yeah ok... its not so bad. and yes i'm counting down its SEVEN more days to freedom! its nearer by the day!

oh yes i have to talk about my really bad seating arrangement. i am right in front of the teacher's chair as well as a visualiser and all the tcher's stuff. so its pretty irritating when u look up and u get this really horrible view of the visualiser and the invigilator. i mean haha i dun like invigilators being too close to you... rmb last yr some tcher stood behind me for like 10 mins during eng compre and i couldn't concentrate at all. well this year its worse cos i'm right in front... well positive aspects, i can be sure i will NOT cheat and its pretty easy to ask for extra paper like that. i mean most students have to raise their hands and flail it vigorously in the air to catch the tcher's attention. and sometimes u hear loud whispers calling "zzc!!! zzc!!!" haha.... its easier to like move up and tell the tcher softly or mebbi just fling a hand across. but so far haven't had this problem. tchers are kind enough to know when i need paper. which is nice. haha.

RIIIGHT.... chinese paper tmr. and i can't believe i actually promised zzc i'll work hard for this test. i mean do i look like i'm working hard for chinese? oh well i didn't guarantee gd results but ill try my best tmr... wish me all the best!

shiyun

2007-09-26T14:31:00.000+08:00

ok i'm supp to study and when i try to study i either start sleeping or stoning and when i really study finish i realise that mebbi i didn't memorize everything completely then when i try the test papers i dun really know them and i have to keep on looking back and i realised i have been studying but i dun really fully understand... and then its like some i studied but i'm so scared i have NOT really studied them and then some are like not even touched yet which is really really bad and then i have jap exam tmr and i'm supp to be studying now and then i haven't really did my maths which is BAD cos i have a feeling i'm gna flunk that and then humans are kind of done except for history last topic but i cannot really rmb everything in full and my science not touched and i realised i dunno lots of things for physics and bio is not even memorized yet... so for now i'm fricking

DEAD.

ahhh.... this is badbadbadbadbadbad....i shall get back studying.

2007-09-25T18:18:00.001+08:00

shiyun's gna do a really fast and short post before she bathes and studies Romans, which means bsf. i mean ok bsf is fun but the class is a lil noisy. well i mean its quite irritating at times but God says to pray for them and yes i guess i should be patient and just do what's right, yeah?

and anw home learning is... i'm so scared i cant rmb my stuff i've learnt cos i'm chionging alot of stuff... ok i mean ppl see this as last min but then everybody is last minute right? unless yr the really mugger sort. sigh i really hate nationalism. its such a long and political topic. sry, not interested in politics. eew. and then oh gosh my geog is really bad now my science is totally clueless and my jap... i have exam the day after so what exactly am i doing? ok u can see that i'm crapping cos i realy have to go... urgh.

so i actually can't wait for school cos i really hate sitting at home studying... grrr. but then i mean exams are coming i'm really scared i'm gna flunk alot of stuff. like english which is really hard to score, and maths which is getting worse by the day, chinese which can be really unpredictable, science cos i'm really clueless at this point of time esp physics, geog bcos i have no heart to study and history cos, well, no time and a whole lot of political stuff.

this.is.bad.

ok i should really just get off the topic of studies. but then everybody's blog seems to just talk abt this... anw we must jiayou for drama on thurs! and dun let mrs chitra down, although i mean do we even really care about frizz? but then i know our group is really gd although we may not be as talented or dramatic or enthu than the other group but then we have this really gd quality that everyone just does what they're supp to do and no one really quarrels. YAY. so jiayou jiayou we must pass this thing ok and do a darn gd play!

ok i'm late, as usual. hah.

shiyun.

2007-09-21T18:17:00.001+08:00

hello.. i think i stopped for a while. haven't been on comp for quite long. well... its not like i'm studying. the problem is i fall asleep every time i try to study! so now its like pressing for time... argh... anw jap oral was quite bad... i mean firstly i didn't like the tcher, she was so mean... if u didn't understand she'll sigh and shake her head which makes u feel really bad. and yes i mean i didn't understand some of what she was saying totally... like the sentence was so weird. but luckily the last part of the conversation saved me when she changed topic and i knew how to answer... haha. speech and reading was ok. i think i can talk but can't listen. but anw i just have to do well for written which is 90 marks. oral is just 10 marks. so how bad can it get right...

ok after long thoughts and hesitations and panicking, i finally chose my subj combi. i mean it was so dilemmic. took bio, chem, CLEP and lit. was deciding between lit and history and then finally decided i wanted to get myself off facts cos i'll really sleep memorizing them. CLEP was originally intended already cos BSP was seriously history in chinese which is totally not for me, and CLC was like too normal. oh well i like creating writing... and then i've come to the realisation that i can't do physics and i really don't see the reason why we have to learn physics, its so weird. ok so i'm happy about my choice. except that not many ppl are taking and close friends are not taking it. but still hope can get into same class as them. there is still a possibility. haha come to think of it i always have this already made up decision from the beginning like the year before and then months before the deciding date i will change my mind... just like how i wanted RGS for the whole of pri5 and then suddenly changed to NY in p6. i thot i always wanted to take triple science since sec1. but come to think about it now its not really worth it. haha. and parents and tchers do not have real advice to give lor. they say the same old thing. in the end its still yourself who has to do the choosing. oh well i'm not regretting the choice for now..

anw... i can't believe i actually got like highest in lvl for that AMC thing... i mean i nvr keep track of what competitions or quizzes i go for... so i was seriously blur when ms chooi told me that cos i was kind of like not really listening in class... hehe. but its really honoured to have yr name printed on a brochure and then being like cordially invited. haha. but still, its not like my maths is so gd cos i'm still dropping. my maths grades are dropping! which is so sad...

home-learning is just tons and tons of test papers to do. can't even study! have to do all the test papers that the school gives. sigh i think i'm gna do history one, and chinese, mebbi maths? and then i still got third lang to study k... i'm jianchi-ing for jap, which is why i'm not taking hp. haha.
after eoys i'm so gna drown myself in jap shows, have a wacking class chalet and enjoy hokkaido! sigh

the grass will be greener once you cross that really high fence. but that day will come when u cross the fence, its only a matter if you easily jumped over or you landed really badly. i'm gna try jumping over the fence and not land on my face. then i can fully enjoy the greener grass.

stupid metaphors. haha...
shiyun

2007-09-20T11:40:00.000+08:00

this week is like total screw ups... first our drama wasn't really considered a performance. we totally blew the whole thing cos we weren't rehearsed and we have to do it again. yes apparently it was due to a lack of time. er herm, which is not really our fault cos everything was so so so last minute. who can we blame? i mean its like we were quite on time until last term where we started to do really irrelevant things and we kept delaying. so of course, we didn't have time to practise. wasn't surprising we screwed. and there's no point telling us cos its time not used well...

and... piano exam yest was screwed too... i mean screwed my 2nd piece which was supp to be like my best and most "promising" piece acc to my piano tcher... but haha. and then aural and sight reading which i'm already not good at... haha. i just wanna pass now. i mean the examiner must have mercy on ppl who are not very musically talented...

anw jap oral today! i must do this well to make up for my terrible piano exam yesterday. sigh i rmb i screwed oral last year cos i didn't understand the last question they asked me... so this year i must do my best! i think its gna be harder cos you learn more vocab and my kanji is not fab. and my grammar is horribly inaccurate. haha. but of cos i'm nvr gonna give up jap cos its the best subject where stress isn't a real problem.

tmr handing up of subj combi forms! and indecisive me has not really come up with a decision yet. i mean its betw history and lit... although i'm more prone to taking lit but i still dunno leh. and like very few ppl are going for lit. unless i can pull linghan along, although she is more prone to taking history but she is considering lit too... i dunno... my chinese and sciences are settled. and i tried talking to zzc but it ended up the same as talking with my parents cos they are all so suibian. i mean i need like recommendations of my ability right... sigh i realise adults don't help. and i dunno how i'm gna come up with a decision by tmr... howhowhow??? the last panic stage. i realise i always make last minute decisions cos from last yr i've always wanted to take triple science. but then this year since july i've been changing my mind to take humans. haha. same thing as coming to NY. hope i dun regret my choice. and hope i have a nice class next year. like 203.

ok... IT is so boring... and once again i failed my IT challenge. i mean i always fail IT stuff. got certificate of participation for IT quiz by UNSW. but i mean its not that impt so long i can use word, ppt, blog, surf the net. i think its sufficient already. well, was never the IT whiz anw.

well hope my exams start off well... 1st school exam of EOYs today! watashiwa gambaranakutewa ikemasen!

2007-09-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

wkends doesn't seem as stressful to me... haha. but anw. yesterday i had this really bad encounter with my hairdryer. i mean i don't use the hairdryer often and pian pian when i used it yesterday something bad happened. cos i was drying my hair like in a hurry cos i had to tie my hair and rush for piano right... so i was switching between high and low heat. and then suddenly i smelt this bad burning smell so i switched it off for a while and then on it again. and seconds later that hairdryer sparked! i was so shocked and scared i kind of threw the whole hairdryer on the floor. and then it sparked two more times and conked off. worse, my whole house power tripped because of that. haha luckily it didn't like burn my hair or smth. and i didn't get an electric shock... but ok that hairdryer was so old it had to go...

anw to more exciting things... we had mid autumn festival celebration at hci yesterday night, which was fun cos almost half of 203 went... at first it was kind of low, everyone was like ok... guessing all the deng mi (which i guessed correctly and then got this really weird hci band) yeah and then performances. i think hci wushu is like so so much better than NYs, cos i think firstly there are guys in there. i mean wushu is like quite weird with only girls right. and they were fighting like some gangsters on the street. which was quite cool. there were some guys behind us cheering really loudly. ok... i thot they did the lighting very well! i mean jc right what can u expect.

after the performances we went to light lanterns! which was kind of funny cos i dun think ppl actually brought lanterns along. but we took some time lighting our candles because the wind was so strong and we were taking pictures and walking around in the field. and then, because enthu ppl like laura and amaris and kim and linghan were there, we kind of started breaking into songs, ranging from really stupid ones like hi-5 to our fave class song! it was so funny and horribly embarassing cos alot of ppl were looking at this crazy bunch of red shirt NY girls singing so loudly in the middle of the field with lanterns. actually we were enjoying ourselves alot and we were cheering like xiao until about like 3 guys started walking towards us and kind of laughing at us. and then we were like oh crap... then we started to walk away.... and i think he said, "stop liao ah?" gosh it was super embarassing... haha but then our class is SO thick-skinned i don't think we felt it at all... haha.

so after that me, lingo and amelia walked linghan to the bus-stop. after that when we were walking back, cos it was so dark right and they had this net thing in the field. we couldn't really see that there was a net so we found ourselves trapped in the middle of some netting... haha. yeah but we managed to get out and then we found sharon. and she said that the rest of the class went on stage to sing at the mass singing session. we were like "WHAT?" i mean we were really embarassing ourselves already... Haha...our class can really do anything.. but luckily they weren't ON stage. they were like with all the hci ppl and singing. so we went to join them and realised all the songs they sang were hci songs and we were kind of out. i think the ppl were so amused that in the middle of the quadrangle there was this circle of NY girls singing like crazy. HAHA and then while we were really losing our heads, this guy and a girl came to us and the guy was like "can i join yall". the girl was like too shy to ask. we were like "..." and then he really did! for a few seconds. haha it was so hilarious. our class was enthu and tried to be enthu when they sang songs which we totally didn't know. it was like all hci jc section around us. not a single ny person. HAHA. after singing session was dance session. and we finally decided to get out of there and not be a dian deng pao already. cos i mean it was supp. to be a hci thing. i bet ppl thought we were really weird cos everyone was looking at us. haha. so during the dance session we left. ok it was embarassing but really really memorable. look what 203 can do. go out there and embarass ourselves, but forever stay as one class. gosh i'm loving 203 to bits!

mid-autumn festival will be so memorable! haha to think i even hesitated not going. sad its over.

tmr back to school! stupid drama stuff... i really hate my character. i mean our half of the class is not enthu about this thing... oh well... and subj combi form is to be handed in by friday! and i haven't decided yet. indecisiveness always leads to panic last minute. i bet very few ppl's gna be in my class next yr. which is really bad cos i will miss 203!

we shall party till we drop after eoys. for now, its back to books and business.
shiyun.

2007-09-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

its really heartening to see 203 bond, caring for each other. its like maybe if you look from the surface, 203 is made up of many small cliques but deep inside, even if no one says it out, everyone has this special bond with one another. and i think that's what makes us special. 203's quite different, in a way that we're always crapping out lame stuff, basically, our class is more of like a primary school class, everyone's always laughing, everyone's always crapping.

its so great to see how 203 has like grown over these 2 years. cos i rmb last year was quite a tough one, and there were like many problems. i like the 203 now. we have bonded, matured ( well in a sense) and really showed care and concern to our classmates and teachers. 203's made up of different ppl, in a way, the hardworking ones, the really crazy hua chi ones, the lame ones, the quiet ones, the cool ones... but i think towards 203 we all have this common love. its this spirit that's so beautiful.

i'll cry, 203, when the time comes to part. (i have this feeling very few ppl's gna be same class as me cos very few ppl are taking my subj combi... i may change my mind mebbi) i think on that day, we'll have a 1 hour mass crying session. keep that spirit, 203, i know how quiet the class was when steph left. everybody felt it i guess... we laugh and cry for one another.

we rock! and i really don't feel bad for nominating ourselves... haha.
let's enjoy the last few months together. as one class.

jiayou for eoys.
shiyun.

2007-09-13T08:04:00.000+08:00

everyday's like obliging you to mug... argh.

piano's like AHH its one wk and i'm not ready ok... and its like major major grade 8 exam! sighh...
jap oral's one day after. which makes things even worse.

sigh... its september! the nice month of the moon.... haha.

i have kind of nothing to post, except that now its revision and more revision and we have freaking geog for 2 h later... i have a feeling i'm gonna sleep...

BORING. i want to like fly to japan now...

can the whole class like not mug? its pressurising...

2007-09-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

i really hate this time of the year. although its lovely sweet september but... sigh.

but anw thats not the purpose, we went to eat jap food yesterday! haha...

we had kind of like a crappy seat, but then you could like see all the sashimi! raw and uncut... haha. i was thinking of stealing one.

appetizer! that gooey thing is yam. but its really nice with the sashimi... this looks nice right!!! haha...

the always-order dish--tofu!
fried squid. its nice and full of flavour.

i'm starting to ask myself why i'm tempting myself at 1130pm in the night. but anw...

we went for the duck race today! haha didn't realise it was such a big scale thing cos there were 3 big buses to send all of us there. it was so so so hot... haha and we waited for like 15 mins beside the truck that was supp to release all the ducks... they delayed 15 mins! and the exhaust fumes were terrible. and cos we had tickets for the race, we were entitled free pass to ACM. which was really nice... haha although i went there before. its quite cool... but quite scary too. i mean if you get trapped in such a place you'll get really freaked out. haha.

today was like rush man... cos after taking mrt and bus back home after the duck race, i filed my stuff, cleared that big fat disgusting file of mine and packed my bag, then rushed down for tennis. yeah tennis after walking at the S'pore river. haha.

well everything's like settled now... tmr ready for school! NOT. ok quite ready but dreading the studying thing and exams... which my piano exam and 3rd lang oral is on two consecutive days!!! SIGH. everyone's mugging now... and it kind of like seems WRONG not to mug huh

its 7 hours to waking up, and 8 hours to school.

wake me up when october 8 ends...

shiyun.

2007-09-07T17:59:00.000+08:00

holidays are a bore... i can't believe i actually started studying ok. cos if i remembered correctly, i didn't study until like week 2 last year... ok well its supposed to be good i guess. but seriously i have notes but i don't have knowledge! haha... holidays are ending. and next term is one heck of a term. council duties have started and everyone's on full gear to race ahead of the other. tension's on... well i'm not really bothered about like ppl. i just see the stuff i have to learn and faint. overwhelming indeed!

tues went to linghan's house to study geog with amelia. haha and we did study a whole lot! i'm quite amazed actually. ok we did talk but then we were so hardworking we finished notes on fricking agriculture which was so long and tedious and really irrelevant. unless someone wants to be a farmer when she grows up. yeah you see? but it was fun, more fun than studying at home, crammed into this small space and cramming info into your already small brain. about 5-6h spent there and i have to say it was quite good time spent. yay. at least geog is kind of studied and notes done. just need that whole lot of revision. well not like i like geog alot you know. i can't wait to get out of this subject. and the school can put me into anything except geog.

besides this, my science and history is screwed. how very sad. and my maths, gosh i really ogle at my downsliding grades which is kind of like a x=1 graph, which really is a straight line, down. but, knowing myself, i'll most probably chong everything in term4. which is not really good...

something more exciting... i went to learning lab for replacement yesterday. and when i walked into the room, first person i saw was jiajun, and i was like WOW she comes to TLL? and then seconds later i saw kenneth tan on the other side of the table, and i was like OK too much coincidence? and THEN minutes after the tcher came in, i saw claire from my previous learning lab clas walk in. the world indeed is too small, needless to say a dot in this small world. HAHA. it was so weird, cos like i knew half the class ppl but then each of them were different types of ppl. and one of them looked seemingly familiar... but after class claire came to me and told me that ms cheong went off to italy with her lover! and my tcher confirmed it.

ms cheong! how could you just run off to italy like that! you didn't even say gdbye... and you should invite us to your wedding if you're going to have one and provide us with air tickets to italy!
wow... pretty teacher runs off with lover to italy. i told jiayu and she was like antagonised too.. so sad... i'll miss ms cheong. part of my long ago memories. ok not so long ago. haha.
in gamba! mi mancherai! (and if i'm not wrong, its "take care! i will miss you!")
ok yes my italian sucks. can't believe ms cheong learnt italian in one year!! fluent italian.

ok... have been like poetic emo-ing these few days...
shiyun

2007-09-07T17:21:00.000+08:00

Look Within
by WhtDove

There is so much beauty in
This wondrous, blue rose
If only we could capture it
Within our very souls

If we could take its beauty
And apply the glow within
Search a little deeper
In the soul beneath our skin

Take what it does stand for
And shed its love abroad
Don't hide the glow within you
But share the love of God

You know you can't touch beauty
Without it rubbing off on you
And spreading it to others
In the kindness that you do

There lies within each one of us
The beauty like this rose
When it's used in touching others
Then its beauty overflows

Fifteen Crosses
by Lisa Teller

I had a dream I was kneeling, at fifteen crosses on the hill
Not a whisper from the trees, everything was still,
I felt a sadness in my heart, an empty kind of pain,
Fifteen souls had gone away, only memories remained.
I tried to cry out to ease my grief,
Lifted my hands to heaven, prayed God's relief.
Not a sound or a word, emptiness abounds,
My sorrow overcoming, I began to drown.
Such bitter suffocation, I wish someone could hear,
Why we let this happen , in my dream nothing was clear.
I shook my fist to heaven and begged for reasons why,
But only silence spoke, offering no reply.
No sound came from my lips even as I screamed,
I prayed it's just a nightmare, an awful kind of dream.
Then I heard a choir of angels beckoning from above.
"The world is reaping hatred,""Because the world's not sowing love."
"You should embrace each other's differences no matter what they may be,"
"And enlighten each other with the hope of peace and unity."
When the angel finished speaking, she ended with a sigh,
Gazing down at fifteen crosses of fifteen souls who said goodbye.
Then the heavens opened up, the angels giving way,
up to the gates of heaven, Amazing grace began to play.
And as they left this Earthly realm the angels were downhearted
looking back at fifteen crosses of the recently departed.
A soft rain began falling, but no cloud was in the sky.
Then Jesus whispered to me, "This is how the angels cry."

2007-09-07T17:04:00.000+08:00

为什么
幸福总是那么短暂？
当化身天使的你涂涂降临，
我甚至连你洁白的羽翼，
都没来得及触碰。

为什么
痛苦总是那么漫长？
当眼泪花过脸蛋的时候，
我甚至无法看清，
你转身时的表情。

在写满着困惑的世界里，
我轻轻拾起遍体鳞伤紫色贝壳，
仿佛听到了晴天娃娃的哭泣，

我努力回忆，
我们曾经的点滴，
为什么一切，
却像是许愿喷泉里的幻影？

这一切还会回到最初吗？
我轻声问起，
风中，
却听不见你的回应。

天使街23号

2007-09-04T17:42:00.000+08:00

夕月夜顔だす　消えてく子供の声

遠く遠くこの空のどこかに　君はいるんだろう

夏の終わりに2人で抜け出したこの公園で見つけた

あの星座何だか覚えてる？

会えなくても記憶たどって同じ幸せを見たいんだ

あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

行きたいよ君のところへ　今すぐかけだして行きたいよ

まっ暗で何も見えない　怖くても大丈夫

数えきれない星空が　今もずっとここにあるんだよ

泣かないよ　昔君と見たきれいな空だったから

あの道まで響く靴の音が耳に残る

大きな自分の影を見つめて想うのでしょう

ちっとも変わらないはずなのにせつない気持ちふくらんでく

どんなに想ったって　君はもういない

行きたいよ君のそばに　小さくても小さくても

1番に君が好きだよ　強くいられる

願いを流れ星に　そっと唱えてみたけれど

泣かないよ　届くだろうきれいな空に

会えなくても記憶をたどって同じ幸せを見たいんだ

あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

行きたいよ君のところへ　小さな手を握り締めて

泣きたいよ　それはそれはきれいな空だった

願いを流れ星に　そっと唱えてみたけれど

泣きたいよ　届かない想いをこの空に・・・

きれいな。。。本当に好き　この歌。

2007-09-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

创作是靠灵感，灵感是突如其来的，虽然没有深奥的词汇，却有颗充满着喜爱创作，喜欢靠灵感的一颗心。

寂寞

它是在忙碌的街上，
空荡荡的，
在人山人海中，
一片寂静
没人向你挥手。

它是在广阔的草原上，
没有风吹
在无边的海洋，
大声喊叫
却没得到回应。

它是在阴暗的角落里，
黑漆漆的，
没人路过的地方，
听到希望，
却伸手摸不着。

它是在心里的某一处，
想要逃走，
倔强的心压着、压着、
也许害怕，
也许不想面对。

周围的人来来往往，
看到的
只是黑漆冷漠的背影
闻到的
只是隐隐约约的气息。

那颗
寂寞的心
什么可以代替？

哇。。。突然好像变得好中国化哦。。。

2007-08-31T23:50:00.000+08:00

周杰伦 - 不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止我说再见
想像你在身边才完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落後才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

so sweet... i like jay chou's lyrics.